goodbye dizzymissy78

o*g BOTOX I MEANT TO TYPE BOTOX BOTTOM w*f!!!!THAT PREDICTIVE TEXT GREMLIN AGAIN LOL

Great.......have managed to make myself look like a pervert talking about bottoms lol d**n you predictive text!

Hi dizzy..thanks for popping into my diary ..I see you've met the boys. . ( deano..Alan..KTF )...well there my big brothers or musketers or whatever really...always here to lend an ear !. ..and some dam good advice...right...so ...looks like me and you got a lot in common...Alan's such a detective...hhmm...maybe him and Alan could be starsky and hutch...your probabally a bit young to have heard about them ! Lol...anyway hun firstly well done on 15 days free...and on your own ...so the question in telling...I'm afraid I side with the boys on this one....like you I was scared poopless to tell hubby....but boy oh boy....I'm glad its out in the open now....ok..yes...lots of tears. ..cross words..questions etc. ..but
It's made it so much easier to stay away from the slots....not because he's constantly checking my phone or bank etc...because he doesn't....( broken triangle for me is blocked internet...)....would I still be playing if he didn't know ?. ..probabally yes...who knows
It doesn't really matter now...but for me it was right...at the end of the day love its up to you how you go about it....I just love being open and honest now...ok..so I havnt shouted it from the roof tops...but I happily told those that needed to know....like you in the early days I wanted to fix everything...but it can't happen like that love...I looked at it that it took me years to get in the pickle...so it won't all be fixed over night....I've sort of followed my own little plan...excluded..arranged councilling..joined here..spoke to
family...arranged repayments of debts...and spend as much time on here as possible...but...only done what I could each day...no stress....
Blimey what a load of waffle...hope it sort of makes sense...anyway...you'll get the jist
I'm loving life now...not because everything in the garden is rosey...who's life is really like that lol....but because I've got no secrets to keep ( well...I do f**t alot ! )...don't tell the boys...I'll never live it down. ..and I'm being open and honest with everybody...and myself..this is a fantastic place for help and support....and as I'm sure you can see we have a laugh...something alot of us havnt done much of in our gambling days...right I'm finally going cose I need a f*g. ..take care love...keep smiling xx

Thank you for your lovely introduction.There is a recurring theme that I should tell my husband but none of you live with him he is 10 years older than me,he has his own issues and hangups his mum dying 2 years ago being a biggy, he also got diagnosed with menieres which gives him terrible dizzy spells sickness buzzing and noises in his ears this has made him very depressed ,and his bad angry outburst usually with complete strangers (he hit someone in a supermarket car park who gave him grief)never violent with me in fact he's always put me on a pedistal but not in a way you'd expect more like a teenager I keep reminding him I'm 38 now (ohh don't like typing that )maybe how this started a rebellion? he's insecure checks up on me, I'm pretty sure he would get mad never let me live it down and it would destroy us I couldn't near it we are sole mates and both wrongens lol he got cross over seeing the water bill today,so I have a plan I need to make myself proud and him I will confess all but I just need to put some of the financial mess right and then I can say this is what happened but look what I did to make amends I plan to work every weekend to pay off the payday loans I'm up for this and you right it all needs to surface but this time I'm in control!and by the way I do occasionally f**t although it smells of roses and glitter comes out ha ha!thanks again x

Hey. ..I totally get and respect what your saying hun. ..my hubby has just been through a four year cancer fight ....volatile chap even before being hit with chemo and radiotherapy....you do what's best for you love. ..you've made a great start with the 15 days...keep going...xx

Wow you have been through the mill you are amazing we all have the power to be amazing;I think we have the same warped sense of humour I can tell we are going to get on xxx

Well you know him and you better than we do ,so just do what feels right for you and as I said before it's your recovery. It must be quite difficult dealing with the issues you speak off and I'd imagine at times your walking on eggshells .

I do however wish all you Laydeez would stop with all the "Piff P**f" talk as it's begining to make me gag , I'm just glad us fella's don't do that sort of thing !

Hey. ..we're female...we can multitask !
Spec starsky and hutch will have something to say about that ! Lol
Have you self excluded from sites you played on...set up internet blocks...? Rang gamcare...step change are also fantasuc for giving fianancial advie over the debts....these were
the things I done before I joined
here...x

We can be Thelma and Louise ;Betty and wilma;....Em Alan we are real woman keeping it real it's good to get in touch with your feminine side and by the way I'm sure men go through the change and get hormonal are you uncomfortable with f*****g???I can also out drink my 6ft 4 18st hubby and burp my abc I'm laughing so much right now!

Yes blocks in place my new adiction game of thrones love the nudity and violence to get the adrenaline going beats spinning the reals any day and it's free!

Ohhhh John snow!

Now just look how much youv'e cheered up today ! Recovery comes in many forms :)).

With ref post 44 , what a lovely charming sophisicated woman you sound , would you like meet mother for tea and cakes ? LOL Right I'm off for a while now , I only posted coz you seemed to be talking to yourself . LOL!

Have a great evening !

I understand why the spilling tge beans is hard, i think reason it keeps coming up is that the majority find it a key in beating this. Is there anyone else you can confide in maybe a parent brother or sister or a close friend it really does help. You could also look into counselling which is free from Gamcare.

Like Alan says its your recovery as long as you consider the options I don't have a problem with that and let's let's me use my favourite saying that o might have stolen from someone on here. There's more than one way to cook a spud.

Keep up the good work

KTF

Good morning all another day,I'm busy working all day no thoughts on gambling hope we are all well x

Just seen your last couple of replies to me you'd be better if using my diary thread it's called I'm ashamed shy is humiliated. That's my main thread.

Have a good day and stay busy in work.

KTF