I wish there was a pill you could take to stop this terrible illness/addiction

Here's to another day, had a bit of a sleepless night again and thought about gambling and getting the big win but after reading posts on here that is quite common and of course we are never going to get that big win or if we do they take it all back x x one week to my holiday which will help as it will be breaking the time money location etc . Good luck to all who are on this journey x x

Well another day chalked up, been for a 3 mile walk with the dog, shopping and house work. Still all good so far working towards my target of 20 days.

Morning diary, lovely sunny day and no awful feeling about the amount of money I lost should I have gambled last night or the last several nights. I'm trying to condition my brain back to being normal and the way I used to be before gambling. Instead of thinking of how much I lost I'm working out how much I can save once the debt is cleared. Going to walk the dog, visit my parents and check they are ok. Best wishes to all for a gamble free Sunday x

Have a fab day, be positive and strong..

Hi well almost another day, feeling proud but not cocky I know it's easy to give in to the urges. Done another 3 mile with the dog, spent a few hours with my parents. Im making up for the time I should have spent with them but made excuses to get back so that I could log on and aimlessly keep pressing spin spin spin and loosing loads of money. Read more diaries today whilst it gives me comfort that I am not alone it makes me so sad and angry against the gambling establishments and whilst they don't hold a gun to your head the machines are geared up to get you hooked, the bonuses they offer to draw you in and th advertising. As my problem was always online, could never go into the bookies or casinos I only noticed yesterday when I went to town how many places there was, B*****d etc., on almost every corner. They are no better then drug dealers as it can have the same kind of devastation and for some result in death. I wish they could read some of these diaries on here, how they would feel if it was there son, daughter, mother or father. Anyway rant over but it is certainly helping me stay positive, I'm not giving them Another penny of my hard earned cash. ALso all the excercise is getting the extra weight I put on just sitting their lik a couch potatoe, whilst still only size 10 I was a 6 /8 and feel unfit. Busy week ahead at work, need to ensure everything is sorted for my weeks break so lots to,keep me busy there.

Good morning diary, start of another new day and today is going to be another gamble free day , at work now so will be busy all day.

Well another day nearly over and still going strong, busy day again tomorrow, I'm feeling more focused at work now as not having to worry about the amount of money I lost the night before or tired because I had stayed up until 2 and 3 o clock. God only knows how I've managed to keep things ticking over at work as working in legal sometimes have complex cases

Morning slept a little better last night. I'm going to be gamble free again today. Off to a legal seminar, mind all fresh x

Thank you Anon that's really kind of you to post , believe me it took a long time to see the light but it's so well worth it :))

Hope your seminar went well and you managed to stay awake LOL :))

Wishing you another gamble free week and look after yourself One day at a time !! .

Thanks again

Alan x

Well back from the seminar, caught the train into the city and had time to reflect on gambling and the terrible addiction. Here's what caused me to reflect, the train was packed (squashed like baked beans in a tin) sat next to me was a fella that stank of booze and it appeared from looking at him that he had a problem with booze, red blotchy face and very thin to mention just a few things. Then I got to thinking about the signs of drug addiction and then about gambling. Gambling is the easiest I feel for a person to hide because you can pass of being tired, stressed, miserable for a number of other things that could be going on in your life. So many people could be suffering in silence, I know this because I have done it for several years until I came on here. I feel like I've been living in a dark tunnel for such a long time and its only now that the light is starting to come through. I like the slight improvement in me over the last couple of days and its making me stronger then ever that I will not gamble again.

The statistics that they put out about gambling addiction and the effects on family etc., I feel does not give a true picture. I think the government should make the gambling establishments pay more out to support people to give it up - more regulation on fair gaming etc., Stop the adverts on TV etc., Anyway rant over - another day for me chalked up. I cannot wait to get into double figures! Good luck to all on this journey x

Morning diary, day 8 and I'm feeling good apart from still feeling a little tired. It must be all those sleepless nights catching up on me . Off to work now

Morning diary, day 8 and I'm feeling good apart from still feeling a little tired. It must be all those sleepless nights catching up on me . Off to work now

Yes and another day soon to be notched up, feeling as strong as Tyson fury , I can and will beat this.

Glad it's going well.

re the pill, no one would want to take it, there would just be that little voice of the addiction saying that there's no need.... No quick fixes, the only way is manually but you get out what you put in.

Wish you well.

CW

Thank you CW, if there had have been a pill I would have taken it. I'm taking one day at a time and taking comfort on here that I'm not alone and that it can be beaten but it's a long and hard journey. I hope your ok and life is better for you, please keep an eye on me, I really want to do this x x