Gm88 recovery diary

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Hi everyone i hope to fill this in once a week just to let people know how im getting on. My story is been a CG for just over a year bet on football all my life without an issue stumbled accross online slots and that was it. I was hooked. I managed to stop for a while but then i relapsed on xmas eve and lost another £350 all in ive managed to lose roughly about 8 grand in a year. I cant even do a football bet now becasue i cant even walk into the bookies without playing the roullett machines. Its as if some kind of switch flicked in my head and now i cant control. Even that time on xmas eve there id won £800 from my first £20 bet and i couldnt take it and i couldnt stop till it was gone. So thats why im on here. The blocks are in place and i just hope by sharing how Ive been feeling and if im struggling i can come on here and talk about it. I dont always get an urge to gamble. But its more if i worry about money then i think i need to get money fast and thats how i gamble but yet i put all the money back in. I do not understand why it happens but thats what happens to me anyway. I'll be 5 days gamble free today and i'll just tick every mile stone off a week at a time on here.

 
Posted : 29th December 2016 2:04 am
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Keep strong, you are doing well to stop and rid yourself of this terrible addiction.

Wishing you lots of luck and support on your journey

 
Posted : 29th December 2016 2:39 am
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well done buddy your in good company here read others stories and see how theyre doing too your really not alone!todays my 5th day too gamble free just have to think i made it yesterday i can make it today take it a day at a time.i have a similar issue as you just cant walk away even when up and then when youve lost everything walk out with that really sick tight chested feeling knowing how badly things have f****d up.

think about it this way youve lost 8k this year but yet you worry about money?but still found money to gamble?if you just saved would you not of had money to do the things you needed to get done?

 
Posted : 29th December 2016 3:34 am
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Same to u i will save... all the best.

Markie im the exact same mate. Its horrible i'd say i was skint all the time and not buy things that me or my family need.. sometimes win but put it all in so im even more skint. Then try and chase losses and then end up struggling to make it to pay day. Ive just had enough of it. I found i couldnt enjoy much this year because it was always in my mind i had this problem that could come back to me any minute

 
Posted : 29th December 2016 11:08 am
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Gm88 wrote:

Same to u i will save... all the best.

Markie im the exact same mate. Its horrible i'd say i was skint all the time and not buy things that me or my family need.. sometimes win but put it all in so im even more skint. Then try and chase losses and then end up struggling to make it to pay day. Ive just had enough of it. I found i couldnt enjoy much this year because it was always in my mind i had this problem that could come back to me any minute

in all honesty being heres probably the best thing that could be done to you at the moment.you can see the flaws and how much of a messed up situation it leads to and what issues there are to face,if your better half is ontop of your finances then thats one part of the problem solved!im looking at possibly managing to have £50-£100 spare a week now ive re budgeted and from that i have to pay the credit card off each week too not alot and not even my debt lol £2500 (mrs is a shopaholic).

if you can get the mrs to budget and manage to save up then you could have a fair old whack of cash for next xmas im looking at doing the money saving challange assign the sum of money to the week of the year so week 1 £1 week 2 £2 week 3 £3 ect only in reverse im doing it week 1 £52 then week 2 £51 save whilst i can so then if needed i can have access to the emergency cash if problems arrise through the year instead of panic stress and gamble!if i manage to do this comfortably then il scrap out below £25 and just keep putting what i can in!im rubbish at saving but when i see a nice sum there i find it easier to be a miser lol.

keep positive and and think of what you can buy when you can afford it set yourself some targets or goals to reach for through saving and make sure you bloody well get them you deserve them after all!

 
Posted : 29th December 2016 12:19 pm
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I might try that saving challenge aswell. I think im just lucky i caught this so quick. Im not in any debt or anything although infully admit if i was going the way i was going inwould have been in kaos

 
Posted : 30th December 2016 10:08 am
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Just on to say that this is the 7th day since i havent had a bet, gamble or a spin or whateverAnd i feel great knowing its gonna continue. I am going to the old firm game today and usually i would have a bet on it but not any more. Its just something i must get used to from now on. Then out to celebrate the bells. Heres to a gamble free 2017...

 
Posted : 31st December 2016 12:33 am
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well done gm88 keep it up and if i dont chat before then,then have a very happy new year happy gamble free 2017

 
Posted : 31st December 2016 12:53 am
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Same to u markie

 
Posted : 31st December 2016 1:22 am
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and here i was thinking i was the only one up at this time of night lol

 
Posted : 31st December 2016 1:25 am
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Delighted you're on Day 18, Gm88. Keep it going.. doing great 🙂 !

 
Posted : 11th January 2017 10:21 pm
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Cheers mixer.. just thought id write a post i missed my second week so today is the 3rd week Ive tried to abstain from gambling before and ive lasted maximum 5 days... but now 22 days. And its all because of this website and this challenge that your doing mixer. I still have control of my funds.. i do not have k9 i could really gamble if i wanted too and through the shear factor of letting yous fellow members down i do not feel the need to gamble at all. And i am looking forward to a gamble free future

 
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