So, I'm back after two years, so much has happened in my life. I got my debts in order and now only have about 2 years left till I'm debt free. I stopped gambling saved money and went on a fantastic holiday with my new partner. Then a few months ago I thought I'd try a few slots, I was naive to think I could control this, luckily I have realized before I got to the level of ridiculousness I was at before, so I thought I would start a recovery diary because I need to get through this, I want control of my life back, I don't want to turn into the deceitful hideous person I was before, controlled by that one last spin, one last deposit....
So, here goes, I know I can do this and I will, for myself and my family, I will get my life back.
You can do it! You did it for so long, it was just a slip up!
Thanks lego1993 xxx
I think my worst time for being tempted is night time, I think a lot and don't always go to sleep that well so I start playing on the net, so once again I have closed or self excluded from all the sites I can think of. Yesterday I sat down and worked out my finances, it shocked me how much I could actually be saving or using to pay off my debt, I don't have a wild lifestyle or anything but with my wages I could by now have a bit put away. At the moment I'm trying to focus on the next year or so. I don't want that panic at Christmas (I know it's only June but still lol) of how am I going to afford it, and we are hoping to go on holiday in February, I want to stop giving my money away to Mr Slots and enjoy it myself. I have another plan to, in the next few years I think we will get married, I want to be able to pay for my own dress! Maybe these are all pipe dreams but I know it is possible if I just make the effort.
I can do this!
Welcome back! Have you been getting any help or assistance? Counselling off Gamcare? GA? Tri
Hi tri, no I haven't. I know they are really good but I want to do this and I know I can, I havnt told my new partner about this because when I met him I had moved on from the gambling and the reasons behind it, I know my slip up is a step back but I have t take control back of my life now. I really want this.
I have thought a little about the slots over the past few days, but then I think that the 'just a tenner' I could play would buy me a few drinks on holiday, or go towards my daughter's Xmas present or even towards a wedding, this is actually really helpful, picturing my money doing something nice! I have set up a savings goal on my bank account, yes it will take a while so I have small steps in it, so hopefully I can see I'm achieving something!
I really want my life to be free again!
Well, I still have money in the bank which is a good start after the last couple months. I have thought about playing slots but the thought of it doesn't sit well at the moment. which is good, I really want to save, I don't want to be constantly. watching my bank balance and not seeing constant deposits on my statement, I feel a bit better about myself as I have stuck to my budget and am keeping positive I can do this
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