First day to end this addiction

Thanks Our Lady, agreed! Hope to be debt free and on an even keel by the time I'm mid-late 40s. The best feeling is to wake up knowing y'day was GF and so is today Have a super weekend yourself S x

Hi Sharon

Thank you for posting on my diary, it truly helps me keep it going. I wish you all the best in your battle and I look forward to seeing you hit some milestones in the near future.

All the best

Matt

HI Matt, you're more than welcome! Nothing worse than feeling like you're alone in any difficult situation. This site and everyone here keeps me on the right track for sure. Looking forward to hitting 50 days 🙂 take care S 🙂

I can't believe day 50 is here! Everyday I check in before I go to work, this site really does keep me focused and GF. Not that these days have been plain sailing, juggling guilt, self loathing, resisting temptation sure is hard work but I know it is the only way and a hell of a lot better than digging myself into a deeper hole-mentally and financially. So the biggest thanks to all the supportive people on here and here's to a GF weekend and future S 🙂

woop 50days what a result,

Good on you and well done

Stay Strong Stay G/f

Malc

Congrats Sharon,

Really pleased you have reached the 50 mark. Every day gamble free is a day richer, not just financially. Just remember we can never win when we gamble but when we stop we win every single day.

Keep going girl

Thanks so much Gents, the support and encouragement from everyone on here is greatly appreciated, I know I wouldn't have got this far without it.Although still have a long road to travel but feel like a different person to when I started. Big hugs S:)

Happy Hawaii day Sharon

Well done and keep pushing

Deano

Aah thanks Deano, will do! You too, have a great GF weekend S 🙂

Hope everyone is having a GF weekend, I'm off on a budget day out to the big city but I know a few months ago I would have blown the money I have saved for today on online slots, so will make the most of today. I find such a connection with many people's diaries, the same feelings, thoughts and emotions. ..just knowing I'm not alone gets me through Take care S 🙂

Sharon, make today's trip the best and have a great time, you have earned it, 52 days and counting, start refilling you memories with happy times like to today, you can't change the past.

All the best Chris

Thanks Chris, had a lush day....nice lunch, saw an exhibition and spent quality time with a friend. Also felt carefree and proud that I had saved that money and not a) wasted it gambling or b) spent as little as poss and gambled the rest. I think it is finally sinking in that there is absolutely nothing to gain from gambling except misery, worry and debt, Hope you'very had a peaceful, GF werkend yourself. Take care S 🙂

Thanks for the post Sharon,

Some things are tough to share sometimes, especially when it shows us at our lowest, parts of it have never been spoken to anyone before , I've been on the forum coming up on 2 years and never really spoken about my debt or how it was for me, I only mentioned I'd had debt and didn't have it anymore. now I have some relative gamble free time its became a bit easier to share more of the things I did , as I no longer feel afraid or shamed by my past actions. I read the forum a lot and debt is always the most thing people speak about , so on one hand I wanted to say how bad it can get especially if people like I did try their best to hide it from their loved ones , but on the other hand debt can and eventually will be repaid if you do something about it ,

Thanks again for your post and I enjoyed the quote too

Deano

No worries Deano, must admit really having one of those self punishing days today....too many whys and how's like why did I let this happen etc. But have decided not to waste time and energy on torturing myself mentally but will allow myself 30 mind a day to worry and think about debt, gambling etc. Then spend 30 mind doing something positive. All sounds a bit self help/jingly bell but I need to get through this and look at the bigger picture. Happy GF Wednesday S 🙂

Bleeurge, have had such a bad couple of days, but am still GF phew!!! Just so consumed with self loathing and regrets about what a waste of time, money and headspace. I know you can't reverse time but I feel so guilty for putting myself through this and I know gambling had effected me so much not just financially. But hey tomorrow is another day and hopeful in the near future won't feel do bad, over and out S 🙂