I'm coming out of my cage.......

hi mr b

congrats on 3 months today! imagine! quarter of a year! What a great achievement only 3 more of them and we will be on dec 31 congratulating you on the full year. It will come round and if our lives have changed so much for the better after 3 months I cant wait to see what good will come of the full year!

Anyway- well done and keep up the good work soldier!

Linda x

Fitlike Mr B?

Congratulations on reaching day 90, only 9 more till the next huge milestone such a great achievement

I did notice your typo error lol but knew what you meant, without the consonant is more fitting, describes my night precisely.

L530, can't go any further till it's updated 🙁

good news is I can get on with my life now. Bad news is it gives you chance to catch up mister.... Nah who am I kidding - you will will never catch up!!

Looking forward to the update tonight and seeing the total weekly tally.

Take care x

Hello diary!! It's been a while......nearly a month since I popped a note onto you.

I've not really got a lot to say.......118 days free from gambling, things are going well. Days like today we're never a problem for me - didn't do the horses for some reason. Still look at the footy scores and wonder whether I would have won or lost.......but ultimately I would have lost.

The urges aren't as bad as they used to be - progress!! Debt is coming down slowly, but hoping to be clear by the end of the year - would be a mass breakthrough!

I am so thankful for this site, for the people on it and the support that both combined give me. Thanks to you all!!

Have a great Saturday and hopefully you have all navigated today safely.

Mr Brightside

Hi Mr B - congratulations on 118 - that seems to ring a bell.... oh yes, those directory enquiry blokes on TV! Hope you are sporting a droopy moustache, running shorts and T-shirt to celebrate.

A big 'thank you' for all your help and support for so many of us.

Joanna x

Hello Mr B,

Well done on 118 days :)))

Thanks for your continued hard work, time and dedication you put into the 2014 challenge several times every week!

See you on the 2014 challenge thread! 😀

Scambling

Hey mr B,

Was listening to a bit of the killers there and it made me think of you. The number of days you have clocked up now is incredible and I hope things are starting to get easy. You are the main reason I want to continue on this journey and I look up to with a great deal of respect, if times are tough I'm always here for you as I know you will be for me

Thank you for being you 🙂

Batman x

Closing in on that 150 days bud !

Great work 🙂

Scambling

Well hello diary - it's been a while.........

Thanks to Scambling and Batman for the nice words!!

It's been some journey - now over 150 days with 6 months free being the next milestone. I wonder if it's getting any easier or whether there's a plateau that you reach when it just becomes more a thinking habit than an acting habit?

If anything, recovery lends itself to helping you realise how quickly time passes.......and how you fill the time you once lost to gambling quite easily. Being a better dad or son or friend or husband and being thoughtful in the way you do it.......how can I bless others rather than a giving financial offerings to a betting shop!!

A big learning for me in the last couple of months has been around the concept of "good enough". What is good enough? All my life I've strived to be the best and all my life I've fallen short........but what is the best? There's now a direct link between the two........because rather than trying to be the best for no one other than me, I strive to be good enough for everyone...........good enough for my daughter is what's best for her and not for me. Quite liberating even though there's ramblings of a mad man in there!!

I'm not sure if I'll post on my diary again - my diary is pretty much the 2014 Challenge now and I get so much out of that and can air my innermosts on that.......but it's a comfort knowing my diary is here.......and it serves the purpose of painful reminders from December and before.

duncanmac uses the phrases "gifted" and having read a lot of his posts recently it really landed with me - I have been "gifted"...........a life..........one that is full of promise and hope........and a future.

I am well and truly out of my cage and I am doing better than just fine. I am good enough!!

Thanks to everyone on this site - you are better than good enough.

Mr Brightside