I will be there for my wife and daughter

Thanks dervkidd. Appreciate it. Day 41 now, closing in on the half century. Feeling really strong and very happy with my feelings towards gambling.

Nice to hear it,

I have opted for counselling....I hope it works out for you...

So day 71. Having a lot of urges today. Tired, hungover having to work 12 hours all part of the reason why I want a bet. I believe doing a Euro competition with friends and family has not helped either or maybe it's just the tiredness? Either way I won't be taking any risks again and will steer clear of sweepstakes and anything resembling them.

These 71 days have really shown me how tough giving up gambling is and the fact you really have to want it and give nothing but 100% to succeed. I'm having to forgo anything resembling gambling. I played killer for ВЈ2 on my brothers stag do and It felt horrible all the gambling juices was flowing and I wanted to win so bad and we're talking about £2 off my friends and family I've truly feel out of love with gambling and now hate it, hate what it does to me. Anyone that can do one bet a day or whatever and is happy, good luck to you, it's a free country and I'm not one for shouting about bookies are evil and must be stopped but for me personally I can never ever gambling again, I would lose everything if I did but really weather I would or wouldn't I just don't want to. I hate that I even want to gamble and I'm glad I have this site to come on and rant to make sure I don't gamble.

Day 71 and I will not go below this number ever again.

Day 78. I like that 78 days is a decent number and I can see the door into the treble figure club. Be fantastic to complete my first challenge (100 days) then it'll be on to the next challenge, the 250 day challenge. Which will be finished just before the year has ended which will set me up nicely for 2017. When I plan on joining the 2017 non gambling thread, where I will have my first ever full calender year gamble free.

I'm not getting ahead of myself just feeling good about where I am on this journey and truly believe that all of the above is possible.

Day 85. No more 100 day challenge by the looks of it I did briefly read a post on the thread but was at work, now gone to check back and the thread is gone. Hope all is well and he is leaving for the right reasons. But we all need to do what is best for ourselves.

I was closing in on finishing the 100 day challenge and was looking forward to that day. So I think I will keep checking in just on my own diary. I wish I had the time to run a new challenge thread myself but with a baby on the way and all that brings along with work I don't think I'd do it justice.

So I will be checking in on my diary every Friday till I hit that day 100 and then plan another goal as I had planned to move on to another challenge (the 250 day challenge) maybe I'll just keep checking in on my diary or maybe they'll be another challenge thread to sink my teeth into by then.

We shall see but all in all I am well and striving forward in my recovery the odd urge still but that is what it is and I know how to ignore it and it always goes eventually. I hate the feeling I get when I gamble and don't ever want to feel it again.

Hi you, just wanted to pop by & congratulate you on your 85 days 🙂 & say that I think your replacement plan for the 100 day challenge is a good idea 🙂

Guess there will be birthday plans to follow since that is less than 4 weeks away now & hope all is going smoothly with the baby bump? You are so right, those urges do go eventually so keep working your recovery - ODAAT

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Thanks for the posts. Feeling good except for the useless performance of the England team who are a joke, the previous world cup and this euros have been terrible. But sod all that day 87 and on I go.

Day 90. The 100 day challenge will soon be complete then I will think of a new challenge. Bad day today had to take the wife to hospital on the advice of our midwife, just a precaution but a little scary to say the least. All well so thats the main thing but not a great day. Working all weekend as is the mrs, roll on monday when were both off. Feel like we both need it, its been a long week.

Day 95 great day Monday just me and the Mrs. Won't see her now until Thursday night about 11pm, away for work. Wish I hadn't agreed to it now, it'll be the last one I do. Wouldn't want something to happen to the wife or my baby and I'm not around.

Roll on Thursday night then.

Congrats on 95,it'll be 100 before you know it.

How many days will it be when you become a dad.

189 till the due date so it'll be great to have a really good break before she's born and she'll be my reason to never go back.

Tried to find a diary of yours but guess you do not have one but thank you for your post and best of luck to you in your recovery.

Congratulations on the 100 days sorry I'm a day late I had it my mind it was Tuesday.

One day turns to weeks that then turn to years. Keep going just that day at a time proceed with caution and things keep improving.

Day 101. I missed out on the opportunity to post on day 100 - busy boy with my little girls flat pack furniture.

But here it goes, I wanted to put something a little more meaningful now I'm at a decent milestone. I have some good and bad feelings at the stage of my recovery. I'll start with the bad as I think it's key to stay positive to be be able to beat this addiction so we will end on a high and on the good points.

So the bad being where I am in life. Where I am in life can be viewed two ways and when I look one way I feel so very lucky but on other days I feel I have missed out on so much and should be in a much better position than I am. I may be 100 days gamble free but I'm also one £20 bet in 322 days so I really feel that I've stepped away from gambling but I still feel the destruction that I caused and will do for perhaps many years both emotionally and financially. I have a little girl on the way and me and my Mrs are doing well with getting things ready, buying things etc but if I just didn't have my last binge or give up gambling x amount of time before I did I'd be in such a better place wouldn't have such worries about how I'll get the things I've had to get and what I'll have to get in the future, how I'm going to pay back the debt and still support my family. Lots of worries and I would have them all wether I was a gambling addict or I wasn't but knowing I'd be in a better place if I hadn't have gambled.

Right I'm done talking negative, bottom line as much as it sucks I can't change the past. I can only make the best of what I have and what I have is pretty d**n good so I have to remember that and just remember if I stay off gambling I can still have all the things I've wanted even if it takes a little longer or is little harder to get than it may have been.

So since I have not been gambling I have bought a lot for my unborn little Angel (please be an angel! Lol) some I've bought through my savings and some I've had to resort to the credit card but still I have managed to buy the necessary and will continue to do so. If I was gambling I don't see how I would've been able to buy the things I have atleast not without more loans or credit cards.

Also I have put together furniture I have demolished our garden front and back and am still on the process of making it look how me and the Mrs would like. That has took a lot of hard work from a guy who isn't known for any manual labour and is a mile away for being anywhere near a gardener. So do I think if I was gambling I could have done that, I don't because I know how I feel when I gamble, if I'm placing or thinking about the bet or its ongoing I'm totally involved in that bet and nothing else matters and after the bet if it wins I'll be probably really investing and focusing on that next bet and if it loses I'll be depressed and have no motivation what so ever. So if I gamble I have no motivation, no will, no drive, it takes over everything. So with me gambling I jeopardise my families future in so many ways. With me gambling I can't see how I can be 100% there for my wife or my child.

So much for positivity, I've been typing this in bits as I'm at work but overall I wanna say I have good and bad days as everyone does. I have regrets but bottom line I can't change anything so I have to look forward and I have so much to live for and to enjoy. I am a lucky guy - where it matters. I plan to keep working hard be it at work earning the money, buying the things we need and paying back the debt I'm determined to pay off or at home working hard improving the house, taking care of my family. It's a long road this road to recovery but it's the only road for a gambling addict to be on and I'm staying on it and I will see more and more benefits as time goes on. I will try to put my regrets to one side and live for now and the future and try to enjoy every minute.

Thank you as always for giving me this place to say my piece and to help me along the road.

Well done oct 8th your determination shines through.
I too have been on this site since 2011,different user names but hopefully have learned by previous mistakes.

One thing is certain we realise that gambling has us licked and will ruin our lives given the chance.

Congrats on the forthcoming arrival;all the best Robby.