I feel so hopeless at the moment. Cant seem to go more than a couple of weeks without having a gambling binge.
Mood has been incredibly low the years of gambling have taken their toll.
Trying to make peace with myself is truly difficult.
My thoughts are consumed by anxiety, low self worth, mood constantly up and down, lack of sleep, worry, thinking about money and debt all the time. Im pretty sick of being sick and tired.
After each episode I tell myself that is it but it has to be now before I lose everything. When I place one bet no matter how small all roads lead to total destruction.
Ive tried counselling, ive posted on here before, ive shared my story with my parents and put blocks in place but always seem to return back to the same old place.
Im hoping this time its different. I just need a bit of support from those who have beat this.
Today is day 2. It feels a little comforting to write this down.
Will take one day at a time need to remove myself from the gambling mindset completely.
Just a thought but could you try the counselling, sharing with your parents, being on here daily at the same time? Even add in some other tools like Gamblers Anonymous? Some of us need more help than others MOS
Yeah its something I need to look at.
Day 3. Sometimes its hard not to feel a great amount of shame and regret for my actions and its a big weight to carry knowing its all self inflicted.
Its hard to let go or not think about the money that is lost but I know that is necessary if I am to move forward with my life.
I will not gamble today and if I stay safe and away from that first bet I can begin to piece my life back together.
Hey buddy hows things!? The early days is always about the guilt and heartache have u rang gamcare for a chat their very good and u get free councilling. I go to ga once a week and the support in that roommia amazing! Try relax and stay off the bet!
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