goodbye dizzymissy78

My f**t joke I promised just for Alan ,Bill Gates f***s in an apple store;what!?it's not my fault there's no windows

Hiya Dizzy , Loved the joke , it took two day's but it came through and you came up "Trumps" bit like the f**t joke ? , I bought a new stick deodorant today , the instructions said " Remove cap and push up bottom , I can barely walk but whenever I f**t the room smells great " " BOOM, BOOM TISH " !!.

Kepp doing what works Dizzy x

Day 19 whoohoo! 2 days off 3 weeks,today one of my daughters is off school poorly this would have normally really annoyed me as I would have to be sneaky to gamble going in another room (she is very inquisitive and bright I couldn't risk her telling tales on me)but not today I can cuddle her and not have thoughts of gambling,I can honestly say as each day goes by the want to gamble is going and I feel stronger,worked all day yesterday till late earnt ВЈ90 by today I would have banked it and by 10 it probably would have been gone in ten minutes.my husband bought us an idian takeaway last night I would have normally talked him out of it because I would have worried about spending the ВЈ20 crazy I know but I happily bought it .....and ate it lol.so today I wake up still with the fear my bank account would be empty (something that you get used to when gambling)and the relief I'm not skint! Bank balance £130.fathers day Sunday not worried that I can't get my dad anything and of course my hubby and even though I can't be extravigant I'm not worried (such a great feeling )I need to be careful and I am a little anxious as next week I have to pay council tax which is a lot as I haven't paid the last two months,I need to pay something off one of my payday loans due end of month,and I really need to try and get my daughter a passport so it will be a huge challenge.I am definitely not freaking out so much I can't think too far in advance or I get anxious one day at a time and taking the positives when I can so today I'm taking that I'm not skint,I can cuddle my daughter and love her like I'm am suppose too,I can buy fathers day presents,I am in good health x

Hello Dizzymissy, 19 days is brilliant. Well done you must be delighted. I feel a bit numb with gambling. Yestersay i won a small bet. Am i happy? Not really. Gambling does not make you happy. Keep going dizzy. Best wishes. Toad - your green amphibious friend.

Hi Dizzy, 19 days is brilliant, well done, I'm not sure the last post is helpful to you. Someone still gambling and telling you they had won money by placing a small bet is not something your brain needs to be hearing. We all know on here that the brain has to be re-trained, gamble win, gamble lose, gamble lose, gamble lose. Total absistence is the only way forward, don't think a 50p bet will solve yours or mine problems. Thinking of you - Paul

Hi lost my life,

Can I elaborate. My post is very helpful and positive. I am illustrating that even a small bet with a larger return is not worth it. My post is constructive and supportive. I always give great advice on here.

Lost my life. Your gambling addiction leaves you negative. Stay positive mate and good luck in your recovery.

Toad.

It's OK toad I'm not offended I know what you are saying.its funny I can walk into a bingo hall sit play bingo without a single thought of having a problem or wanting to play slots I sit play the games listen to the numbers (and sometimes actually get quite bored)yet alone with a phone or a tablet I'm dangerous ,like drinking some alcoholics can never have a drink again for others they are able to have a few I do not judge I come from a gambling background in laws own race horses again I can go for a day at the races have a few quid or not I am not fussed and it doesn't stir the same feelings of the slots but I know that talking of any sort of gambling is dangerous to people's recovery so I am sensitive and careful thanks again for your support hope all is well at the pond x

Keep checking my bank it seems to be my new favorite hobby like I can't believe I actually have some money for once (even tho it won't be there long before I have to pay something )why does £100 odd quid feel like a fortune when u r not gambling but when u are it's nothing ?x

Bit the bullet and paid another £50 off my one of my payday loans due end of month pointless putting it off I wouldn't of thought twice about wasting that a while ago so I shouldn't think twice about paying debt off!x

Hi hun
Going great girlie...well done you. ..great Feeling to start on the debts..hope your little ones on the mend...have a great gamble free
weekend ....happy Friday xx

20 days today!woke up this morning worried ;dreamt I had gambled but it's OK I haven't phew RELIEF am off into town to get a few things fathers days stuff and butchers so the blocks are there(sorry for the pun) I'm putting in place taking my insurance my 13 year old daughter .I've done it loads of times before and as we know our brains are sneaky I'm so innocent just getting some shopping il just pop into the bookies for ten minutes......money spent no food money god how how am I going to go back without much and explain how I've been hours the sick feeling of spending the weekend skint who can I borrow from I hate myself I'm worthless BUT TODAY I WILL NOT GAMBLE planning on a nice weekend take hubby out for lunch,a walk and a nice roast lamb lunch tomorrow do you know why? ???COS I AM WORTH IT!X

Good on you...
Congrats on the 20 days..have a great weekend with the family...stay strong ...your doing great....x

I made it to 21 DAYS!!!!!3 WHOLE WEEKS,fridge full of food as did a shop and went to butchers yesterday,fathers day presents sorted,had a lovely afternoon went to a lovely little pub with kids cheesy chips and a pint then had a walk by the boat yard and took the little one to the park,hubby mowed the lawn when we got home it's all so "normal don't feel I want to gamble although I'm still careful like taking my daughter with me yesterday.as I drove past the bookies yesterday I could see people standing outside having a f*g and looking desperate I felt sorry for them it's a horrid place to be.3 weeks is probably the longest I've gone for a few years I feel a sense of pride I'm starting to care aBout myself did my nails yesterday put some makeup on going to join slimming club this week (no more cheesy chips for me)feel more in control yes I think I am up for this challenge the only thing that gives me a bit of worry is the bills but I'll take this one day at a time x

Lovely day,to the pub for brekkie with kids and my daughters friends did the usual fathers day visits all normal I actually love not having guilt and spending money normally I've spent a fair bit this wkend but on stuff for my family feeling much happier I think I've forgotten what is important in life life can be better x

Starting to find myself again just have the debt to deal with have a huge council tax bill to pay wed not sure how I'm going to do it yet it's got so massive where I kept cancelling direct debits because I had rinsed the account also £240 in payday loans at the end of the month think maybe a little prayer to the man upstairs il try anything.woke up for a few hours last night worrying about it but as each day goes by things will get easier I guess really tired so off to bed with no guilt of gambling hooray!