Hi Brownie.
Really pleased to read that you are still going strong in you abstinance and things are going well for you.
There is no better feeling than not having that gut wrenching stressfull feeling in your stomach, when you have spent hours, gambling away all your hard earned salary!
Take care.
Feb.
Great post Brownie , glad your feeling so positive my friend . Look at it as 40k spent on therapy to get you to where you are now ! Take care buddy , be looking for that sandwich board!
Before I start todays post id like to thank Dean8008
Well this morning I woke up feeling really good. Bet free yesterday and honestly thought I was on top of things. Anyway so im eating my breakie and thought I would check my e-mails. What a mistake that turned out to be.I had a e-mail from ladbrooks casino. All of a sudden I wanted to have a spin from nowhere that little bloke in my head who had been missing for a couple of days raised his head from the dead, Go on Brownie have a spin go on one spin will not hurt go onnnnnn do it do it do it. I thought I had excluded myself from this site. But I hadnt and guess what I logged on to the site easy as that. Phew I also had credit £105 id forgotten all about this site And the only thing I could think was have a bet Brownie lad..... Not £105 that could buy you something nice just go on son have a bet. Dont be shy Brownie have a bet and if you lose you have funds in your bank accout to win the money back. I started to shake I could feel butterflies in my stomach. I felt all nervous again . Id not had that feeeling for 4 weeks plus. I know this sounds stupid but i enjoyed that feeling again, I was buzzing. Is that normal. Phew the man was going full speed now Brownie have a bet go on. I was in a bad place. I logged off. Knowing I was going to log back on in 10 mins. That probably sounds stupid but honest deep down inside I knew I would log back on again. Id enjoyed that feeling and missed it. I went out side and sat in the garden in the snow what was I doing what was I doing. But that little bloke in my head had full control of me.Go on Brownie go back have a bet you could start winning some money back even if its just £10. You know whats coming after 10 mins I went back inside and logged back on I went on to roullete and stared at the screen. The croupier said Hi Brownie long time since weve seen you. Phewwwwww what was I doing I could see a long run of reds and thought right place £5 on black. The man in my head was shouting go on you know black is coming do it. Phew I had that feeling back that i had been missing for so long. I stopped myself before I placed the bet. closed the lid of my laptop I was shaking I looked in the mirror I was white as a sheet. what was Ii doing I needed to talk to somebody. I went onto facebook and good old Dean8008 was online i told him what I was doing and that bloke came up trumps again he talked to me he helped me. I got up and went for a 3 hour walk in the cold and snow but I had beat the bloke in my head JUST. ive now been in 20mins ive witdrawn the money and excluded myself from that site. Phew does the feeling ever go does that bloke ever leave you???????? Yesterday I was on cloud nine thought Id never bet again today I was so close so so so so close to placing that bet.. But do you know what that feeling felt good honest to god I had missed it. Your probaly saying behave Brown. But it did. I have missed Gambling I honestly have is that wrong to say that? if it hadnt been for Dean Id have caved in. Never meet this bloke but he is a gem a F**g Diamond so cheers Dean xx
Sorry to hear that you had to go through that but well done for not giving in.
Can you prevent future repetition? Unsubscribe to these emails, can you block the address? I sorted out my husband's SE by snail mail, writing letters that he signed. The letters quoted his name, postal and email addresses, dated of birth, passwords, account number, card number, whatever would identify him. The letters asked for permanent SE and no future contact, so far it's worked and once in the post box, there's no return to that website.
Hope this helps.
CW
Hi Brownie , you missed the buzz buddy and not all the s*h*i*t that goes with it , why wouldn't you miss the buzz ? , it gave us pleasure for so many years , I've made no secret of the fact that if I could gamble and control it I would I enjoyed it like you but I can't I'm a compulsive gambler that accepts I can't go to that place again , it just aint gonna happen my friend !.
Superb result buddy , you did what you had to do came on and spoke to dean and he talked you down , good man Dean !
Proof that the forum works guy's , it's done its job today !
Be proud of yourself mate , coz we all know how you'd have felt tommorow !!
Brownie I'm so proud of you right now!! You beat that nagging little man in your head! You are still gamble free my friend you have done yourself proud. Dean you are a star always there to support when needed, top blokes xx
Brownie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
V v v v v v v proud of you. You completely made the right decision and Dean is a star.
You make us all giggle and have a laugh and.lighten the chat.up when you arrive.
Another day ticked off my friend.
Best wishes
Thankyou Thankyou Thankyou guys for them kind words You are all Gems cheers guys
Hi brownie just caught up on this as ive been out for the day enjoy the benifits of not giving into that inevitable urge you've closed that door and if another one opens do the same thing reach out for help well done you and Dean
Yeah that was a test and a half brownie. And well done as well Deano. Beating the enemy! Keep the faith.
Great result Brownie. Win, lose or draw you are UP today!
What if you'd donked off that £105? If you lost you might have deposited more. If you won - however much you won - you'd be back on tomorrow and eventually it'd be gone.
Take that ton and buy yourself something nice mate, it's cash you didn't expect to have - maybe commemorate the day you beat this horrible addiction.
A HUGE well done Brownie.
In gambling terms, £105. is nothing to us but in real monetary terms, we can buy so much with it that will last much longer than our usual ten minutes in the gambling world.
Hope you treat youself to something nice - you deserve it!
Take care.
Feb.
Afternoon All
Not sure how to start todays entry But Im going to keep it short and sweet ........
Ive had an email from Gamcare saying the way I talk To people and staff on here is not acceptable.
ID LIKE TO SAY A BIG BIG BIG BIG BIG SORRY TO ANYBODY IVE UPSET OR OFFENDED ON THIS SITE. I SAY THINGS WHICH MAY FIND FUNNY AND ITS COME TO LIGHT SOME PEOPLE DONT APPRECIATE MY SENSE OF HUMOUR. i apologies from the bottom of my heart. SORRY GUYS.
Hi Brownie , Humour's a bit like beauty buddy , in the eye of the beholder !
Take care fella !
Alan
Thats why its not funny mate im ugly lol Once again thanks for your post
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