Finally time to get help

All the best in your efforts to kick this nasty horrible addiction mate.

You will get lots of great and advice and support on here.

Thanks red1 appreciate it

Day 4 today I'm a window cleaner so currently sitting in my car with nothing to do but waste time , no urges to gamble but I do think about it but in a bad way which is good , I'm house sitting my sisters house until Sunday which will be good to have a quiet house . Me and my gf have decided it would be best to not talk for a while just so we both can really get our heads around this , suppose it's for the best . Live chat was good last night not much room to get a word in but good to see the amount of people helping eachother it's nice where people really understand what we're going through

Will update later or tommorow

Day 5 today

still no urges still no gambling nothing really to say except I feel a lot better about myself , had a lot of time by myself last couple days so a lot of time to reflect on my life and where I want it to go . I haven't even been taking notice of the football games this week I stumbled upon something saying 6-1 Liverpool and wasn't even sure if was a prem game or cup , that's a huge step for me usually I'm looking first thing in the morning seeing what games are on even just to watch them which will give me massive urges to gamble , I see that as a big step towards changing my routine and things that remind me of gambling , happy days so far only day 5 but I'm feeling confident

Sounds like your doing great Dav, I can't lie and say the urges are not there at the moment, hope to find the strength you are showing mate, keep it up!

Sounds like your doing great Dav, I can't lie and say the urges are not there at the moment, hope to find the strength you are showing mate, keep it up!

Thanks mate appreciate it , I think it's the pure disgust at myself and how stubborn I am that's helping .... Just knuckle down take each day as it comes and be strong buddy

Day 6 today nothing really to say except I still haven't gambled and no intention of gambling , just sitting indoors right now about to treat myself to a Chinese and watch a film . Still no contact from my gf not sure when we said we would get back in contact but can't get to down that's when I do silly things ! Good chatting to everyone last night will be on again tonight

So it's been exactly a week around this time I last gambled , feels good to know I've not gambled , I still don't feel like gambling either which is making it easier . Chat was down last night but hopefully up again tonight

hi guys im new and have a serious gambling problem and wonder if you can offer me advice to help me get throught this thank you

Thanks dean ,

I don't have Facebook at the moment but if i do go back on I will look it up thanks mate

Teddy try speaking to advisors on here or reading other people's diaries and taking tips to how to stop , or maybe start up ur own diary so people can comment on there and help you . Live chats are 8-9 every night there really helpful , the best thing I found was to find that I wasn't alone and there is a lot of people that know how this sickness feels and what it does to u . The ones that u hurt by doing it don't understand why we do it which hurts even more but by talking to people in the same situation it's very helpful . For starters depending how u gamble just block urself from online or in the bookies so it makes it harder for u to gamble , if that don't work give most of ur financies to someone u trust so u don't have access unless pay a bill etc. I hope this helps u don't hesitate to message back if u need anything else

Today is day 9, if I'm honest this has been to easy , I think all along I knew I could stop it was just saying that I'm going to stop . May have been to late as I haven't spoken to my gf (I'm guessing still gf) in about a week now and I can feel it all slipping away . She put a lot of trust in me the last time I promised I would stop and how have I repaid her by doing this. I haven't been to any meetings or counselling I've just been talking on here and it's really helping me I haven't wanted to gamble and I actually hate it now it's the most manipulative thing in the world and I really wish it wasn't so easy for people to gamble. I feel a bit down today because I don't know what's best for me and my gf , I miss her like mad but I feel I've hurt her to much and it kills me to see what I have become and how I'm hurting her . Is it best to let her go let her live her life be happy with someone else ? Even if we did give it a go she wouldn't trust me and that would cause more rows. I only have myself to blame so I can't be mad at her , I do wish she wouldn't have promised me for years if anything happened about anything she would be there for me and now the first major blip and I haven't spoken to her in a week , am I right in feeling a bit let down I guess not but at the time I needed help the most I have no1 I didn't even stay at home I house sitted for my sister so I had a week of no contact just myself and a dog. I don't know what my future holds but I pray it's better than my past I can't go on feeling like a let down all the time I have no motivation at the moment I just wish things were ok and I didn't feel so down. Also my dad and I are not talking I've missed a few rent payments so the tension at home u could cut with a knife it's horrible I just go to my room and stick on my ps4 stick on a movie and watch gambling problems on my iPad on YouTube . How can u regain someone's trust ? I don't think u can she never trusted me anyway even tho I've never cheated in my life but because I'm 'secretive' with my phone she always thinks I have something to hide , truth is I never have had anything to hide I just hate people looking through my things wether it be her or a friend or my phone or my car just anything I don't like it . What can I do if we do call it a day ? We've been together for 4 and a half years and to lose her would break me , I really don't want to but I don't see her being happy with me anymore . I had to get all this off my chest as I just feel so lonely and don't know what to do anymore.

