Hi Diary,Â
I've not really tried to start one of these yet, but I'm still quite close to the beginning, so let me catch up.
Today I am 5 days gambling free!
Honestly, days 1-4 went a lot smoother than expected, already I suspect that this was due to work and I was distracted most of the time and I wasn't able to think about it.
On day 3, I opened up to my friend, the first time I had told anyone outside of these forums that I had been struggling with gambling. It was tough and a lot of years were shed, but she was understanding and offered me so much support which it doesn't feel like I deserve at the moment.
Today, day 5, was easily the toughest yet. No work, and Champions League Football. I spent most of today fighting the urge for the first time since I decided to give up gambling, and it was so, so tough, but I made it through. Another day no bets and I have to say, I feel quite proud of myself.
Day 5 and counting.
Good man...I have faith in you... I get the same urges...keeping busy helps...I have days we're I don't won't to gamble amd more often too... the thing is to find something that gives you the same buzz..if it really is that...I only feel like I've won if I've lost amd won it back..silly I know.. problem is don't like to lose... I'd be bloody dangerous if I had loads of money.. always in the back of my head.. I think amd always look after myself winning or losing...its only money at the end of the day..we are lucky to be alive... I hope you manage your goal...more that happy to chat to ya....stay safe amd lucky ...
Well done for posting and opening up to you're friend. There are resources on this site which can help put blocks in place if online gambling is the main issueÂ
I would also recommend physical GA meeting which are just as helpful.
Take care and keep fighting the addiction
Dave101
Hi
Feeling proud of yourself is due to the changes you make in your life style.
The addictions and obsessions just indicated how emotionally vulnerable you were.
Feeling proud of yourself is giving up self abuse and pain on your self.
Feeling proud of yourself is the reward we get for exchanging unhealthy habits in to healthy habits.
I am not able to change what I have done or said in the past no matter how unhealthy it was.
Before m recovery I was a very unhealthy vulnerable hurt child who could not heal.
Clean days can not be lost we have a ready lived them.
It is very unlikely that a person will stop gambling from day one.
No matter when your last bet was it is very important to keep going to meetings you will get it eventually.
Healing Love and Peace to every one.
Dave L
Hi, thanks for your kind words.
Well done on your progress so far also!
I wish you the best in your future.
Hi,
I have put these blocks in place but I'm sure you'll know that it doesn't stop the urge.
Whether or not I'm able to actually place these bets, I still feel good for beating the urge myself and not just knowing I can't do it and becoming frustrated.
Thanks for your kind words and good luck in your journey.
Hi Dave,Â
Thanks for your kind words and advice, so far I've taken in all of the advice I've been given on here and most, if not all of it has been very helpful.
Together, we can all help one another through this journey.
Thanks again and good luck.
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