fresh start

Things not good me mams lost trust in me, no hope. Just had a massive argument with her im angry she angry. Sick

Hi Boro,

I truly hope that u r ok and staying strong 🙂

I am thinking of u!

Take care xx

Whey, Not logged onto this site for yonks. Buddy am gutted, always thought you were a stayer! Just shows how this b**** can get ya eh!

Dust off start again, you can do it!

We been buddies for such a long time.

Grahame...I believe in you!

Womble xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Cheers charlotte and womble

Things have settled down a bit since the last time I wrote on me diary. I have a blocks in place on me laptop which even stops me accessing this website that's why I have not been on for a long time. Got me brother to put password to knock it off a bit so I can have a look on here.

Gambling wise im not in a position why I can say I never have a bet again but I have a lot of things in place so I don,t.

Really nice to see womble doing well but feel for charlotte because I and everyone of us knows what this gambling addiction is like, it only ever going to take from you

Hi Boro,

I am glad things have settled down 4 u, it was nice 2 read an update from u 🙂

Thank u 4 all ur support on my diary, it means a lot 🙂

Stay strong xx

Well im back in total s**t again. What am I doing its like self harming why am I doing this to meself. Lost 2500 grand yesterday included in that is a ******** payday loan. Got appointment with bank tomorrow to sought out all me debt got 2 loans as well as a 2500 debt on overdraft. Hoping they can put all debts together.Its killing me mam. I have lost everything through gambling and it looks like I am going to lose the the only money thing I have and that's me car because of my ridiculous gambling. Nobody else to blame but meself

Went to bank this morning but they nothing really they can do. They talked about reducing loans payments but that will mess up my credit score and I be paying for them even longer. Tryed to get a simple bank account where you cant use your card on online but I have loans on my account so I can,t get this.

So me mam has loaned me money to pay off ******** payday loan which is a huge relief.

I just want to be normal, have a girlfriend bit a money in bank but what have I got. Absolutely nothing when I should have a bit of money but I have wasted it all on roulette. I work hard for nothing

Can,t take the stress of what I have done. Its killing me

Today is a fresh start, no more gambling of any kind. The debts will eventual go down I have to make changes in my life. Still feel sick but got to put it behind me and look to future

4 days gamble free

Hi Boro

Just read through your diary and can honestly say I totally understand. I too had no idea why I kept doing it to myself over the years but now I do realise that it was a form of self harming. I wanted to self destruct to the point where I knew I would carry on till everything was gone- win or lose. If you think about it - it really is not about money. If it was you wouldnt gamble in the first place. Try and find out the reasons behind the gambling and maybe you can conquer this. You already know the outcome if you carry on so there is no point in risking anymore.

Well done on day 4 and best wishes in your journey.

Linda

I definitely won,t be carrying on with gambling linda. Can,t do it any more

Day 5

day 7

This time last week I was in a right mess with what I had done 2500 down the drain. Feeling a little better 7 days later

Got a 50 bonus from my bet victor account withdraw it straight away that will pay my overdraft interest for the month.

DAY 8 GAMBLE FREE