GR4Y diary

Thanks lost in life. Smiler and delboy 🙂

4 days GF today

Hello diary

Woke up read the comments from the people named above so started the day happy. Yesterday I doe something I would normally wouldn't of done so well done to me!

Today I kept busy took the dog on a 6 mile walk with the partner. Was able to treat her to some boots she wanted where as before it would of went to the FOBTs!!!

Felt so good doing it 🙂

Even joined a gym gonna go 5 times a week to keep my mind busy ( other plus side is getting healthy)

Once again thanks for the support guys

GR4Y 4 days GF (taking it day by day)

Today has to be the best out of the last 5 days

Woke up went work came home went gym took dog out and chilling watching tele.

G##bling never even entered my mind today so felt so good cos of that. That's why I hashed out a couple of letters as it was absent today so I want it to be absent all day and maybe forever 🙂

GR4Y 5 days GF ( taking day by day)

Glad you're doing so well GR4Y. Keep on going my friend. As soon as I'll get my energy back I'm joining a gym as well as exercise tends to keep depression at bay.

Hi GR4Y

Just keep doing what you are doing and post if you feel good, bad or indifferent! Gym is a great way of doing something different. Apparently can be quite addictive which is not such a bad thing.

Take care

Thanks lost and smiler for your support

Hi diary

Sorry never wrote anything yesterday as was busy with work and gym. Still going on the wagon feeling a lot better those last two days thinking straight and mind is clear. Just gonna take it day by day and hopefully I keep getting stronger and stay away from gambling.

Stay strong all and take it day by day

GR4Y 7 days GF

Afternoon everyone

Just took a phone call from my mother telling me that my aunt has been told she only have mouths left in her battle against c##cer!! My mum asked me for a loan when the time comes to help with the funeral cost.

Feeling quite low as all that money I lost through the FOBTs could have gone on giving a family member a good send off 🙁

Just makes me realise how short life can be and to live it as happy as you can.

I'm gonna try to remember and respect my aunt by not gambling.

Luckily I manage to sort out a loan to pay some of the costs.

GR4Y 8 days GF (living life happy as a GF man)

Hi Gr4y,

Sorry to hear about your aunt, but whatever you do, don't start to project some guilt on to yourself for past mistakes. They're gone now. Don't look back. I know it's a cliché, but I believe it genuinely helps if you move forward. You've been dealt another blow with this news, but stay strong! It will be worth it in the long run.

Thanks Martin69

So true what you said I know I should keep looking forward but sometimes it's hard to forget the past. But I'm gonna try to keep looking forward and not back.

Dear diary

Sorry didn't post anything yesterday was just having a feel low day!

Enough about my personal probs back to my G##bling prob. Had my 1st GA meeting and that was a big help talking about why I do it (should say why I did it)

Hearing others too WHAT A BIG HELP THAT WAS!!!!

Feel like my whole attitude towards life, money ect ect has change ( for the better)

Living on pennies as lost this month wages two weeks ago 🙁

As I was told by someone on here just gonna take it day by day.

GR4Y 10 days GF ( trying to look to the future not to the past)

gr4y

Well done for your continued abstinence.

Life will with out doubt improve, remember the next two weeks getting by on the scraps your gambling left you to live on.

It will gift your resolve a huge amount when you do have funds again.

And how you want to use them

Keep making the right choice

Duncs stepping forward never back.

Dear diary

Today will be 13 days GF and what a rollercoaster it's been had my ups and also my downs.

I know today has just started but I'm counting today as a GF day as my attitude towards g##bling as change ( want it absent from my life) so I know I won't do it.

Crazy how my life as change by me not g##bling ie I'm more happy, my relationship as improved a lot And my attitude towards money ( learnt to respect it).

Went to visit my aunt over the weekend we had a good heart to heart. She told me how she was doing and I told her about my problem. She said something to me that will stay with me through my recovery 🙂

Anyhow best go get ready for work.

GR4Y 13 days GF ( staying strong for the right reasons)

Hi gr4y. So sorry to hear about your aunt! Isn't funny how life throws blows at us when we are low? But it seems that you are on the right path and handling it as it should be handled. Proud of you buddy. Thank you for all the support too!! Forward and never look back!!

Hey Gray,

Well done on spending your time and money on things that are much more valuable and rewarding than gambling, and while it can be a rollercoaster, quitting gambling is a rollercoaster that is generally going upwards towards a better future.

I think joining the gym will prove to be a good idea too, not only will it give you something to do but the physical exercise is likely to improve your sleep too, as you'll be more tired going to bed.

All the best mate,

Ryan

Thanks lost and Ryan for your kind words

Dear diary

15 days ago I was heading for rock bottom!!

Funny how when you admit to a problem things change completely! ( for the good of course)

Life is happy now seeing things more clearly then I ever did. The last two days have flown past.

RYAN you was so right going gym does help me have a better night sleep.

Got another GA meeting this week.

Would like to thanks everyone for their support and tips 🙂

I was dreading payday next week ( G##BLING it all)

But I'm not now as I'm confidant that I won't be setting foot into a bookies anymore.

Hope you all well on your recovery!!!!

All the best

GR4Y 15 days happier 🙂

Morning diary

Today is the start of number 18

Didn't think I would or could make it this far.

But thanks to this site and the people on here for their support I have 🙂

After the 1st week the days just flown past. Keeping myself busy really helps. Had my niece over yesterday she had me on my toes lol .

Going to take the dog for a walk along the Thames with the partner so fingers cross it stays dry.

Gr4y 18 days GF ( happy happy happy)

Dear diary

I'm still going GF 20 days now 🙂

Yesterday was one of them fell low days but today I felt good.

Just trying to keep myself busy busy busy think that's what helping me so far

A old friend rang me yesterday with a tip for the horses ( I never laid the bet out) it came in but I didn't feel angry by not backing it. I know I would've felt angry if I did as all the hard work I done so far would've been for nothing.

Proud of myself for thinking like that and so was my partner 🙂

All the best

GR4Y 20 days GF