From here to a year

Wilsy Thank you for your kind words, I'very been reading your diary and you are smashing it!

Stephen As always you are stable source of compassion and kindness, we are all terribly lucky to have you on this forum

Day 344 Haven't posted alot recently but still check in daily. My daughters birthday is this weekend and this year I can modestly treat her with having mixed emotions about money, guilt or being overtired from staying up to late. This is the way it should be and I will do everything I can to stay on the GF path. She deserves it and so do I! Take care S:)

344 days is absolutley brilliant, wow I can only hope I get that far and will try my best, keep on going and enjoy your daughters birthday this weekend, you'll certainly enjoy the occasion much more now that like you say, you won't be guilty or overtired through gambling. Keep on your path you are certainly smashing it!

Wilsy x

Day 345 Thanks for more kind words Wilsy, you are on the right track yourself. ...staying strong despite riding an emotional rollercoaster.

Had a rare day off today and spent the day with my girl, modesty treating ourselves! Recovery from gambling has made me appreciate the small things and the things that financially cost nothing. A train ride, laughing at the same things, having a nice lunch and someone saying 'thanks for the best day ' Gambling may give us a brief high but then you come crashing down. I will hold today dear in my heart and carry on to do my best and to be kind as others have been to me here....who knows what others are going through? Anyway I shall have a glass of fizz and move another day away from gambling. Take care S 🙂

Well done Sharon, i have been reading, though not posting. I know its not always easy but your doing great. Keep at it and enjoy what the last 345 days have allowed today to be.

Just caught up with your diary sharon. It's lovely to hear how your life is turning around. Your heart must have flipped when your little girl said 'thanks for the best day!'
I know this addiction is not an easy one to shake off but feel proud because you are doing a great job. Wishing you many more happy days ahead.
All good wishes x

Hello Sharon, thank you for posting on my diary.

So pleased for you and your daughter. The time you spent together celebrating her birthday must have been quite wonderful. Great memories for you both to treasure.

Wishing you every happiness over the coming week...stephen x

Hi Sharon

Being gamble free enables us to enjoy things a lot more and appreciate them. What you did on Saturday was create a memory for you and your daughter and one that cannot be taken away or be tainted. If you had been in the gambling haze you wouldn't have enjoyed it or even had the opportunity to do it in the first place.

Proud of you as you hurtle along towards day 365.

Matt

Thanks Matt, I enjoyed every minute of Saturday! I really try to only look forward but can't help sometimes feel sad and think what a fool I've been. Especially at the beginning of recovery I tried to find my reason for gambling and one factor I think was I felt I coildn't give my daughter enough and gambling was easy money, but gambling actually took so much away from me, financially abd mentally.BUT here we are now facing the right direction. Thanks again Matt you are a strong pillar in the forums structure, take care my friend Sx

Day 352 had a enforced day off yesterday which was spent pottering around, doing boring jobs but more importantly not emptying my bank account. I have gained so much from being GF, not just fine but about me. Not Sharon the gambler, the Mum, the worker, the daughter but the actual real me. I originally thought there was no getting away from gambling and that's just the way it was, this may have been partly because I am impatient and look for a quick fix. I only have a few rules for myself now, make it to bedtime GF and cut yourself some slack. Everyone takes a different path, it's not easy but it's not impossible Take care S:)

🙂 I never come on here much any more, but just thought I'd check on you. You are doing amazing. You have shown alot of strength and courage throughout your journey.

Not long now. Not long until you will read some words to yourself you wrote not so long ago, but what can seem in someways like a lifetime ago and in other ways may seem just like yesterday.

What a difference a day makes.. is soo true. they may not always seem like they amount to much and some days will be more significant than others but a day really does make alot of difference.

Your days since your journey started have nearly turned into a year.

I wish you every piece of happiness and strength Sharon this year and for every other year to follow.

X

Thanks so much WAI your kind words and support mean alot! I do think of others who have dipped in and out of the forum, hope you are ok and are closer to the happiness you deserve, take care Sx

Thank you Sharon for posting on my diary. You have always being there to lend a hand and help me get back on the road. Your ongoing support has meant a lot to me.

It was good to hear from "Who am I" again. I was pleased to read she was still gamble free.

Wishing you a good week ahead...stephen x

10 days to go till the year ticks over, im determined to get there myself. Glad the snow has gone and the nights are getting lighter. Take care Sharon 🙂

Sharon had a wretched fall - it seemed to last for ages

On anguished days or lonely nights - she squandered all her wages

In March last year - 3 5 7 days precisely

Our heroine stopped gambling - now her life is sweet and spicy

Not always a bed of roses - life sometimes is cruel

But Sharon has courage and is nobody's fool......

I raise my hat to you Sharon and your wonderful journey of recovery. Respectfully yours...stephen x

Thanks Stephen this has really cheered me up Had a big row with my daughter earlier (usually we get on fine) and came to work a bit sad. But the plus side of this is in the past I would have hit the online slots, spent everything abs felt even worse, so tomorrow is another day I suppose. I can imagine you rapping this verse Stephen, thanks again S x