Ive Arrived a broken Man

Tell them to poke their £24 quid (you still get the whole Gamcare site just have to put up with a few ads occasionally) & get yourself on one of the ones I've seen on the telly...They'll find you someone super messy so you have someone to clean up after 🙂 You could always put yourself on a popular auction site that must remain nameless or Admin will get me...Us 'girls' are a sucker for a man in a pinny & a feather duster!

Did I mention that I know your mate...I dedicated my life to him for nearly 3 decades (grrrr)! Kicking him into touch was the best decision I ever made!

You are doing it! Keep up the good work - ODAAT

Hi Brownie just come on here to check on you as you weren't on chat tonight. Looks like your doing just fine!! I'll post you some of that anti nagging spray Ive got! haha -take care - wcid

]Thankyou wcid xxx I'm doing ok .. how very kind and caring of you to check up on me xxxx

Thankyou wcid xxx I'm doing ok .. how very kind and caring if you to check up on me xxxx

Thankyou G.T

Well this morning I woke up feeling bloody good. For the first time in 3 years I wasnt thinking about roullete on a bank Holiday. I wasnt thinking how much id lost or how much I had won or how much I wanted to win today. As Ive said in the past my life was roullete roullete roullete. Your probally fed up with me saying it lol. But now you know and I will not mention it again till next time!. Id like to say a big thankyou to b.et fred for sending me that email. I was a vip memeber. Lots of good perks. Which suck you in lol.Yea my head is in a good palce a very good place today. Looking back over my past post even I know i was in a bad bad bad place. Everything was against me or so i thought. I know its only been a few weeks but you know what guys I will beat this gambling c**P. I bloody will you know...... Its been a long long road this past few weeks. going to the bank and the woman sat oppisite me thinking i can see your account your a loser mate. 43k in debit at the bookies. What a low life.... Felt s**t leaving that bank. But when ive cleaned my debits im going back to that bank with flowers and chocs for that stuck up w...ker. whoops ment banker. Then to exclude myself from all betting sites wow that took a few days and a few attempts. Felt like id lost a friend a mate. Guess like splitting up from your partner. Shes around but you will never be the same with her/him again. Then going into the bookies with my £20 note. Not once but twice and both times walking out. w*f happen then. I know I was thinking of my diary and saying to you lot.... BROWNIE GAMBLED Thanks for your kind words and help but ive let myself down and you lot as well. So i owe you lot a big hug.. Dean wcid ODAAT Triangle Gt cynical wife and everybody else who has posted on my diary.. Dont get me wrong still think about gambling and watching that wheel spin. But this time last year I played alday long...Losing winning chasing money, Feeling good when I was up then losing it all again feeling sick thinking I was up why didnt I walk away????? starting again looking for credit cards. Phew think what this must do to your health. heart beating so fast panicking. Then going out with the lads on Boxing day. Knowing thay all bet on the footie would i survive? Well I did... Then we had xmas Lots of free time on my hands I spent ages cleaning polishing scrubbing Cleaning again . Queen Elizabeth II could come round and eat her dinner off the floor if she wanted to. But dont bring Phill. Because im looking for a new lady in my life. .. Anyway so here I am 5hrs to go before bed and im bet free this xmas Get in.. Its been hard bloody hard but im on the right road. The road to a bet free life. Free time on my hands to travel see the world Margate. Hull Dover Cardiff, I know many of you will be saying to yourselves Brownie lad its to early to open the champagne youve got a long long way to go lad.... But Im feeling good.... So again I liked to thankyou all for all your help and support xx I hope all that makes some sense it does to me lol. I look forward to seeing all my friends in the chat room later. If I could give just one word of advice to anybody trying to give up gambling come on this site read the diarys and go in the chatroom at 8 bells ........It helps it really does.....

Cheers Dean

Most of it is down to you mate.. catch you later in chat.

Also what can I do where's me anti nagging spray ????

Hey brownie I don't think you need that nagging spray now that nagging voice is gonna be replaced with sweet sounds of success mate xx wcid

w*f?!? How have you had time to miss me, I only posted to you yesterday...You know I'm a married gal right 😉

Queen Elizabeth II, you are sh177ing me, where are your standards Brownie lad? I was about to cross the line, no scratch that, long jump across the line, with a Little Britain reference then but I won't...Maybe worth getting down the local WI & see if anyone there needs a bit of cleaning, you never know who you might find in the market for a toy boy 🙂

What a fantastic post (#92), good to see you keeping the Admin on their toes while you're @ it 🙂

Mr Gamble is like our 1st love, even when they've long gone they're always with us...But with every failed relationship, we can only learn from our mistakes not go back & undo them!

When you've conquered those dizzy heights, you may wanna stick Cornwall on the travel agenda...It rocks! Fizz open that champagne mate...You've earned it!

You can do this, you are doing it - ODAAT

Thanks ODAAT That just mde me laugh. Cornwall here I come and yes lets open the fizzzzzz. good shout wi might give it a go later, ummm Nora batty stockings springs to mind, etc etc anyway its not that kind site so will stop that conversation now. Thanks again for you support, xxxx

Yessssssssssss one half of the xmas period over one to go. After saying all that good stuff yesterday woke up last nite at 2.30 thinking about roullette. 3weeks ago I would have got up and had a spin and that would have set my mood for the day. If I won id be on cloud nine if I lost id been a right moody sod in work., But today im going into work as me for the first time in 3 years, Im not going to be sitting driving to work playing roullette, Sweating thinking if i lose that signal now how will I know if ive won or not. Today im going to work grrrr but ive not had a spin.So im in a good place Only one day in then off for 5 days again, so thats not to bad, Might clean the house. But im deffo not having a spin. mIght even take my self of to the local disco and wait for that last dance. lolololololol Take care all ans catch you later.....

Brownie Brownie where for art thou Brownie! - wcid x

Well 4 weeks without a bet. Phew how bloody tough has it been...

Very I've never had so many emotions and feelings in 4 weeks. But I'm still here. Ok I maybe 43k in debit. But I have a life again. I wake up. Get up and don't jump straight onto to a bookies site to play roulette. I'm calmer happier and not so stressed. Don't get me wrong I still think about gambling. But not as much as I did when I first stopped. I've still got along way to go. But do you know what I'm going to do it. Honest I am. that little chap is going to pack his little bag and do one. I've meet some desent people on here who have pulled and helped me though this period of my life. You know who you are....and I'd like to say a BIG BIG thankyou.... xxx

Glad to hear you're managing and things are improving.

BW,

CW

Shhhh don't say it to loud I might relapse lol

Thankyou for your support xx

Please don't. Not after all this effort. Just stay safe.

CW

Well today I feel on top of my gambling problem. I've not thought about it once (yea I know all you bright sparks are thinking well you must have because your typing this). But it's been the first time in 3 years I've felt in control of my life. I'm not stressed because I'm chasing money. It feels good I feel free. I've been sleeping at nite and not waking thinking I need to spin the ball. I go to work and think about work. I'm not thinking what I could have brought with the money or how much I need to win later to get back level again. It's good really good losing that 8k 4 weeks and one day ago deffo gave me that wake up call I needed. I appreciate now what I have in life. Ok I might have lost a partner but she was a c**P cook and didn't clean like me lol. Read my diary it will make sense. Good luck all. Xx