Easy does it!

I feel that this is not enough. I have had some time in recovery from both alcohol and gambling. Where I go from here I don't know. Do I go anywhere from here? I feel stuck in a mundane life and need to do something. I'm very happily married and got a lovely daughter. Whatever I do I want and need to do it with them too. Maybe acceptance of what I have is on order rather than what I haven't got!!

Hi ya,

That need for forfillment. I wonder if you have a passion , I have a passion for see people develope , I get a great satisfaction from guiding, mentoring and coaching people to reach there potential .

What inside you stirs that up? There has to be more to life than a mundane existence , is it out there and you just need to find it ?

I do not know, I truly hope that you find some answers .

take care

Dusty xxxxx

Hey Smiler,

Keep the chin up m8, as Dusty says, I'm sure there is something out there for you to get you motivated and excited about, you just have to find it.

It's a struggle every day, but one that is definately worth the battle!

Try not to look back at the past too much, it's so counter productive - you just need to keep looking forward to the future - it will get better.

ODAAT

Weldy

It's just a mad world at times. Hopefully something will come along that gets me excited. I have done all the studying and now have a nice little business which incidentally is nothing that I studied in!

Where to go from here is a big question. It might be that I have a trip to London and then a Greek island and I am just wanting them to come round. This is the compulsiveness in me. Other than that I'll not gamble that's for sure.

Thanks and Take care

Hey Smiler, I think you should be happy with what you have in your life. We all want a little bit more or something new and exciting - I would love my own business and to start a family but I know that I am very lucky to have a husband who loves me and if the other things happen then that would be perfect. Don't be hard on yourself - just enjoy life: “Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy.”

Hi Pink

Life is pretty good but being left in my own head space is dangerous. I think too much at times and analyse everything to such a degree. I was upset today for nothing to serious but I let my mind runaway with itself. It all comes back to anger. Although if you knew me you would never guess the anger that lies underneath everything. Still, another day without gambling or even thinking about it so I guess take te positive.

something else that I've been thinking about is people post boredom on here is a cause of gambling. Is it because they are not gambling and missing the buzz and they constitute this as boredom rather than pining for that buzz. I think it is like a boredom but we need to change our thinking when boredom sets in. We all know the pit falls but we still set ourselves up. I try to keep busy but then again like a true addict I go overboard with everything I do. Hope everyone has a good day tomorrow. Take care

Hi smiler

Learned some more wise words off u in dustys diary bout been careful of the double bluff it's just so true it so nearly caught me out but stayed strong

It's great to keep gettin those little bits of info to move forward in our recovery

Thanks

Castle2

It's about trying to replace this boredom with something that interests us.

And does not cost too much money!

NT

Possibly the worst day in recovery for a long while today but never gambled and looked at what I have instead of what I haven't. It is my HPs way of letting me know I have no control over somethings in my life. The serenity Prayer springs to mind and I recite it almost daily. Maybe forgot about it of late. I can now look back on the day put things in perspective and move on. Things are sent to try us and believe me they do. Must not analyse life too much I guess. Thanks for the posts guys. I still read lots but found myself repeating the mantra so stopped for a while.!!

Hi Smiler.....sorry to hear your not yourself today and having tough time...really glad you came on here to tell us and share your thoughts and feelings.

Its true the serenity prayer really does click in for us when we need it most...accepting the things we cannot change....

take care and keep posting out those feelings

Rach and Doo xx

Sorry to hear your having a bad day really well done 4 not gambling.

I say the serenity prayer nearly ever day myself and try 2 use it in all aspects of my life.

Hope you have a better day tomorrow and stay bet free a day at a time.

Whats the point in gambling as james P says even if we win its only ever stake money not that i ever won much anyway

Thanks!

There's no chance of me gambling as I'm excluded from everywhere around here for miles. I feel better just for realising that things ain't that bad. Onwards and upwards as the saying goes. Tomorrow is a new day!

Take care

A good nights sleep and Hey Presto! Feeling much better. Grey cloud has lifted from over my head. I felt I had no control over things yesterday and there lies my problem. I like to be in control of everything around me. I have to learn from this that it is impossible!

Take care

Hi buddy. You are making right decisions and doing great in your fight. Keep it going that way and stay strong. All the best. K.

Hi Smiler,

Thanks so much for your post this morning, it really feels at the time your the only one going through the turmoil and although i hate to think others feel the same it does help to know it's a normal part of our journey.

I'm so glad the cloud has lifted for you today and may it continue to B*****r off!

Keep Strong

Smiling Lucy again