So coming up to 2 weeks being gamble free and my last ever gambling loss.
And here’s where I’m at.
At first when I started losing I couldn’t stop myself from chasing and looking back it is completely insane what I was doing, putting hundreds after hundreds in to the slots chasing losses as surely the big win was just about to come. It didn’t.
Once it was over I was in a state of utter shock as I couldn’t believe what I’ve just done, it was as if it wasn’t me that had just done that. Ever since I have been in a complete daze and emotional rollercoaster. I can’t focus on anything, I can’t communicate properly, and to me it must be so obvious to others that something is going on. However, I have started counselling through gamcare which is helping and reading different things online and trying to move on. I know I will be able to stop (have installed all the blocks etc) but it’s the savings that are gone that are killing me. Almost 2 weeks in, I am getting slightly better but the guilt, shame, embarrassment and trying to hide all this anxiety and horrible feelings is still consuming me and completely draining me. Also, not wanting to do anything or spend any money on trying to do normal things is making me worse but it’s almost as if I’m trying to punish myself as I should be trying to save as much money as I can and try to regain these savings as quickly as possible. I’m taking 1 day at a time but hoping it is getting easier.
To gamble is to lose.
Hi there. Well done on your two weeks g.f 👏👏👏. The first few weeks/months can often be the hardest - at least in terms of wanting to gamble.
Also, try not to think about getting savings/relinquishing your losses as quickly as possible. That can often lure us back to gambling and chasing. My mantra since stopping (320 days g.f today) is “slow and steady wins the race”! Just try to repeat this over in your mind each day. I feel it also has a calmness feeling to our mind.
Take care and keep going. You are doing well 👏🙏.
Pink Lady 🩷🍎.
@j5a6meyr4z hi thanks for your supporting response. I have come to terms with not gambling again and I do believe it is something I can stay clear of. However, it’s the losses and guilt that I’m struggling with and finding it hard to move on with my life. Feel in a bit of a dark place but I’m just hoping it gets better soon as not in a good place currently.
thanks.
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