Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Hey Blondie,

Fantastic to hear that you had a great time on your holiday..That's what it matters, get out from the routine, take it all in and enjoy yourself..:)

And gambling and urges...we all know how sneaky it can be, you can't let the guard down for one minute, because it can come so unexpected and hit you full force..

You doing great and should be so proud of yourself!

Take care

Day at a time

Sandra x

Hi Ms B ...

great to hear you've has a fabbo time in gods own country ..lol

Thank you for your support Hun...the penny has finally dropped 😉 xx

Hi Blondie. Well done for still being such a great example. Have been away for a few months and am pleased that you are still shining. DB

Lost count of the number of gamble free days but its coming up to 17 months.... WOW..... Longest i have ever been without gambling of any kind.

I have been thinking over the past few days that my gambling demons have gone, i.e i have dealt with all the terrible things i did when i gambled, But thats a lie to myself, gambling affected my life and me for many years and it will take time to come to terms with that, but i have to keep working through the s**t to come out the other side, for me its important that I understand them, Accept them , forgive myself and move forward.

Ive done some really terrible things in the past, I used to kid myself that my marriage was over but i actually walked away from it because it was easier than trying to work at it, not that i have any regrets about that , I dont and i know it was the right thing to do, its just sometimes being an addict its easy to push the "Fxck it button".

I dont take the easy option out now, i dont hide away from difficult or emotional situations, I face them head on, Im not scared to feel anymore, and im not scared to ask for what i want......

Not gambling has changed me .... for the better.... Not gambling has made me brave... again.

Im learning every day something new and i have a deeper understanding of me...

Im thankful for that.

Hyde park for me this weekend, proms in the park tomorrow and party in the park on sunday...... Something else to add to my memory box....

stay strong all. take care

blondie xxx

:O)

Glad to read some really turning it around keep it up

Hey Ms B

Thanks for your last post- your posts are always honest and I often feel like they "talk" to me (does that sound bonkers?).

Also, I don't know how, but you have a knack of "appearing" when I'm low and offering a nudge in the right direction.

Thanks B

Take care

Irene

x

Blondie.

I received a post recently from the honourable Ex mug who talked about the over use of the word inspirational, something i too is something to save for a truly worthy cause.

Today my dear friend you encapsulate the true meaning of the word. today you not only gift yourself a better life through recovery, you hold that torch for others to aspire too reach.

Yes this is a life choice, it will always be there our addiction. You my friend keep yours close enough by to keep an eye upon it but refuse to let it continue to affect the life you earn.

that my friend is an inspiration to all who have the privilege to share it.

thankyou so much for sharing.

before when we spoke of needing the forum anymore tonight I will turn that around.

this forum needs you.

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Hey Blondie,

It is big WOW about your continued abstinence! Well done you and everything seems to fall back into places. I am very happy for you. As i say, better don't look at the past, concentrate on today which is the open door for tomorrow:-)

No regrets, be proud of yourself and how much you have achieved in this journey....it is a real eye opener.

Have a lovely weekend and enjoy yourself:-)

Take care

Sandra x

Hope you are having a lovely time making those memories, that's what real life is all about.

xxx

Hi Ms B ...

I need to get one of those " f**k it " buttons as I haven't got one ..lol ...xxx

Great to see you out there and living life in technicolour Hun xx

R and D xxx

You're a kind soul, Bl, keeping up with my diary. Thanks for that.

You're also right - about it all. I've not had a good 6 months really, esp the last month. Real life has also thrown up some surprises (and some deaths), which has knocked me about emotionally. I am in debt to the hilt. I self-excluded from the last place just now and I hope to turn a corner again. Not sure if I'm ready to write it all down, but I do check in here every other day and read a little.

Well done on your sustained recovery.

Hey well done blondie on your continued strength take care x

The bear x

Fantastic weekend, great music, cant decide if i loved the manic street preachers more than simple minds, or texas and even James Blunt (music to slash your wrists to lol ).

Anyways enough rambling lol......

I think about recovery a lot and I looked up the meaning tonight

re·cov·er·y

Noun

A return to a normal state of health, mind, or strength:

The action or process of regaining possession or control of something stolen or lost: "

Gambling stole my mind, my health, my strength, my time, my life.

So each day in recovery I take back what i gave away so freely.

take care all, thank you for the posts

blondie xxx

Hey up chook..

Yep love those definitions of recovery ..especially the one about regaining possession or control of something lost or stolen ! ..my soul! ..lol xx

So ...food for thought today Hun...and love the manics ,especially the guitarist! ..

A design forrrr life ....a design for life..and "promised you a miracle" ..it's all there in the music ..lol

R and D x x