Yes Suzanne agree completely. There is no room for complacency! I know that the demons are always lurking especially once the bad feelings have gone. I've wasted money but more importantly my life has stood still as my addiction has grown. I'm sick of sleepless nights, endless money worries, rejigging finances. I'm tired of feeling desperate, feeling like I can't tell my nearest and dearest what this addiction has done to me. I'm tired of feeling frightened about the future. Dreading payday and not having anything left. I'm tired of losing hundreds and thousands of pounds in a couple of hours and the feeling of impending doom that overwhelms me as my last £ disappears and I have to drive home broke. I'm tired of working long hours with no reward because gambling has left a gaping hole. I don't want this life anymore. I don't want to waste anymore time on something that brings me nothing but sadness. Gambling almost destroyed my life, almost ruined my relationship and almost damaged my health. I can't live like this anymore. I've the opportunity for a fresh start and I know that if gambling factors into it I am destroyed. It's a scary thought but I know it's true. Time to face reality and reclaim life!
"God grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change,
courage to change the things we can,
and wisdom to know the difference."
Hi all haven't posted for a while. Wasn't sure in the past if I had hit rock bottom but have done now. Relationship has broken down and have realised that for me gambling was an emotional crutch that gave me the buzz that sadly had faded from my relationship. The stresses of fighting to save it led me down dark path physical and emotionally and I realise now that gambling was the devil on my shoulder promising excitement but delivering more torment. I have an uncertain road ahead but I realise that I can't save my relationship if I can't save myself. I need to address gambling now and I have sought help to get me out of the hole I find myself. Physically and emotionally I feel drained of life and although the break up is the cause, gambling was adding to my pain. So I start again. Im cried out and I feel worthless at the moment but I'm determined that it's only temporary. I love my boys and for them I need to beat this and start living again.
This is the first day of my recovery. Been here before. Don't want to be here again. Taken some time off work. Appointment with the Dr Friday. At the bottom but hope this is only temporary. Out for a walk and going to keep busy. All risk factors now firmly removed. Time to give myself a break and to refocus on what is important. Have a good gamble free day everyone!
Day 2 and despite my life falling apart around me I've managed to stay focused on the task ahead. Gambling now is the enemy and I will forever associate it with the demise of my relationship. Out of darkness cometh light.
Day 4 and still focused on recovery. I'm trying hard to keep myself motivated. Realise that gambling was my emotional crutch as I realised things were struggling in my relationship. Onward and upward.
Husky are u still in the forum? How are u doing?
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