Ive Arrived a broken Man

Thankyou manupnow it's not been Easy but I hope I can do it

Great strength Brownie well done. Keep up the good work. You can do it.

Best wishes

Well Weekend again. This is when it gets hard Id normally be up now playing the table watching tv and thinking have much do I want to win today. I uesd to aim for £100 a session then walk away.But Id normally be back on 10 mins after trying for another £100. Looking back over the last 3 years i did spend to long playing. How my wife never knew phew she must have. When i was losing she must have seen the look on my face my body shaking. The mood swings over the weekend when i was winning I was singing when i was losing I must have been a right s**t to be with.. But all being well them days have gone and so has she.. Sill think about the ball BUT I THINK IT IS GETTING A LITTLE BETTER. I can do this I must do this I need my life back I need to start paying my cards off. I have great respect for people who have given up gambling. Its hard very hard... thanks again guys for everything. This man might just leave this site one day intacted again....... Watch this space whoops.. just reading that back I forget to mention missing the wife lolololololololol

Cheers Dean Id like to meet you one day and have a coffee

Well The weekends nearly over and im still on top. walked pass a bookie today and wanted to go in and play roulllete had to fight with myself not to go in. Im still not finding this easy. I expect many of you are saying come on Brownie139 grow up its not that hard to give up. But for me it has been one struggle. Trying to stop thinking about gambling has been so tough and hard for me. But I am on top now I think watch this space..... Still cant get my debits out of my head so that dont help but get paid Friday so will start paying my debits off. 42K on the roullete wheel how sad am I?????

still beating yourself up a bit i see. Wiser people than me on here for sure. one thing i read so no credit, was dont be ashamed of still feeling an urge, especially early in recovery, but remind yourself why your choosing not to gamble and when you succeed in walking away from it , then thats something to be proud of. well done. keep going.

GRRRRRRRRRRR today i nearly did it again walked past william Hll and went in walked up to machine and inserted £20 and stopped and asked the bloke next to me how to get my money back he showed me he must have thougt I was a right nutter,,,,, Sweating shaking I walked up to cash desk with my little piece of paper. Got my £20 and left shop as fast as I bloody could. I sat down at a bus stop thinking what have I just done,,,, when i finally got to my car I was white Phew who said this was going to get easier. Im finding this hard so hard I got into nite and sat down with my head in my hands, IM not shaking this off at all..

Well done brownie, you won even if shaken, your addiction will simply hate, must have taken some determination

Give yourself a big pat on the back, as well as the one I have just sent you:)))

GRRYYUH indeed, but you won today, keep fighting and keep winning.

Suzanne xxx

Thanks Suzanne

Phew not looking for xmas. to much time off to think about Roullete. So if anybody is up for a drink over xmas let me know. lololol

Hi Brownie , well done on making the choice not to gamble today but why's the triangle unbroken ?.

You had the money on you and the location , exclude yourself from as many shops as you can and get rid of some of the temptation my friend !

best wishes buddy !

Well is it getting easier. I'm not sure one more week has passed. am I'm pleased to say I've not had a spin. Must admit I still think about it 24/7. But I'm fighting the tempertation. Started to get a life back after 3 years of playing roulette when ever I had the chance looking back now my life was a complete mess all I did was play roulette. Roulette roulette.

Well is it getting easier. I'm not sure one more week has passed. am I'm pleased to say I've not had a spin. Must admit I still think about it 24/7. But I'm fighting the tempertation. Started to get a life back after years of playing roulette when ever I had the chance looks no back now my life was a complete mess all I did was play roulette. Roulette roulette.

Well still not had a bet. But on saying that I still can't stop thi king about the roulette wheel.still think about it 24/7. Also like must of you on here I still sit thinking how much debit I'm in and how long it's going to take me to be debit free. I sit Watching tv counting down the days months years iit will take me to be debit free. The little man in my head still pops up sometimes and says go on one spin will not hurt. Go on Go and win £10.. its still so hard but thank god I've not given In. Thanks again to Dean and the rest of you for all your surport over the last month.. have a good day tomorrow bet free I hope xx

Hi brownie just been reading your posts. What a struggle you've been having! Just look how far you have came in these last few days! You have been tempted to gamble you have even sat at the machine but you walked away! That showed courage and great strength! Keep on doing what you are doing listen to people on here they offer good advice they have walked in your shoes. You take care you are on the right path. Wcid xx

Thankyou what can I do xxx
Well xmas bloody day. Single bit fed up and today is going to be a hard. Woke this morning to an empty house. Normally I'd get up go on laptop and play roulette. Trying to get money to pay for the xmas and sometimes it did and sometimes it didn't. Mainly because I kept thinking I can win so much I can retire. Lol. Those thoughts I used to sit thinking if I played roulette 8 hrs a day I could win this much and that much. How bloody soft was I looking back. I'd be looking for a job after a week. Thankfully I have a tidy job good money. So hopefully get this xmas out the way and start new year paying of my debits. All I seem to do now is wish my life away till payday so I can pay of my debits. I think now if I don't buy this or that I can pay my debit of quicker. Where as this time last year it was if that ball lands on zero I could buy this or that. Can't believe looking back now I used to put 1k on stupid number and sit watching a ball spin round and round a stupid wheel. Watching till it stopped. Then realising I wasn't on that number. I'd just lost 1k. But at the time I didn't care I'd try and win it back. Explain that one to me. But if I went to town to buy a new shirt Id see one for say £50 and think how much I'm not paying that. How strange..... anyway if any of that makes sense I will be surprised. Happy xmas everybody. Let's hope for a bet free day.week month year xxxxx P.s any single woman fancy a drink chat over Xmas give me a shout lol. I wish xxx