Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Hello Ms B....xx my posts are all out of sync and have only just seen your invite although I RSVP d on Facebook ..lol xx

I think its a fab idea and I will try my best to come ...for you my looov I shall come out of recluse-dom ..and it is for a brilliant cause.

I can see already your friends already have their 5 vers ready ....

Looking forward to a new read as just finished Russell Brands My Booky Wook....im not keen on him as he is like a car crash ..you kinda dont want to look but your sort of mesmerised...lol ..im sure many of my pals feel the same way about me...ha!

I am looking forward to the postie coming ....and also made up that you have so much more going on in your life right now...wedding planner at your service ..100% discount for special peeps...just give me a list as I love doing errands.

R and D xx

Hey Blondie

Lovely to hear from you on my diary.

Glad things went really well for you on your return to work and I hope things are still going ok in that department.

Well done you, in training for your run for a very worthy cause. I hope you do well.

I feel a little similar to you in that I rarely think about gambling (I know I am way behind you in number of days/months) but I do think I am in the same mind set as you. It's great isn't it!!

Take care and good luck with your forthcoming wedding plans - EXCITING!!!

Love Lady Feb.xx

Blondie,

Just wanted to stop by and say thanks for your input on my diary - really meant a lot.

Pleased to see such a positive post from you here as well - evidently continued abstinence is finally bringing some clarity and peace to your life. Like you, I realise that even in the toughest times, gambling can only make my other problems even more unmanageable.

Planning for a wedding as well eh? I should put you in touch with my mrs... Ours is still a year away but I swear we spend half our lives discussing it!! Still, she's happy and excited - which is great.

All the best,

D123

Hi Blondie!

Just wanted to say a massive thank you for your kind words of support, i really appreciate it. Its this support that i'm finding to be the answer to quit gambling for good, i don't feel on my own any more with this problem.

Huge well done on nearly 14 months gamble free. I can only aspire to do as well as you have done!

Hope your hangover from the other night wasn't to bad at the P**s up 🙂

Take care and keep smiling

Jimbooooo

Hey Blondie.... 14 months off the gambling, fantastic!! Race for life, fantastic!! Keep up the fantastic work, warm regards... S.A 🙂

Work is mental.. lol.. that didnt take long. I was supposed to be working till 2.30 this week but have been staying later, im back to full time next week, no point in delaying the pain i may as well just dive back in head first lol.

Big re-organisation announced yesterday and I noticed on the org chart , im the only women , something i was aware of but it made me quite proud when i saw it.

So lots of changes, lots of work and plenty to keep me busy, I have just finished reading a great book which is winging its way to rach as we speak, i really took lots from it and one of them was "Get deliberate". I can get distracted quite easy in work , so now i get deliberate, I plan my day in the morning and set my self 3 targets to achieve.

Im finding its really helping me to stop being so hard on myslef and rather than walking out of work feeling like ive achieved nothing (because i stuggle to lower that bar still) I feel a sense of accomplishment

Rome wasnt built in a day.. And i must remember that in all aspects of my life.

Onwards and upwards...

Blondie xxx

Hey chook....a good read is on its way for me...lol ..

Good on you in work Hun...gonna call ya GI Jane...only woman with the men...yeeee haaa..

Glad to see you pop in keeping us all balanced up...y'know what happens ...you and shiny pants go AWOL for 2 mins and that minx of a cyber sis goes off the rails ...causing trouble .

Anyhooo.....onwards lovely lady xx

Hey Ms B....

I received the "gifts of imperfection" today and am going to start reading it tonight ....me and Russell Brand are now the last chapter ..xxx

Thank you hun ...w*f happened to our summer?..was that last week? Xxx

R and D xx

Ms B

Thanks for the kind words on my thread, I did create a world of sh#t for myself there for a few weeks , but like you I have a resolve.

Bring on the Sh#t whatever you throw I will throw back twice as hard, oh after taking what I need to feed my roses!!!!

Great to see work treats you well!!