To little to late I guess

Not having a good day today the missus ended it , pretty s**t way of ending it after 4 and a half years but that's life for ya , pretty fed up tbh don't know what's next . I'm more annoyed the way it's ended its so petty ! So cold towards me aswell now ! Oh well that's life . Now got to get through Xmas being lonely and sorry for myself

Hi Dav, sorry to hear about that bad news. Maybe things will turn round if you can prove you're on track for a few weeks. Don't let it get to you right now and be extra cautious in the face of mr gamble. I think you need to move away from the PS4... get up and do something great. Do some exercise or better still do some volunteering. Just get online and search for something local. If you don't like it after you've tried it then just stop and find something else. You always hear of old lonely people who are on their own and have no one to speak to... people volunteer just to meet up and chat to these old people who have great life stories! They've lived 80 years just imagine how much you can learn and discuss over a coffee! It's mega rewarding as they don't have anyone left to talk to so you're making their day. Just do it and maybe you can talk to them about your own probs? Have a think anyway. It's just a thought.

Dav_11 wrote: dav, hello mate - you sound exactly like me and the position I'm in! I had a problem a while ago and managed to stop ..... Then I got back into it the last 6mnths and I'm in a terrible place! Im in-£3000 overdraft so that means when I get paid next week I'll already be -£1000 before the m the has started! My gf(fairly new, 18mnth) knew I had a problem before I told her when we were "dating" but I that ugly a decent job and got over it, which I did! Now I'm hooked again! I can't tell her bcoz we r saving for a mortgage, she will finish it I know that for sure! A few weeks ago I said to her I'm in overdraft I've been betting on football too much, spending too much when out with mates etc and she believes it and gave me £300 to help me out until I got paid. Little does she know that I am really hooked on roulette in the bookies! I feel so so bad and I hate myself! I know I have a problem and what I'm doing is wrong, but I fee that the only way to get me back on track is to aim for a big win which I know is so wrong! I've gone days not getting then I do it lose and chase 5/600 for be next few days until I decide that's it enough. Few days go by and I do the exact same cycle again!!!! Now I'm struggling for money big time!!! I don't have the courage to tell her bcoz like u say even your gf does not trust you and now u r on a break, that's not an option for me as she is the 1!!

Aghhhh hate this feeling!!!!!!

New to this just worked out how to start a diary so will give it a go and something to keep me going .

I used to gamble for about the past 5 years on and off it did get very bad and affected me and my gf so I stopped for our sake and I was clean for ages then for some reason I thought I had been good so I would treat myself to one £15 spin of a roulette on a fobt even left my money in my car , next thing I know I lost and was in the car picking out my money , long and short of it £150 later and all my money I had at that time was gone I was broken I didn't have the heart to tell my gf but I felt I had to i couldn't keep it from her she was gutted but encouraged me to just start again . I tried but I was hooked again thinking about it 24/7 thinking of ways to get my money back and that's when I was back to my old self , I slowed down doing little bets here and there but twice in the last week i lost every penny I had both times and that's when I knew it needed to stop again before it took over my life . My gf has lost a lot if not all trust in me I said some silly things like I didn't want to be here anymore and I did want the ground to swallow me up , I was at the bottom of a pit I'd really hit rock bottom depression sat in and my work suffered my relationship suffered everything suffered and for what ? The hope of winning some money to help me for Xmas . It's finally time to stop and get some help and sort my life out I haven't really got a lot to show for myself except a loving beautiful gf that is drifting away and a supportive family that is worried about me. So far I'm 3 days clean self excluded online everywhere and haven't wanted to gamble through the sheer disappointment in myself that I would stoop to that level again .... I will do daily maybe every other daily updates in the hope of finding others that could help and maybe helping others aswell as I find that helps me a lot reading others pull through

Thanks