Day 9 over & NO gambling 🙂
The fog is definitely lifting, I'm surprised to be honest that I'm not getting any urges at all, anytime I see the ads on TV or even think about slots I just get angry, angry at how I could be so easily sucked into such a life destroying habit, it's like I've moved into another stage in my recovery, I spent most of my first week full of self loathing & regrets about the time & money I'd thrown away & wallowing in my own self pity......right at this moment in time...I NEVER EVER want to gamble again........but I know I can't become complacent, I'm fully aware that the dreadful temptation may sneak up on me at anytime...
'I cannot win because I cannot stop''.....therefore I will not start 🙂
Life is still 'difficult' with my partner but I just don't have the strength to deal with that right now, I'm probably taking the cowards way but I have to focus on my recovery first.....one problem at a time, one day at a time.....
Take care everyone & as always.....thank you.
M x
Thank you Julie x
Day 10 & 11 NO Gambling 🙂
Life is throwing all sorts of c**P at me right now and I'm struggling to stay positive so I won't waffle.
Not gambling is pretty much the only thing that is good at the moment......
Take care folks.
M x
M
Well done hun for not gambling even under duress. If nothing else you can hold your head up high for being strong and saying no.
Amanda
Sunday evening and 14 days NO gambling 🙂
2 weeks....2 whole weeks, no gambling...no serious urges to gamble...and it feels good!
Being part of Mr Brightsides 2014 challenge has definitely been a massive help to me, the thought of letting him and the others down is the perfect little extra motivation to keep me going....
Life at home is still not great but I'm plodding along, it will get better and I WILL make the changes that need to be made but not right now......I don't think I'm strong enough just yet to cope with the immediate aftermath of those changes.
My mind is definitely a lot clearer than it has been for a long long time.....not waking up with a gamblers hangover or going to sleep with a gamblers regrets has allowed me to think....really think, long & hard about everything & everyone in my life....my eyes are wide open and I will not descend into the darkness again!
'I cannot win because I cannot stop' .....so there's no point in starting 🙂
Day 15 tomorrow & start of Week 3
Tomorrow I will NOT gamble!
Take care everyone & keep fighting.
M x
Day 17 and NO Gambling 🙂
I can't remember where I first read the statement 'I cannot win because I cannot stop' but it has become my mantra....if I even for a fleeting moment think about those slots I just repeat over & over ......
You will NOT win because you will NOT stop!
17 days....and I'm feeling good 🙂
M x
Hi M,
Well done on 17 days g free and be proud!!!
Absolutely right saying you got there my friend..we cannot win because we cannot stop!! Better stay clear then lol
Be proud and keep taking day at a time..weeks will turn to months, years and forever!! You are in a driving seat and doing so well! 🙂
Take care
Sandra x
Sandra & Julie....huge thanks for your support 🙂
It really does make a difference knowing I'm not alone in this fight.....and fighting I am and will continue to do so 🙂
Early hours of Day 19 and NO Gambling 🙂
Day off work today and didn't have any plans other than the usual catching up with housework, this would have been 'prime' gambling time, alone in the house, the Mr at work & my boy in college.....but nope...no gambling for me....no throwing my hard earned down the toilet....no turning into a zombie....and then the guilt and remorse for my stupidity....nope not today!
I cannot win because I cannot stop.....no point in starting then 🙂
Take Care Everyone
M x
Hiya M
Hope to find you well and keeping up the good fight. Has it been 19 days for you? crumbs that means that I am on day 20 thought it was 18 for me lol. Been so busy I don't know whether I am coming or going.
Anyway well done hun massive achievement, keep your head held high and buy something nice to treat yourself, you deserve it 🙂
Just checked in to Mr B's 2014 Challenge thread and it feels good....21 days & NO Gambling 🙂
Having a tough month financially but at least I'm not making it worse chasing past losses, February will be the start of clearing the debts that gambling has left me with, it will be a slow process but every day that I abstain is a little bit closer to freedom 🙂 and not just from gambling.....
M x
Hi M,
Well done on 21 days of freedom and you are doing brill 🙂
I sense great strength, determination and belief you have in yourself.
Days will add up and it will get easier. Money matters will change its track to reducing the debt. As long as you stay on straight and narrow you are winning the fight!!!
Patience and courage my friend
Take care and be proud
Sandra x
Hi M
Just a little check in to see if you are ok, hope all is well and you are keeping strong. Well done on reaching day 26, as you once said "we can do this".
Anyhoo keep strong, don't work too hard and we are all here if you need us 🙂
Amanda
Hey M,
All quiet on your diary........hoping all ok!! You've been doing so so well.......and while the road is bumpy and we may get thrown off course, it's still a road to be on.
Hoping to see you check in this week and that all is ok. No matter what, don't be a stranger, we're all here rooting for you.
Mr Brightside
.........gettingmoreworriedaboutyou.com
Nothing to be ashamed about Mrs. Drop us a note - realty hoping you've been away on hol or something.
Take care,
Mr B
M
I'm not giving up on you so do yourself a favour and make a post - I know you're watching, possibly beating yourself up or maybe and hopefully I'm completely wrong and you're on hols or something. Either way - when you get this, let us know you're ok!!
Mr Brightside
Hi folks & Mr B 🙂
I'm still here & still going strong....well maybe not strong but I am resisting those urges 🙂
Day 35 today and feeling proud of myself.....
Thank you so much everyone for your support, it's been a rough week, I'm stuffed with the cold & exhausted from work, my personal life is still 'difficult' but I'm not making it any worse by gambling so that's something to be grateful for 🙂
Just checked in on your 2014 Challenge Mr B....you are my inspiration and I am determined NOT to let you down.
I cannot win because I cannot stop...no point in starting then 🙂
M x
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