I love a women in charge, I Have worked with some tremendous general managers over the years, you like my Sarah don't suffer fools I guess.

Working progress, but our pictures always being touched up, rather than whitewashed!!!

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Yo,

Just popping in,only women .

Good for you Hun. Try not to work tooooooo hard .

Know it's easier said than done , did not get we're you today by coasting lol

Have a great weekend , hug to mum

Shiny Pants xxxxxxx

the end of another working week.... Bit of a killer the past few days i must remember to breath lol... Its frustrating working in a mans world sometimes as they comunicate totally different ya know men are from mars, women are from venus and i find it takes all my strength sometimes to just be heard.

It can also have its advantages as I cant tollerate b******g and two faced people and unfortunatly you can get that working with lot of women sometimes.

I have lots of professional challenges ahead and need to stay focused, calm and professional in the coming months... To say it will be a challenge with the new organisation is a bit of an understatement lol... But thats what they pay me big bucks for...

My fiance thinks i have a problem with "Control" not that im a control freak im the opposite being in the role im in i have to be, but i do have a big problem with "Being controled". My first relationship the farther of my eldest daugher was the champion at controll, he verbally, pysically and emotionally abused me over the period of 12 months, he only ever hit me once, he did break my nose and black both my eyes but the following day i left, with a 6 month old baby in tow.

For years that experience i suppose has shaped my life, not the best first experience of what was supposed to be "love".

He was very subtle with his control at first, commenting on what i wore, "Thats skirts a bit short isnt it" "what you wearing make up in the day for", but over time his mind f*** games got worse, I have always beat myself up about that... why didnt i see it ? why didnt i get out sooner ? What did i do for him to treat me like that ?

One thing ive learned in recovery is "That wasnt my fault", that was his SHIxT not mine...

Sometimes i think my fiance is trying to control me and in a way he does, i havent been out with my friends for nearly 3 years prior to that i was out nearly every weekend, (Not that i would do that whilst in a relationship) but i dont get why he has to sulk or have a dig if i ever suggest doing anything without him..... He says its because he doesnt trust men........ I think its because he doesnt trust me....

Anyways im waffling but its all stuff that i need to clear out of my head tonight...

No gambling, no thoughts and no intention...... life is complicated enough without bringing that in to the fold...

Take care all...Happy friday or when it was 5 oclock today i switched my lap top off and said

" oh great its fuckkkk that shitt oclock time to go home lol.... My team loll at that.. No idea why ...

blondie xxx

Hey Ms B....

Yep..it's the subtle stuff that kills a persons spirit and is designed to ruin confidence. As for anger a large part of mine is that i also have not nipped it in the bud earlier but its harder to prove.

The good news is that I'm on to it like a foooking rat down a drain now and I don't give anyone an inch .

I absolutely hate being controlled and I won't stand for it at all for the same reasons as you.

Every single argument with a man for me has been about control and its why I leave relationships and truthfully I don't want to live with a man again as I'm too set in my ways now.

Dating from separate abodes is about all I can be bothered with now.

If you're attractive (and you are ) other men will be attracted to you so unless you are planning to wear a burka or never go out.

Your chappy should feel pleased as punch that you come back to him .

Reverse psychology always works with me ..the shorter the leash I feel I'm on the more I want to escape and the longer the leash the more I will want to come home ...

Dots and me have the perfect balanced leash ..lol xx

Right,..back to me new book...xx

Hey MsB

Sorry, had to scoot off chat and empty my head!

Hopefully, we can catch up for a gab sometime soon.

Your last post confirms that you are a strong, brave woman not to be messed with (they'd need to get past me n Rach 1st!)

Take care

Irene

x

Thanks B xx

Fuckthatshit o'clock I'll use that when im next in work for sure lol. This site is handy to clear your mind and can help you see things clearer and make better decisions. Blokes are jealous because we can't believe how lucky we are and can't even think of losing the one we love - don't know where that came from lol. Hope you have a good weekend.