goodbye dizzymissy78

Hi dizzy.

Just wanted to agree with what you say about the council tax. I owe £324.00 and up until the last few months, have always paid this. I rang them to ask if this could be spread over the next twelve months, on top of this year's monthly d.debits. That I thought was sensible, affordable for me and a way of showing my willingness to get this paid. The answe I got was that I would have to now wait until they took this to Court! Only after then, could they work out a repayment plan!! I mean - how much is all that going to cost, being heard in Court?!!! I am intending on ringing them again today, to set up this year's monthly d.debit and I will be discussing my arrears also.

Just keep ringing these people I say and let them know your position. I remember in my darkest time, I told them that the worry of my arrears was making me feel suicidal (more a figure of speech at the time)! The next thing I knew, the operator had informed the police and before I knew it, I had two police men banging my door down. I was so embarrassed and they said that they really sympathised with me, knowing that I was just trying to find the best way for me to pay.

Take care and keep your chin up.

Our Lady.

Dizzy! Went I came back last week I came straight too your diary. We started around the same time, but look at our journeys..I'm back too square one, my life's a mess and I'm darker than I was before. Where as you , your doing it! Your actually winning, ok so your having a wobble, but you haven't caved, your life is getting there, that one gamble could/would send you back too who you used too be, come on dizzy be proud and keep being amazing x

Encouragement to those new or struggling.If you look at my last post you will see I was struggling...yes still struggling 322 days gf .It's kind of like cleaning your teeth or washing up a friend you know leads you down the wrong path but you are attracted to them.only us gamblers know this distruction we Hurt ourselves and everyone around us for what?a moment or time span of excitement what is it in our lives that we are missing,those things we seek to understand in our recovery only then can we connect with our triggers and avoid them.i am still feeling the consequences of my recklessness huge council tax payment plans credit cards maxed and over the limit but I am facing them head on I'm not scared anymore,but for anyone asking themselves will I feel the same nearly a year on?,will I miss it?the answer is yes but the worthlessness and feeling of loneliness and isolation are a faint scar,I remember early days feeling angry this is my fun hobby I want to be one of those people who gamble a bit and walk away who can't I have control,I remember thinking if I obstane I might yes might be able to gamble in a controlled way (something which is often discussed here)but no I can never because I can't stop.i have changed my life I go to the gym,I pay my bills,I take simple pleasures from life,I still feel guilt but a sense of pride I'm trying to change.so I hope if you are reading this early days into your recovery and you are asking yourself these questions I have helped there is no quick fix but everyday gets better stay strong it does get easier x

Lovely to hear from you dizzy!
Great to hear you're doing well and reaping the rewards for your efforts.
Stay strong because now you are truly winning!!
All good wishes x

Thank you for a really nice post. It has came at such a time when I really needed to hear that! Cheers spilt!

Dizzy keep fighting girl!! That's a lot of GF days you've got there!! That's 3 of us that's had the council tax issue this year....same addiction same problems x

Been feeling low lately the no money thing and boredom makes me what to be silly but I know it only brings more pain I hate what I've done taking all our money and now everyday is a struggle it's very sad feeling quite lonely too x

Hey dizzy...
Sorry your feeling so low hun...
There's really nothing I can say to help with the financial struggles love.....except that ....and you know it deep down....if you'd continued or retuned to those online slots....life would be many times worse....
as for the boredom....do what ever it takes to keep busy...
Sorry I'm not much help...I'll send you hug so you know you're not alone (((( --)))) x

So along time on, I wanted to bring the subject up of debt l.at my worst had 6 payday loans.how I was ever allowed to do this is immoral to me, even though I take responsibility for my own actions,I feel my problem was made alot worse by these compays and fed my habit,I could access cash into my account within 10 minutes without proper checks.with advise I have now decided to challenge these companies as i feel They were mis sold I have been told i maybe elligable for all of the interest plus 0.8%.I intend to challenge them and bring them to justice I had some where in the region of 40 payday loans!so I'm hoping i will get a result and something great out of this mess.I intend to pay off my credit card or my overdrafts with this cash and turn this mess into a positive and a massive step in the right direction.I urge anyone to do this its not the payday loans fault I gambled but I do feel They are a accomplice to this awful illness wish me luck and I will update I think it's an 8 week process but I'm keeping everything crossed!