This is a diary that I intend to keep for the next forty days, as I choose to recover from losing all that made me a man and gave me a sense of purpose.
Not really for sharing, though if it helps anyone else, good.
I was here last year when gambling had wrecked me and brought me too my knees, now I guess I am dealing with the effects gambling had on my psyche.
I am starting with a 40 day journey of mind renewal, discipline and goal achieving, and will see where that takes me initially.
At this point, I have no steady job, tutoring which brings in £250 odd a week, have a wife that I have pretty much lost, who pays all the bills and wears the trousers in the house, 3 kids who are slowly losing respect for their dad, and many relationships that are close to breaking, because of my lack of integrity.
Have had a few lapses over the year, but now is the time to take control of what I experience.
Hoping this diary will keep me on track and act as a record I can look back on.
Some of my targets for the next 40 days, are to find extra income, a job or more kids to tutor, starting doing a lot more at home, financially and physically, exercise consistently, read a lot more and living a more goal oriented, disciplined life.
Good luck John.
By the way, big hello to all the lovely people that are still here, hope your journeys are going strong.
Hey, are you still here? You helped me last year - now I'm back and wondered how you're doing?
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