Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Hey Hun...

sounds like your resolve was tested and you passed that test with flying colours....

Made up that it looks like your mum is going to get treated soon and then on the road to recovery herself just in time for the warmer weather too...

Always reading ,..and always here if you need me

Hugs

R and D xxx

Morning,

I think to overcome strong urges this far down the line is an even bigger achievement than it would have been in week one. In addition you have so much going on at the moment it's testament to your strength of character you haven't gone into meltdown let alone stayed bet free. People could do far far worse than read your diary. A true true inspiration and so much honesty. You show this addiction is a continuous battle, an ongoing fight. This is one you are winning daily and for that you should be immensely proud.

Flagg

Yo,

Well done Hun , for staying strong .

Yep those urges will creep up , specially when we are at our most vulnerable .

But hay you kicked that one right out the ball park.

Good for you , glad things are moving forward with your mum .

Take care sweety

Shiny xxxx

Hi Blondie,

Dear one there is not much more that I can say that has not already been said. So let me just say that if you ever need an extra hand to bi t ch slap an urge back from where it came from I would be more than happy to oblige. -joanxxxx

Hey Blondie,

I hope you have a very nice Easter, and you and your mom are doing good. Way to stay so strong and committed to your abstinence.

Chicagoguy

thank you everyone for your posts I will post back as soon as i have a bit more time.

Sooooo im on crutches lol... I have torn my gastrocenmins muscle in my calf ended up at the hospital last night cruthes for 2 weeks then 4-6 weeks trying to build up the strength in it, i thought i had torn my achiles tendon but this is just as bad i think.

That will teach me to try and lift something heavy again.

Its nice and swollen and very painfull, i was physically sick when i did it...

Hope all are ok

Sick bed blondie, well ice pack on leg and leg elevated blondie lol.

take care all

xxx

Blondie,

You take it easy now. Get lying on that couch with the feet up and a couple of Easter eggs close at hand.

Take care.

Tomso.

Oh Blondie, so sorry to hear that. It's like you have been given a test for the past few weeks in strength and stamina and guess what? You have got 100%!!!

More prayers for Blondie (and her leg) tonight!!

Take care and rest up as you should.

Love Feb.xx

Blondie

I think i need to get a massive roll of cotton wool and wrap you and yours in it!!!!! Ouch that sounds painfull !!!

Who is on woody walking duty?? Or will he be pulling you along lol.

So your anniversary of a years living gamble free will be spent on crutches, make sure you keep an arm safe!!

as there will be a well earnt glass to raise.

Duncs stepping forward never back

Yo,

What are you like ? Lol

Right miss b , rest up , get yourself better , that's an order !

Shiny xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Much sympathy about the leg from one who knows and sending my virtual mobility scooter to borrow for a few days.

Hope you are on the mend and surely the last in your run of rubbish you have had thrown at you recently.

Hope you have managed to rest up over the easter break and things start to look up.

xxx

Hey Blondie,

Sorry to hear about the calf muscle, hope your feeling better soon.

Chicagoguy

Bless you hun, you are having a right old run of luck!

Thinking of you, and rooting for you, although I might be AWOL for a while as starting my new job really soon.

Take care, better things being wished for for you,

f x

Feeling sorry for myself today, it's amazing the things you take for granted like walking. Leg is really sore and completly black from the knee down and is freezing all the time.

Feeling indifferent today and I think with everything that has happened and is happening so far this year I have took my eye off the ball where my recovery is concerned.

I realised from the start that recovery for me isn't just about stopping gambling, it's about changing the way I think and being able to articulate how i feel rather that internalise everything which ultimately leads me to gambling.

I can feel some old behaviours slipping in, wanting to isolate myself from life and people and holding my feelings in.

I went to an open AA meeting last week with my fiancé, and I thought just swap the addiction and this is me, Most people like ga spoke about not being worthy, feeling different, being an emotional c*****e, being scared, being less than, feeling guilty, feeling resentment, all these emotions that we keep in because of what ?

In 19 days time I will reach a year milestone gamble free and I continue to ask myself what have I achieved, what have I learnt, what can I do better, and sometimes I get the same answer "not enough" , well b*****ks to mrs not enough, I might be limping to the first target but I am still standing (on crutches) lol.

Today I won't gamble, who knows what tomorrow will bring but today I will try to keep standing in my own truth and keep peeling that onion and striving to be just that little bit better than yesterday.

Take care all

Blondie xxx

Hey well done blondie keep limping along 🙂 your life has improved I'm in no doubt your an inspiration to us all keep smiling

The bear x