Hope

Good for you SA

What a wonderful world if we want it

Take care

Steve E

Just checking in... no urges or thoughts of gambling. Managed 15km in 1hr 30mins on the tread mill.. its been a good few years since ive run that sort of distance.. am well pleased with my efforts. Am doing a 10 mile run later in the year.

Anyway not much else to say today.. feeling fine.. have enjoyed the spring like weather. Regards to all who read this.. S.A

SA

Great to hear about the decent run on the mill. I also have found great distance from gambling by runnning running and running. It is one of the few things I do that make me feel a bit better , apart from the support on here of course.

Good luck with the 10m later in the year , something decent to look forward too.

Hi mancity..as you say.. finding something to look forward to. I find that when I can't see anything on the horizon to look forward to.. then gambling thoughts creep into my mind. I guess this is where normal people go on holiday... and i do need some sort of holiday.. being on my own am just unsure of what to do and where to go. There is also an underlying feeling that "will I enjoy it".. will it be worth spending the money??? I won't know unless I go.

Of course i would not think twice about shovelling hundreds of pounds into a machine because.. hey, am enjoying myself arnt i??? and am gonna win tonnes more money arnt i??? .. what a load of distorted b******t lol Anyway thats the past.. onto the future with a positive outlook... S.A 🙂

Hey SA

I think you summed gambling up in your previous post. Distorted b******t it is indeed.

Take Care and book that holiday!!!

Hi S.A.

Just popping in, even have my cuppa tea in my hand lol. We do need things to look forward to, or else I tend to find myself looking back too much and dwelling on my mistakes. Sometimes I feel life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards. So book that holiday, don't worry whether or not you will enjoy it. When you get there keep living one day at a time and the smiles will follow. Take care S.A.

Dee

Thanks SA, you knew exactly where I was coming from and why. John is the strong silent type. It was simply a panic attack I had. But it was good to let it go.

Reading about your thoughts of a holiday, my daughter booked herself on one of those action packed adventure holidays, she meet some lovely people, had some hair raising adventures and returned with so much confidence. She didn't go with any one, she went alone. Not sure I could do what she did, or if its your cup of tea, but its just a thought.

Really pleased you are doing so well, your positivity was what drew me to your diary. Keep doing all you are doing. You are in charge of your destiny. Love Ostrich x

Thank you everyone for your thoughts.. rest assured I shall be dropping into your diaries some time soon.. you have been warned! 🙂

Just back from a GA meeting.. not a particularly great meeting for me.. I was feeling overtired as I often am in the week.. and struggled a bit with my therapy to say what i wanted to say.. I got a bit stressed...even there I feel the need to "get it right". However in listening to others it did re-affirm one thing...

... I don't want to gamble!

Goodnight.. S.A 🙂

Another day passes gambling free! 🙂

Last gamble of any kind: 25th of May 08

Am feeling relatively upbeat and positive today. Ive been busy and at times felt a little stressed.. but am home now have dealt with my feelings, have dealt with the absurdities that crept in today... and let them go!

No thoughts or urges to gamble.. all is well.. S.A 🙂

hi S.A

glad all is well.to not gamble since 25thmay is a huge achivement,and one not to be underestimated.that really is great going.will almost be a year.im finding as the days and weeks roll by it does get easier,the urges become a lot less powerfull.and less frequent.its also something to keep hold off.i mean if you was to gamble today.you would be right back to square one.all the hard work undone.keep up the great work mate,and defo something to be proud of

neil

Had a long session down the gym yesterday evening so had a quiet day today...chilling and some posting on here.. a little tidying up.. and a quick visit to the shops.. more for the walk than anything else. Sunny weather but not to hot... just the way I like it.

I started to think a few thoughts walking home (not gambling related) but they did get me all worked up and angry.. albeit briefly. Ive calmed myself down now.. funny how my emotions can change so quickly sometimes. In the past if i'd of got angry i'd of then gone gambling. Not now. Its helped simple focussing on doing something else ie writing in here.

No urges or thoughts of gambling.. regards to all who read this.. S.A 🙂

Hi SA

Thanks for the post in my diary. It really is about getting back to the simple things for me and stopping my overactive brain conjuring up every scenario imagineable. Glad you are winning this battle.

Take care

Steve E

Thanks for dropping by Steve. Today has been a good day.. met a friend I havent seen in a while for coffee. He was talking of a break he's got planned for himself and by himself. Am reminded that I do want and need a break. The day i do something about it... should be a day of national celebration.. lol

Another heavy but enjoyable session down the gym 15.79 km's (9.81 miles) in 100 minutes. It would have been quicker but I got to 14.5 km's and I couldn't run any more.. so fast walked the last bit.

Now 10 miles is 16.09 km's and i want to be able to run that in under 6 mins per km which would be 96 minutes or there abouts otherwise known as 1hr and 36 minutes. I think that is a good target to aim for. I like running... helps me in so many ways. I still have a bit of a belly mind.. will it ever go..lol

As for gambling... that is way off over the horizon. Wild horses wouldn't drive me to gambling today. Regards to all who read this.. S.A 🙂

Brilliant SA, you have a great attitude to your own success at abstaining, post number 555, that's a milestone in it's own right....... good luck.