I understand that recovery is a healing process which takes time. Yet abstaining from unhealthy habits is very important before we can start to heal the hurt inner child in us.

Hi

I am Dave I am a compulsive Gambler and in time I got honest more and more with my self saying it.

I am a non religious person and am humbled to the fact that it was my choice to abstain from my unhealthy habits.

At first I did not think that recovery was going to work for me.

Yet in the meetings the therapies help me open up more and more.

I like many people did not abstain from gambling right away.

Yet all the time I was investing in to the meetings I was not being self destructive in my addictions and obsessions.

My feelings of anger aggression guilt shame regret hatred indicated that I was not healing my pains.

I use to think that humbling my self was about belittling my self.

I am humbled to be an equal person to every one in the recovery program.

No matter when their last bet was.

If I am an equal person to all people then I understand that if they can achieve much more healthy things in their life I can also achieve much more healthy things in my life.

My fears were a consequence of pains in my life I had not healed or processed in healthy ways.

In the recovey program once I was abale to abstain from my unhealthy addictions and obsessions then I could start to learn to heal all of my pains of the past.

In a healthy meeting there will be less talk about money or being in action and more talking about healing foregiving and processing our feelings and emotions in healthy ways.

In my recovery was I a victim yes for sure.

I got to understand that a victim can be any size s*x or color and what can contribute to them being victimised is not being able to set boundaries for them self.

Once we heal our hurt inner child then we give that hurt inner child a voice from a place of peace.

Setting boundaries most certainly willl change other people being aggressive.

Yet setting boundaries explains we will no longer put up with very unhealthy disrespectful behaviours.

The recovery program empowers us to live much healthier lives.

The people in the recovery program will be nurturing and encouraging us to become more open and healthier.

If I could not learn to love my self I could not love other people.

If I could not learn to respect my self I could not respect other people.

In time exchanging my unhealthy habits in to healthy habits became much simpler because I got to understand more about my self.

At one time before my recovery I thought that I loved  gambling.

At one time before my recovery I thought that gambling was the most exciting thing in my life.

Now I understand that gambling was an unhealthy escape in my unhealthy fears because I was not able to heal my pains and not cope in healthy ways with my life.

Now I understand that gambling for me was a very unhealthy habit causing my self and others self abuse pain and neglect.

Healing Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham