I cannot win because I cannot stop.

Day 49 (7 weeks today)

Onwards and upwards. 🙂

Best wishes all.

Dave

Day 50,

Celebrating my mini milestone with a treat tea for the children. Homemade stir fry for myself later!

Money wasted gambling - £0

Money saved for my children - £100

Best wishes everyone.

Dave

Day 52,

I've just realised that I wrote on other peoples diaries yesterday but forgot to update my own! I must be ready for Christmas! Ha ha.

All good this end. No thoughts of gambling but my guard is well and truly up.

Best wishes all.

Dave

Day 56,

I am finding that I have less time to write on my diary the closer we get to Christmas.

No thoughts of gambling but feeling a bit low to be honest. Trying to shake it and be upbeat but I could happily curl up in a corner somewhere. I scratched all down the side of my car yesterday. Luckily no other car involved just a wall. Big scratches along two panels. No idea yet how much it is going to cost yet but could really do without the added expense right now.

Dave

Hi Dave,

Well done on 56 days, it's a big achievement and milestone for you.

Wishing you a very merry gambling free Xmas and new year

Suzanne xx

Day 60,

I hope that everyone had a good day yesterday. We had a lovely family day. 🙂 I must admit I do love boxing day. My daughter is desparate for it to snow!

Best wishes to all.

Dave

Day 67,

Happy new year everyone. I hope that 2015 proves to be a happy and gambling free year for all of my gamcare friends. 🙂

Dave

Hi Dave,

67 days, they are mounting up now, well done,

Suzanne xx

Day 68,

I hope that everyone is well. During the build up to Christmas saving £1 a day for each of my children worked really well and helped me to keep my focus.

The new year brings a new focus. In 3 years time we have planned to take the children to Lapland for Christmas so I have set up an account to pay in £18.75 a week (£75 a month) for the next 3 years which will go a long way to help pay for the trip.

Best wishes all.

Dave

Day 2,

My absence from this site has meant a very painful and expensive month. It was all going so well until I began spending less and less time on my recovery. During the past month I am ashamed to say that gambling has once again taken over my life. It was starting to affect my health. I wasn't eating properly and was losing weight. It came to a head a couple of days ago. I was looking dreadful and my wife just came out with it and asked if I was gambling again. I confessed all straight away. It was a relief to be honest. So I start the fight again. I will write more later.

Best wishes to all.

Dave

Hi no more and welcome back.

I am sorry that gambling took a hold again, but hey you are back not giving up on giving up, and thst is what matters.

Walking along side with you as always

Take care and stay safe

Suzanne xx

Day 4,

My wife has been amazing. She is obviously hurt, angry and upset at what I have done - again. I accept that with two young children I can no longer afford to do this anymore - either financially or emotionally with my time. My debts had reached £15,000. Not all gambling but that had certainly contributed a substantial amount of it. I know that I am really lucky to have such an amazing wife. She has paid off all of my debts and I am eating and sleeping properly again. Onwards and upwards.

I hope that everyone has a great weekend.

Best wishes to all.

Dave

Hi no more,

Thanks for your message and well done on 4 days,

Stay strong and concentrate on abstaining one day at a time,

Suzanne xx

Day 7,

I feel better to have my first week under my belt in my latest attempt at recovery. Life and family life in particular is really good at the moment and I fully intend for it to stay that way.

Best wishes to all.

Dave

Hi Dave.

One week already, well done.

Keep strong and positive.

Suzanne xx