Failed & Gutted

Hey.great to here from you lulu
Sorry to hear things have been shatty...
And yes I'm sure you're gutted...but your certainly not a failure....failure means lack of success....and you built up some steady days before.....so you can do it again....it has also been said that we need to have "failures" to succeed...bit like a baby learning to walk I suppose...and most importantly you've come back here....so...
Get those barriers as high as you can and stick with us....x

I've slipped up more times than I can remember but currently on day 12 now and feeling good.

pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get back on the wagon. You're not walking alone. We can do this!

Loxxie wrote: ...but your certainly not a failure....failure means lack of success.... we need to have "failures" to succeed...

Beautiful words Loxxie and so true.

Hi Loxxie thank you I'm sorry I just upped and left. Still got major problems with my son so I think I've been using gambling as an escape despite everything I've learned from last time here it just wasn't enough but I'm back and sticking with it again I'm just taking one day at a time I'm tired so tired of it X

Hi Vamp thank you well done on 12 days X

No apologies needed here hun. ..
And I hope coming back here will eventually give you some peace..
Keep posting and staying strong...
X

Hey,

Don't beat yourself up....learn from the past mistakes and come back guns blazing ☺

Stay around, accept support...keep posting! You're not alone.

Wish you strength and peace going forwards.

S x

Hi lulubobs,
Well done for coming back, we've missed you. It's so easy to fall back into gambling. I'm sorry to hear about your troubles.
Stick to this site. Use your diary. We're all here for you and I for one would love to read your posts and see your gamble free days build up.
Put all blocks in place, take care of yourself, stay strong, I'm sending you a hug to help you on your new gf journey.
You can do this!! x

Well still gf but not coping too well, got so much worry with my son I just want to escape. Also work is tough at mo as I really don't want to go in, I feel trapped don't know why. Feel like just getting in my car and driving away from it all. I know the gambling just magnified problems but I honestly felt happier with it, that's bad isn't it but this place is for the truth. I'm rambling slightly but it is helping slightly. I get paid a week on Tuesday and might buy Betfilter for IOS phone, I say might cos I resent paying for something that will bring me no pleasure, again bad frame of mind to be thinking I know that. Lulu X

Hi Lulu....Google Qustodio, I have it on my android tablet and it works a treat, blocks all gambling sites.

I'm sure I saw on their website that it's available for iOS....It's Free!

M x

Hi there. Does gambling really make you feel happier? Is there something going in your life/mind that it provides a distraction from? I'm not trying to pry or expect you to go into lots of detail to a total stranger but there must be a reason why you returned to the forum and posted about your situation? Nothing bad about your last post - I admire your honesty. Best wishes, Phil.

Hey Lu welcome back, sorry to learn your still having problems with your son but hope they settle down soon. Stay strong and positive you will soon clock the days up x

When you have an urge think for one minute where you have been. We all think after time not gambling we can control it. It's so wrong we can't. We are compulsive gamblers and the mood for the loses become harder too take. Stay strong stay gamble free and beat this demon. Every time we give it is a sign of weakness become strong and become that strong person. Good luck and keep being hoe st with yourself

Thank you everyone I'll post tomorrow to everyone just wanted to say that my son took an overdose early yesterday morning so as you can imagine been at hospital etc but the good news is he's trying to get help this time, he's actually following it through which he never has before. I'm exhausted, stressed and depressed but still gamble free. I won't go back to it, my son has been a wake up call how can I preach to him if I allow my gambling addiction to run, it's hypocrisy and I'm not doing that. I used to use gambling as an escape so I didn't think about my sons difficulties but I know it just simply compounds things. Thank you for your posts everyone I will reply. I'm staying gamble free, said it before but this time it really is different Lulu X