Gambling addiction is powerful and will rob me no longer

I should also add I have installed the K9 software which is meant to block all gambling websites. I have asked my mate to take control of the account and have put his e-mail down for it. So I can't have any control over getting on the gambling type sites.

I spend a lot of my time watching/reading about poker, so it is important for me to totally disengage from that, and to develop some new interests/hobbies. Let's go one time!!

I have £38 due to come through from b****5. I need to numb my urge to gamble, and not think "the damage is done, another £40 doesn't make a difference.". When that money comes through, I will immeditately use it to chip away at the Wonga debt.

I am already thinking about ways I could justify playing some poker. I must not give in to temptation and think that my luck is going to change. I can't win because I can't stop!

I know this urge well! Do not give in to that voice in your telling trying to get u to gamble ! As soon as that money comes in - pay some debts off or treat yourself with something !

Stay strong

***in your head !

Thanks for the kind words Barney.

The £600 I got from a money transfer with a new credit card has arrived. I immediately paid off my pay day loan, but that left me with a couple of hundred quid in the account.

Immediately, when my train was delayed, I decided to deposit £50 in to my super casino account. I thought I don't care if I lose, and it's a free shot to make some nice money. I was trying to get the website to work on my phone, but it just wouldn't. I realised that I really shouldn't play, and decided to withdraw the money from supercasino.

So; a weak moment. But thankfully one I came out of unscathed. But a sign of the work that needs to be done. I need to be stronger, and remember just how helpless I felt at the weekend.

Totally lost the plot.

Played a £150 poker tourney. Didn't win anything in that. Lost about £500 playing blackjack too. I feel so low. I just have no money. I've worked for 6 months now and have nothing to show for it. I'm in masses of debt. I'm so stupid. What can you do.

plz help :'(

Sorry to read you're having a tough time at the minute.
I read above that you had k9 installed on your devices. How is it you seem to get round them?
You need to plug the holes on the ship. Get your blocks as tight as possible. Have you thought about any external help ie counselling, ga?
Get yourself some real life help.
Does anyone know of your troubles?

I don't have it on my iPad. This has all been on there. I don't think K9 works on the iPad?

I love the idea of getting real life help, but I have very little free time as it is. So to find the time would be very difficult. The prospect also makes me feel very uncomfortable.

Hiya you can get Betfilter I think on iPad don't give up stopping I'm not totally sure about iPad but have a look. Deano advice is sound you can get online counselling through GamCare and they will know more than me. Another thing you can do is report your debit card lost and when the new one comes get someone to scratch off the ccv number on the back. Keep posting hun you can do this Lu x

I think there is also one that works on ipad I'm sure it's k9?

I don't want to sound critical but if you have time for gambaling you have time for a recovery program. That can be what ever you feel would suit..

To move forward you have to stop going backwards

I read your previous post from last week and it was only by some miracle that you didn't gamble then?

The end of the day it's down to what you want to do.

Your life can and will get better but you have to do the leg work to get there.
Sometimes it seems impossible to do like running 100 miles off the bat sounds impossible?
But if you break it down into 5 miles 3 miles or even one it starts to seem a lot easier.

What I'm saying is try aim for a week without gambaling then add another then a month and so on

Keep fighting bud

Thanks for the posts guys. I do appreciate them. Even know, I just thought about topping up a wonga loan in order to play some blackjack to try and recoup my losses.

I don't really gamble during the working week. It's just on a Saturday and Sunday that I go in to total destruction mode and lose all my money. Not only that, I then take on extra credit in order to play more.

The problem is the feeling of being so deep in the hole. I used to be able to gamble responsibly, but now in the days of cancelling withdrawals etc, I just never manage to make a cash out. I'm desperate to move out of living with my parents, but my finances are just so bad.

The thing I need to achieve is to not want to gamble in a few days time. The feeling I have at the moment doesn't seem to last very long. Right now, I loathe gambling. But in a few days, I'll think my luck is due to turn. Then I'll lose even more money and get even deeper in a hole. 🙁

I've been coming to this site over a year now. And I've been gambaling over 20 years compulsively. It's not by some miracle that I've never seen heard or accomplished that one last win that has amazingly sorted someone's life out and freed them from debt. And they have lived happily ever after. You would think a site that is over 12 years old would have atleast one?
The reason there isn't one is because it's a dream it's a fictional story created in our head
To keep us hoping to keep us playing. The next win dream is addictions biggest hand. The one thing that trumps any other rational in our brain.
Luck has little to do with a game of chance. Luck is missing a plane that crashes. Or overcoming a serious illness.
You have to ask yourself where you want to be in 5 year's?
You can stay the same and be deeper in debt and more than likely be even more depressed
Or you can be the person with the life your trying to win. Because the only way to achieve that life is through hard work.
Don't make the same mistakes I did for 20 year's.

Deano