Day 2
Hi all,
Well it was all going so well. Life at home was great. Great wife and kids and recently moved to our lovely new home.
I'm not sure exactly it had been but in the hundreds of days since I had last gambled.
A few years ago I invested some money in some shares. All was okay until I checked my account one morning and discovered that the company I had invested most of my money in had gone into administration. Shortly after this I found out that shareholders would be getting nothing.
I was gutted. Stupidly I decided a quick fix was my best option. I registered with one of the few companies I hadn't already self-excluded from. Deep down I knew it was wrong but I felt like I needed to do something to try and fix the mess. I spent £400. It was almost all gone before I went on a winning run. At one point I had £3,000 in my account. If only I had walked away and withdrawn the money then. But as you all know we cannot win because we cannot stop. When I closed my account and self -excluded on Monday night I was £600 down. As sickening as it feels I know that if I had tried to win the money back I would just have ended up in an even bigger mess.
Sorry for the big ramble but I really needed to get that off my chest.
Best wishes to all.
Dave
Hi Dave, first of well congrats on quiting for over 100 days in the past, that shows that you can stop gambling.
What I've found in the past is learning from the relaspe, why did it happen , why did I gamble? How can I learn from it? How can I prevent this happening in the future!
In the short term self exclude from them sites. Do you use a laptop? If so get gamblock, or if its a tablet try K9.
Exclusion def help at the start, and it about making a committment to stop gambling. I scored the 3 digits off the back of my visa card and its worked out really well, a) Cannot gamble online and B) I made that positive decision to do it and not gamble.
Wish you all the best, keep posting and reading. This illness can be beaten!
Hi Gav123,
Thanks very much for your message. I really appreciate your support. I hope that you have had a good, gambling free day.
Best wishes
Dave
Day 3,
Staying strong. Spent a lovely day with my family. Enjoying the important things in life again now that the gambling blinkers are off.
Best wishes to all.
Dave
Dave
fella the doors revolve,learn from your latest episode,be kind to yourself,you are back in the driving seat.
For it be proud
Abstain and maintain
Duncs stepping forward never back
NM.
Best wishes for the days ahead,
gazza
Day 4,
Thank you very much to Duncs for your, as always, insightful and positive comments and to Gazza for your continued support.
No thoughts about gambling. Just lots of self loathing and anger directed at myself for being so weak and stupid - again!
Best wishes to all.
Dave
Day 5,
The start of what I hope will be the first of many gambling free weekends. In the words of Duncs abstain and maintain.
Best wishes to all.
I hope that you all have a great, gambling free weekend.
Dave
Hi Dave,
Well done on five days, stay strong and positive and keep going forwards,
Have a good peaceful gambling free weekend and win.
Suzanne xx
Hi Dave... and thanks for dropping in in my hour of need.
Its good to read that you are getting back on track.
I am determined to do the same.
As am you suggest, the most horrible thing about this addiction is how months of hard work can be undone so quickly.
To remain ever vigilant from now on.
Regards... S.A
Day 7,
1 week today. Continuing to abstain. No thoughts about gambling.
Best wishes to all.
Dave
Day 8,
No thoughts of gambling. Staying on my guard. I can't stop thinking about my wife and children. I have a great relationship with all of them. I will not let gambling ruin that.
Dave
Day 9,
Long live this gorgeous sunshine.Busy enjoying the simple but important things in life today. 🙂
Day 10,
Double figures in days today. A small achievement but one which I must push on from.
Best wishes to all.
Dave
Day 12,
Chinese takeaway for tea. A small pleasure which will taste even better knowing that I am not wasting anymore money on gambling.
Best wishes to all.
Dave
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