I am stronger than I thought!

Thank u 4 all ur kind words and support on my diary 🙂

1 wk 2day 🙂

A wk ago 2day I gambled after over 4 mths of being gamble free. I was soooo disappointed and this wk has been really tough. Like a rollercoaster ups and downs. But I managed 2 stay gamble free, I am sooo happy that I did not give up!!

I had a better nites sleep last nite, I could have slept in this morning 4 the 1st time in a while but Maddison woke me up lol always the way. I was feeling really ill again this morning so went 2 the dr's I've got a kidney infection, probably explains why I have been sooo miserable.

On a positive note today, I went 2 a college open day to have a look around. And see what part time courses were available, so I have a lot 2 think about. If I decide to leave my job and be a full time mum 🙂

I met my friend for lunch which was nice! no pub 2day tho lol 🙂

The biggest lesson I have learnt is that it is ok sometimes not to be the strong one and that does not make me weak.

Anyway i'm rambling now lol

Hope everyone is doing well 🙂

Ps. Hi Matty, I searched 2 see if u had a diary could not see 1. I would suggest staying away from where u play the machines, giving ur money 2 someone. Maybe u could spk 2 an advisor on here, they r very helpful. Btw I do not offer advice to get it back I offer advice 2 try and help ppl based on my experience with gambling. A lot of ppl have been soooo supportive 2 me on here and 4 that I am sooo grateful. Stay strong, u can do this 🙂

I have to say Matty that what you just posted is very negative and to be quite frank unbelievable. Firstly we all support one another, in our own way but at the end of the day this is your own diary, for youyr own recovery and should not be dependent on the contributions of others. Secondly, Charlotte is not too young to have a baby, from what Ive read she is a mature, sensible individual with all the knowledge and experience to be both a good mother and person. Finally, having a child probably didnt drive Charlotte to gambling but having a child gave Charlotte the incentive and courage to give up gambling, think about what you type next time, hope you can sort yourself out, Steve.

Hi Matty, Is this some kind of joke?

I don't even know what 2 say, I don't really even feel like I need to justify myself 2 u!

But 4 the record... my daughter means the world 2 me, she makes me smile everyday and she is my life. Not sure what my age has got 2 do with it and my daughter is NOT the reason I use 2 gamble. She is my motivation 2 beat this!

With regards 2 ur question it is not easy but it is possible. I do not feel like I am the best person to offer u ne advice going forward tho. I wish u well.

Well said Char! Very well said!!! xx

I'm gobsmacked at his post myself!

Hi Charlotte

Please believe me when I say, you are doing brilliantly.

I too was shocked at Matts post and I hope you dismiss it as the total rubbish that it is.

You take care , there are plenty of us on this site who are rooting for you.

Dusty xxxx

He's probably an Internet Troll... tell Gamcare

Weldy

Charlotte

Not my best post but can't think of what to say !

You are really great and so supportive with us

Here for you

Take no bloody notice

Lucy

Hiya Charlotte ....just sending you big hugs and keep strong hun..

Rach and Dotty from the Supporters side xxxx

unbelievable!

Hope you're ok Charlotte don't let this upset you when you've been through so much lately, take care, Steve.

Charlotte, who ever said a young lady can't give good advice to a middle aged man 3 times her age. I certainly did not. Thank you so very much for your kind and supportive words. Though I have only been here a few days so many people including yourself have shown me kindnesses that have impacted me greatly.

We are all saddled with the same affliction. We can tell for sure though about one another that we are good hearted people. This expressed by our willingness to help people we have never met before. Life doesn't come with blueprints. Gambling is just an impossible dream. I've thrown away a lot chasing that dream in the last 20 years. And all the while the greatest payoff that I could ever imagine was won by me a long time ago. It was my own birth. The chance to live and breath and play and grow and learn and make friends and to love. It's that simple. And now you have given life to your daughter. And while she is so important to you, just remember. You are very very important too! The fact that your here lending support and seeking support tells me what a good person you are. I'm sure you're a fantastic mom. Its a tough time to be young these days. It's easy to veer off the path sometimes and make mistakes. Don't be too hard on yourself. This is a good place with good people who want to see you do well. And I'm certainly one of them. Thank you again Charlotte for your kind words.

Well said Kris. Charlotte has been a tower of strength to me and many others on this site. Her daughter is very fortunate to have a mother like her.

Hope you are ok Char xxx

Thanks for all your kind words I am ok 🙂

I am not even going to reply 2 that last message from Matty, I know how much my little girl means to me and that is all that matters!! I am going to report this now.

Thanks all 🙂

Hi Charlotte, sorry to hi-jack your diary for just one moment...

To Mattycg2 - If you are new here, then perhaps you should start your own diary. It is definately NOT appropriate to post such insensitive rubbish on someone elses diary pages. Your post was completely wrong in all senses of the word and you have no right to tell someone how they should feel and no right to comment on their private lives that you know nothing about.

If you need help with your problems, you cannot "beg a friend" and you cannot write anything you want on their personal diary, there are rules by which you must abide.

Start your own diary to express what YOU are feeling and I'm sure someone will relate to your feelings and offer you some advice.

Your first posts on here have caused offence, and as you have found out by the response, many people on this forum do help and advise Charlotte, amongst others, as she also helps and offers advice to many others on here.

You have gone about this forum in the wrong way, so start your own diary and start again.

Weldy

Charlotte

Take no notice , you are more mature than some older people !

You remain strong and have done wonders for others on here as I keep saying .

Do what you said Charlotte

Keep strong , your bloody brilliant !

Lucy