Ive Arrived a broken Man

Hi, Brownie,

Somewhere amid all this thinking, you obviously thought, "Just for today, I will not gamble".

It's working, good on you, I wish you only peaceful thoughts.

CW

CW

Thanks for your comments xxx it's been one he'll of a journey. Thinking of taking my life. Sitting in front of Banker who could see all my out goings and incoming. Knowing I was a loser. But the hardest thing for me was saying goodbye to that roullete wheel. For 3 whole years that wheel ruled my life . Wreaked my marriage.destroyed my bank balance. But I know now I can' restore that and restore my life and my pride. Sometimes when I'm bored I hear that little bloke in my head saying spin the ball brownie lad one last spin but it's a faint voice now. Like many of you I know if I have just one spin that would be me back at square one again ... I've got no worries about getting to 100 days and again id like to thankyou all for looking out for me xxStill looking for a date if anybody's free lol..

Well done, I am on day 32 and finding it very difficult this weekend but reading your posts have helped me. Thank you

Roll on 100 days here we come. Not long now anybody fancy a pint or two to help me celebrate. Or cake of course

Well 2 days to go who would have thouhgt it. Me 98 days plus ago thinking about taking my own life. Has it been easy has it heck as like. Phew its been one long hard slog but Im on top of it. Roll on 100 days.... Thanks again Deanoo Balvaird Wcid Jigsaw Cynical Wife Triangel I love and respect you all. Id love to stand in front of all you people on here in Gamcare in a big Hall and say if it wasnt for these guys here who knows what state I would be in or where I would even be now ,,,,,,, xxx

Browniiiiieeeeeeeee you star.

Thanks for the mention. We showed you the right direction, you took the advice and are abstaining brilliantly.

Pleased to walk alongside you on your journey. Beers on you!!

Bavalar x

Hey Brownie we love you!! Well Deano loves you the most. I'll have a cake for you on Saturday. You've done yourself proud! x

Wow look at you brownie, those balloons are flying high and straight by today,

Well done you

Suzanne xxx

Hey Brownster - 100 days gamble free!!! Well done matey you have done amazingly well and we're all very happy and proud of you. It's a goallll, no red cards for you today. Have a great day, high five. Wcid xxxxx

Just read through this diary. You have done amazingly. I am in the mess you described in your opening post, this has given me a lot of motivation and hope that this can be beaten. Congratulations on 100 days, How much better do you feel these days if you don't mind me asking?

Welcome to the Century Club Mr Brown 🙂

Thankyou Thankyou Thankyou......To Answer your Question The Mask.How do much better do I feel. Im not half as stresseded as I was when I was Gambling for me it was a secert only I knew about. I had to keep that secert in my head. Nobody in my work place knew I had spent half the nite chasing my losses on the Roulette wheel, Only me nobody knew I was so much in debit that at time I felt sick. I was sitting thinking this morning December last year I was sat in the dentist waiting room and for me any spare time I had I would be on my phone playing Roullete, Winning losing winning losing. Well on this day I lost 3k you know how it goes only wanted a cheeky spin.Thought to myself spin the wheel win and this will pay for my treatment today. thats how my life was. Go shopping play roulette and try and pay for it. Not sure that makes sense. But anyway I lost 3K I felt the normal feeling I did when I lost its ok I will get home and win that money back no big deal Got called in to see the dentist came out went to pay thats £55 please. I thought you cheeky robbing sods,,,,,,, My point I felt worse about paying that than I did losing 3K. How strange how wrong. Today is Saturday Id normaly have been up playing roullete now, Id sit palying all weekend Every time I played I liked to win £100 easy spin win and away,,,,,,,, But for me it was spin win,, and come back 5mins later and try again Greed....Yea sometimes Id win loads on a weekend and Id be buzzing singing dancing....... But for some reason I always lost it Sunday nite and always felt sick as a dog..At the time i didnt think twice about the hours Id spent gambling and I mean it it was hours.But since December I have free time..... Its been hard bloody hard. But again thanks to you lot im up this morning watching tv not staring at a laptop watching the ball spin. Im going to the pub to watch the Rugby come on England....Yea I used to go out some times. But I was always thinking Ive just lost 1k I need to get back to win that money back...Best thing I every done was lose that 7k last year and find this site... It made me stop and think what am I doing,,,,,,Answer destroying my life. Thanks again guys, xxxxx

Morning Brownie , just a quick pop by to welcome you to the century club , youv'e heard it before but a big well done my friend !!

Enjoy your day Buddy !

Best wishes ......................Alan

Hey brownie fab answer for the mask and anyone else reading it. Shows how you can recover and move on. Have a good day. Wcid xx

Morning Brownieeeeeeee x

You are doing fab and your entry into the century club has been signed, sealed and delivered.

Many congratulations.

Bavalar x