First day to end this addiction

GirlJ, yep feels good to make little steps knowing that the final outcome will be worth it. But indeed still have so much regret and guilt but overtime will 100% realise there is nothing we can do to reverse the past. Yes let's be strong and beat thus together! Big hugs S 🙂

Hi Markman, seems like we're in the same boat, couldn't stop thinking last night how much debt I'm in but then made a list and a realistic time schedule. I also have my *** annual review soon so am more determined than ever to get on an even keel. The support of everyone on here means the world to me so thanks to you guys. Have a great and GF Easter, take care S 🙂

Well here I am at 30 days and m so full of mixed emotions, thrilled to be GF for this long but so full of regrets and self-disguise as I start to realise how different 5 hinge could be by now. Really I should have my Payplan resolved by now if it hadn't been for gambling 🙁 But as mentioned many times we cannot change the past. Here is too a restful and GF weekend S

5 hinge =things

Today I feel like an island but am still GF, that is all 🙂

Glad to be at day 34 although over the weekend felt overcome by guilt, what ifs and regrets by the bucket load. Feel better now and am usually totally broke by this date of the month but actually have a small amount left and enough to see me through til payday. ..which hasn't happened for years! Well hope everyone had a great GF day S 🙂

Regrets are normal but we've got to concentrate on the positives now. Having money in bank when you don't normally is a great place to start.
Make sure you've got those blocks in place and just think how great it will be to see a months bank statement with no casino withdrawals - brilliant!!
Stay strong and take care x

Hey Sharon. .thanks for popping over...firstly. ....a big well done on your days.....those regrets...ifs/buts you had over the weekend .....they will come and go love....my guilt was one of the hardest things to overcome. ..the counselling really helped me get to a better place with those feelings.....don't let them chew you up love....the past is the past for a reason....and the reason is....it's gone. ...we can't change it...just let the past influence your future in a posative way love...keep plodding on love....
Love the bit about the clothes shop. ...I done exactly the same...and it's important to treat yourself. ..x

Great to hear from both of you, we all seem to be on the same page. Every time I feel the urge to gamble I log in and re-read diaries and remind myself that the only way forward is to not do it! and even though 36 days seems like the tip of the iceberg it feels like a real achievement to only be paying my bills etc and not feeding gambling sites. I'm so grateful to everyone here as there us no one at home to talk to and knowing I'm not a lot makes a huge difference. So here is to handling the guilt and regrets, remaining GF and a peaceful weekend, big hugs S 🙂 x

So on this day 38 I have all say to myself as daughter is out for the day. This would usually signal a day of trying to fight the urge to gamble, giving in then feeling like s*** for emptying my back account and re entering the awful cycle, but NOT today!!! Have made a strict timetable of stuff to do, people to see and places to go. Am determined to remain GF, have a great Sunday S x

Warning, this maybe a long blah blah blah. Don't know if anyone else has experienced this but last I had a strong feeling of actually everything will be ok! For so long, years in fact, I have lived in the shadow of CG and after 40+ days am finally starting to feel that I can release myself from it. I of course don't want to become overconfident and smug as I can see from reading diaries and past experience of trying that you need to have your guard up all the time. Having the site and everyone here to turn to has made the world of difference to me and I don't think I would have come this far without this support. So happy long weekend everyone and let's be kind to ourselves and remain GF S :

Yes Sharon you are right after about a month you start to realise that you can live without gambling, but be warned teh Devil is always on your shoulder just waiting to pounce for that moment of weakness.

Have a great long weekend

Stay Strong Stay G/f

Malc

Thanks Malc, I am on red alert...blocks in place, have cut back on drinking and filling spare time with anything not online related. Have a super weekend yourself S 🙂

Hello day 45 🙂 massive thanks to this site and everyone here. I genuinely have you guys to thank for getting to this point which I just couldn't do alone. Gambling has eaten me up for the past 5/6 in every aspect of my life, thoughts, health, lifestyle and of course financially. Reading peoples diaries and comments have also brought to light that maybe deep down I have felt worthless and uncared for but have realised that beating yourself up mentally 24/7;is bad news, Sorry if this post seems self indulgent but I usually keep a lid on it! So here is to a GF long weekend and future, over and out S 🙂

Hi Sharon.

Lovely to read you are still doing well. I am similar to you in terms of how things have been for you the past 5/6 years in terms of gambling. Let's not make that another year longer!

Hope you have a lovely g.f Bank holiday weekend. Take care.

Our Lady