Hey all ,
So self excluded a while ago,
Now begins the process of building a life of my own making.
It scares me so much lol it really does, just want to sleep and shut myself away.
I know that is a stupid thing to say because I essentially have a whole new chance to start again, be what i want to be, be happy etc.
I dont do well with change, even if its for best way possible.
So I am gamble free,nearly debt free, and yet i feel so lost
Hi Rob, welcome to the forums.
Already self excluding is a great start. So, I'm just a tad confused - have you just given up gambling or have you managed to be gamble free for a while now?
Gamcare offers tons of support. Plus these forums are a great help for getting stuff off your chest and getting practical advice from people who really have been in the same boat as you.
Let me know in more detail and I might be able to help out man.
Best wishes
Just to clarify self excluded a while back and gamble free for a while, so now the urges are fading my mind is now working overtime on how to readjust to a new life etc.
I am very lucky in a sense I am good at my job, only a small amount of debt and a roof over my head.
So now begins trying start well starting over.
Starting to kind of adjust better now, and keep saying to myself when things get tough and at points they will, I just have to keep focused on my goals and tasks, this is daunting because self destruction is so my easier, but as well all know giving up on ourselves feels like a nice releif, but trying and succeeding feels amazing.
Go you Rob, take each day as it comes and keep smiling.
Take care.
Julie x
Got a rotten cold at the moment so having a few days off work.
Its also given me time to put things in to perspective and realise the good qualities I have.
One thing I have noticed is now the gambling fog has lifted,firstly I am not thinking about it in a longing way more so in a past tense way,as in I can not change the things i have done.
I also keep thinking my gambling reached the point of no return, by that i mean that nothing is ever enough. If i had won a million pounds in my mind i would have thought it would be nice to win 5 pounds more.
And that is just total alarm bells to me, that is why no matter the size of the win i had i always lost it back.
So I dont have anything to show for all those wins.
But being gamble free means my rent and bills are paid and I have money for food and a whole lot less stress and worry
So another positive day, very focused on change and getting on with some long left projects, fleeting thoughts of gambling but on as reflection, past tense
Good on you Rob only way forward we can't win becasue we can't stop.
Malc
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