I will never win because I cannot stop

For the majority gambling is a fun pastime. I certainly do not fall into that category. For me it is the devil in my head. The voice in my head of risk, uncertainty, panic and depression!

Today is Sunday and it's a new day. My thoughts for today are the following:

1. Stay gambling free today and it's another day closer to my target.

2. I'm never getting back what I have lost so there is no point dwelling on it. There's no point crying over spilt milk no matter how much I want to.

3. I'm never going to clear my debts through gambling in fact the opposite is true. I will add to them.

4. I will never win because I cannot stop.

I agree with all the emotions that have been mentioned which are caused by gambling. This said, there has to come a time when a line is drawn in the sand and you say 'enough is enough'. The only person who can stop the hand feeding notes into the machine, or the clicking of the mouse on the computer is the person doing it - and it takes a real effort to stop.

The question is just what will it take for you to give up once and for all? Losing your home? losing your family? losing your freedom and dignity? becoming bankrupt? The losses hurt but can't hurt enough or return visits wouldn't happen - what is going to hurt you so much the thought of gambling would make you feel disgusted to even contempate ever doing it again?

Dave

Very good points there Dave. I want to think of this as my last setback. I didn't expect it to be smooth sailing but just wish my falls weren't so big or costly. Each time I've succumbed to temptation I've gambled bigger than before as if to make up for all those days I was gamble free. I need to value my money again. I work too hard just to flitter it all away in a few spins. I'm tired of lying, I'm tired of feeling low, I'm tired of feeling sick, I'm tired of not sleeping, I'm tired of becoming a shadow, I'm tired of repeating past mistakes. Maybe I only thought I wanted to give up. This time I know I want to give up. It's not as if I was even good at it!!!!

If I am honest Husky I think you continue gambling and go larger as there is still a part of you that thinks you will hit that one big win that would put everything right. It wasn't until I realised it isn't going to happen I called it a day. Mind you given that no win is big enough even if you won you would still give it back. In fairness why would anyone give up when they are winning as all the signals are there that there is more to come. Us humans are greedy really, we get something good and want more and whats more we want more with less effort.

I will tell you for nothing you will not win - think about it logically, if people won then the bookies, online companies and casino's would go out of business, they would have to as they were giving out more than they were taking ! They invest an awful lot of money setting themselves up and you are then paying for the entertainment they provide. Its a bit like a theatre, they put on a show and you buy a ticket to watch. Your stake money is the ticket money - there is no free show.

Well I'm not buying a ticket for the show anymore. I will provide my own entertainment from now on. First objective 40 days free from gambling. I'm not gonna think about the losses anymore. Time to move on!

Up bright and early this morning at 0500 for work. Today's a new day and hopefully a new beginning for me. I need to learn from past mistakes and past failures. As Einstein once said 'the only way you will win at roulette is if you steal the chips off the table!'

Imagine your local bookmaker being boarded up after closing down. The mighty bookies closed down. Most only survive because of the FOBT machine. I would love to see them close, i wouldnt shed a tear for them or the people that work for them. Imagine we who use this site all used the same bookie, they would be raking the cash in, then imagine if every single one of us on here stopped gambling suddenly, that bookies would be hurting and struggling. PLEASE ANY OF YOU READING THIS IF YOU FEEL THE URGE TO POP TO THE BOOKIES AND PLAY THE FOBT MACHINE, DONT. Instead imagine that premises having no one playing on the FOBT and their takings take a nose dive. Together we can all overcome this c**P fobt addiction.

I absolutely hate them and what they have turned me into. I was a very moderate gambler until I discovered roulette and after that I became a reckless gambler. I had no self control, no strategy, no common sense and no money. They made me greedy, weak, self centred, depressed, angry, frustrated and helpless. It doesn't take a genius to work out that they destroy lives but it does take a strong willed person to stay off them! Hopefully I can be the latter.

Hi Huskydawg. I hope you stay off them too. Today for example i wont be playing them, if you dont either that is 2 people not feeding the greedy parasitic bookies. i know it is only one day but its a start. Imagine managers of bookmakers worried because their takings have fallen, and those boards going up in th window and a nice flower shop opening in its place for example.

Yes No Problem that is the right attitude. I will not play roulette today,or enter a bookmakers or play online. Each day is a new day!

50 days to my holiday abroad. Id like to think I can stay motivated and 'clean' till then. I need a serious change in my life to overcome the depression and blues caused by gambling. Time for some natural endorphins through exercise instead of artificial and destructive endorphins through gambling. I want to change and I want to beat gambling. It's Day 4 today and I still feel fairly raw. I almost went into a bookmakers yesterday and I passed 3 or 4 today, but I managed to say no. By gaming we lose both our time and treasure:
two things most precious to the life of man

Hi Husky - what is stopping you self-excluding from the local bookies?

I desperately want you to prove me wrong but while you have access I have no doubts will will be on the machine again. Well done for not going in yesterday - why have temptation there when you don't need to?

I don't have a local bookmakers Dave. I live in a rural village that doesn't even have a pub! I travel about with my work but the majority of the time don't come into contact with bookmakers. It's only if I'm in the city which is a couple of times a month.

I've put steps in place now Dave to eliminate the threat/risk of going into a bookmakers. I appreciate that it's lip service at the moment but hopefully with time I can establish a pattern of NOT going into bookmakers. I don't want anymore money going down the drain and I want to get my debts cleared asap so I can start appreciating money again. I had no value in money while I gambled.