Get busy living... Or get busy dying..

Hi Blondie

Posts like ur last brings everything home and makes us realise how gambling obscured our vision and affected others around us , now we don't av to worry bout that and can focus on what's important in our lives

Opened a real can of worms with announcing my new interest of dating sites ! The fun poking has started but hey should av expected it but it's good to laugh and joke put a smile on our face this sites never been as happy makes u wonder what it's all about and thats a credit to us all

But we always av time to support others early in their recovery which gives us that reality check we sometimes need

Take care

Castle2

Morning Blondie,

Thank you for the welcome back! Your continued support means a lot and knowing that people like yourself are supporting me helped make my decision to come back and try again much easier than it might overwise have been.

I hope that you have a great Friday.

Take care

Dave X

Blondie,

Am totally lost for words...........Talk about meant to be!

What a beautiful story!

Sue xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Day 96 and how ironic, it will 100 days on tuesday which is my dads birthday.

I have booked the day off work just think i might be a bit of a reck so its best not to be in work blubbering like a mad women and i can spend the day with my mum and try and keep occupied.

So im off down souffffff today see what all this fuss is about with the olympics lol... My boyfriend is like a kid in a toffee shop and really excited, Im winding him up a bit and playing it down, but im really looking forward to it, and mum is coming with me to.

Took little princess to the opticians today she has been getting a few headaches but all is well and no goggles required :).

Woody learnt this morning that all doggies are not nice and got attacked by 2 afgan hounds, he was crying like a baby and hyding in the bushes.. Bless him. ! I suppose for him a life lesson learnt and i had a few of those the past 96 days.

Its funny isnt how you miss things when your gambling, its like your head is on a different planet, or you just let things slide because you cant be bothered or have the energy to tackle them. Im like a warrior lately my boyfriend asked if i had been taking "Hard tablets" last night lol.

So I bid you all a fantastic weekend.

I will be back on day 98.

Thank you everyone for your posts.

Take care.

Blondie (holding that gamble free torch and not letting it go... Just for today )

xxx

Hey,

Another giant stride toward that 100 today. I imagine you can mark off in years to come day 97 as one where gambling never once crossed your mind. Too busy having a wonderful time with those closest to you. This is what it's all about really rebuilding a lost life, paying back the debt we owe to those closest. They would never admit we owe them and they wouldn't want anything so we pay back in time and affection. Great currency I think.

As you pass day 100 I would suggest you do so with immense pride. It will be an emotional day I have no doubt but you continue to thrive as your recovery continues to gather pace.

Enjoy the weekend, the weather here in central England remains gorgeous I hope the South is equally lucky.

Take Care,

Flagg

Hi Blondie,

I hope that you have a great weekend.

Dave X

Morning Blondie,

Just checking in to make sure that you are okay. I hope that you have a great Monday.

Dave X

morning blondie, hope your trip doon sooth was a good one, shame that no medals for the brits, as if the press was to be believed it was in the bag, i guess that life does not always run to plan. Tomorrow you will be in my thoughts, but i know for sure he would be so proud of what you have given to recovery and that of others. Duncs stepping forward never back.

Day 99. 1 day from my next target of 100 days.

Had a great weekend watching the Olympic road race nice to see so many people and familys out showing there support, bit gutted that Cav didnt get a medal but he is 100% a true olympian in my eyes. Was really impressed with the opening ceremony we can be a nation of cynics sometimes and although we love the underdog we also love berating people who are successfull.

I have been catching up on diarys and I suppose i feel obliged to get invovled in some way otherwise I feel like im ingnoring things like i did when i gambled, Not that my opionin matters one bit.

I posted a few days ago about how would i know if i was in recovery its a difficult question but then if i asked you What does recovery mean to you ? Its a bit like asking what does god mean to you ? Or do you beleive in god and if so why ?.

It means different things to different people and its not really something you can easily put into words as for me its something that I feel as well as put into practice.

For me recovery has been about taking back what I lost, going back to the gambling demons and taking back what it stole from me, or what i let it steal from me. I gave it away so easy and submerged myself in something that would ultimatly destroy me because i didnt have the bottle to stand up and fight, to stand up and change and admit that i wasnt perfect that i was selfish, impatient, I wanted the easy way out, Life has changed me, I gave up, I didnt take responsiblity for my actions, I wasnt responsible. !!

Through succumbing to them I became my own nemesis and created my own nightmare.

Recovery means challenge, hard work, determination, and hard core tenacity. Recovery means no more excuses . This is for real !

So I grit my teeth and put my best foot forward and commit to keep fighting, whatever it takes. !!

Recovery means I restore my peace of mind and my love for myself, my family and life, recovery means I can forgive myself, I know there is no such thing as perfect and actually i dont need to be, recovery means I cant make people like me but I can learn to like myself.

Recovery means I accept the things I can not change. These are not just words, I feel them and i understand them better. I work them as best I can in my own way, in my own time

Everyone is different, supporters/partners off or CG's you feel what you feel because you are you and life has left its mark on you and you have been shaped by this, you have felt it and feel it not me.

I hope in time that everyone finds what recovery means to them .

Blondie xxx

Yo,

Miss blondie what a great post. Agree with you 110%

sort of left an opening for you there , to get revenge on the 360 lol

Pleased you had a great weekend , know tomorrow will be a bit of a toughy , you will be in my thoughts.

Take care ,

Shiny xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Blondie,

what a post, have been asked some of the questions by my partner and am trying hard to describe that what I feel/what she feels will be diffrent for everyone, even been asked how will it be in the future.. all I can say is better.

anyway glad you had a great weekend and like you very much enjoyed the openning, even though was up early on Saturday stayed up till the end and suffered!

Will keep you in my thought tommorow as it a awesome mile stone. Have a great one and enjoy it you deserve it.

Stay Strong

Steve

Yo,

Start the day with a giggle , that's the way to it .

Slim Shiny lol

Thanks for that, .............

Shinyxx ( not sooooooooo slim ))))))))))))

Hi Blondie

Hope you had a good weekend ....keeping strong in recovery whatever our various paths ...

Always have my support ...sure you know that by now

Rachel xx love to woody.

Hi Blondie

I really enjoyed your last post, in fact I always enjoy your posts. You have a way with words. I guess in some way we are always recovering from something, it's an on going process. You got me reading around the subject, I found that 4 key components in recovery process are;

Finding and maintaining hope

The re-establishment of a positive identity

Finding meaning in life.

Taking responsibility for one’s life.

Gambling stole our minds our health and our strength and everyday we go without it the stronger we become. May I be the first to congratulate you on making 100 days.

Keep on keeping on XxX

Hi Blondie,

What a fantastic post.......you do have a way with words!

So glad you had a good time in the big smoke!

Hope you waved as you passed me on the M40.

Hugs Sue xx