Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Hi Blondie.

Glad to hear you are slowly picking up. I think we are both similar in that we expect too much from ourselves!!

With something happening in my personal life at Christmas and relapsing I'm Jan, it was then that I realised it's actually ok and good to receive help.

Take care and look after yourself, once you have done that, you ate then able better to look after other.

Feb.x

Hey Blondie..

Im happy youre getting support and dont worry about getting help..you're not a failure....you are human.

You know ,this being strong is great and shows you are spirited but one thing that someone told me was that by being strong all the time ..we can deprive others the feel good factor of giving to us.

You know that great feeling you get when you know you have helped someone and made a difference? ...well..maybe people would love and want to do that for you?...

Its hard to let our masks down as we think we cant survive with out them...but there comes a time when that mask starts to suffocate us and makes us feel lonely..

Remember when you let the rock read and be on your diary and when you told your man about it?....that was a massive step for you..and this is just another time in your life when you will take another step closer to knowing you can be strong still but not need the mask as much ..

Hope that makes sense...

((((Hugs)))

R and D xxxx

Evening diary,

Have been feeling a bit agitated and anxious today the washing machine head has been running in cycles, maybe it's a side effect of the tablets the doc did say i would feel worse before I feel better , just trying to get through the day as best I can. Can't seem to get out of bed without an effort at the moment.

Snapped at my mum earlier as well which I then apologised for she said that's good that I am getting it out, but I'm not sure what IT is ?

Haven't gambled cant be bothered with that S***e, it will be 10 months next week gamble free there have been points that I don't know how I have done it.. But done it i have.

Take care all, thank you for,the posts

Blondie xxx

I look forward to that day I can declare myself gamble free for 10 months. Amazing effort by you and one I will draw strength from. So good to know others are doing so well.

G

Hi Blondie,

Just caught up with your diary.

Honestly hun...I just want to take your pain away.

I'm so glad that you got some help...as everyone has said it is not a sign of weekness...it's an imbalance of brain chemicles......probably what caused the gambling too!

Stick with the tabs...tell hubby to be...problem halved and all that.

Hugs sent up from Oxford!!!!!

Sue xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Mornin Blondie

Do feel for u as I know its horrible and frustrating not feeling our normal selves , physically is bad enough not feeling right but the mental side of it is much worse it just drains u completely to the point where u think there's no end in right

Its true testament to ur character now that u can deal with this without thoughts of goin back to where u used to be , it will get better though like u just doesn't feel that way at the moment

Whatever is thrown ur way now u deal with it and thats something to be proud bout

Castle2

Hey Blondie...

"Better out than in '...thats what Shrek always says..

No matter whats going on just try and keep close to your pages and connected. .

Its like they say at meetings that somtimes when you least feel like it its better you show up.. ..

R and D xx

Hi Blondie,

I know you are not feeling 100 percent but I think you are doing incredibly well, coming up to 10 months gambling free is a huge achievement. I look at these kinds of achievements as a real challenge and inspiration. Your progress makes me believe in myself again.

Paulds

Morning diary,

Feeling slightly better today head seems to be setting down a bit I haven't had a,panic attack today and I've just come back from a nice long walk with woody.

Today is the first time I've got dressed in something which wasn't just thrown on to walk the dog so I suppose that's a start , I even thought about getting my hair cut lol.

The sun is shining today and maybe this is the start of sunnier days all round.

I have my operation next thursday lets see if they don't cancel this one so I suppose pysically that will be a set back but not to much I hope

It will be 10 months next week for me gamble free I am more determined than ever to make that 1 year milestone.

Thank you for the posts everyone much appreciated as always.

Take care

Blondie xxx

hey Blondie..

also off today and tomorrow and been out with wuffski..

i find walking the doggy healing and also connecting with the ground and earth is literally grounding..

The tablets will be getting into your system and taking th edge off and yep...a new doo is always a perk up for a gal..xx

sun shining,washing out.....you will go one year,infinity and beyond xx

R and D xx

Hi there

thanks so much for your support, much appreciated when you are coping with your own stuff.

So many people on here saying how much benefit they get from the companionship of a woofit. I can't wait to get another one but will see what the future holds workwise first.

Hope you continue to feel much better each day and ten months is an brilliant achievement you must be very proud.

xxx

Hi Blondie

I'm so pleased to read that you're feeling a bit better.

Heading to 10 months-you def deserve a new "dooo"!

I hope all goes to plan next week.

Take care

Irene

x

blondie

so pleased to read that those clouds are starting to lift my dear friend.

your efforts are there for all to see and share. i look forward to you reaching the year milestone, something i know we will celebrate. just for today, take it steady, one day at a time, that's enough.

again well done and thanks for sharing.

duncs stepping forward never back.

Hi Blondie

I dont post as often as i should do to you, just wanted to call in and say i am thinking of you. I think i have suffered with some mental illness for a long time, but just not been able to face the facts ! Gambling & drinking were places i could hide from it, now i only have drinking. You are brave and your 10 monhs achievement is an example to every person who comes on gamcare. Take care of yourself x Dark Place

Hiya blondie glad your feeling a bit better. Hope you had a nice weekend. And glad your as determinded as ever to get to that 1 year mark and beyond. Take care.