Last gamble was 5mins ago that is it!!!

Day 1 up and off to work , just had a coffee and checked last nights sports results, still feel a real urge as I believe I could have made some money last night but I know this is the start of my life and will not give in this time. 3rd time lucky this is my last attempt.

Fresh start today cannot get any lower . Huge relapse sick of feeling so low , I will get through this for my daughter

Hello tomh admiting is the first step mate so well done!! I know its hard but u have to resist the urge. Give gamcare a call their helpline is v good have a chin wag bit of a cry it is all good they will give u advice and support. Also find a ga meeting in ur area they are brilliant and u will get so much support. I am on day 15 and yes im up and down like a yo yo but like u spent 3 years of my life living and breathing fobt finally starting to see things clearly!! Good luck mate!!

Hi tom.

You have made the first step by coming here again. You realise you have a serious problem and know you have to tackle it. It's an awful feeling mate. We have all been there. Give gamcare a ring. They are great. Use this diary to write in every day. Read other diaries. Most are very inspirational. You say you WILL get through this for your daughter. You sound determined. Please keep in touch mate. This place is great with some great people on here.

Take care mate and remember "we will not win because we will not stop"

Thank you for the comments we are all in this together and I get the feeling there are some great people on here who motivate others to succeed in this fight I am looking forward to seeing that no2 telling me when my last bet was growing and growing until it gets to 365! I will have a nice few beers that day!

Hi Tomh, and welcome to the forum buddy . You can do this my friend , you just have to want to enough ! You said in your first post that you " Want to concentrate on your daughter and your wife " but in order to make them feel the benefit of what your doing , you need to focus on yourself at the moment , they will benefit for the rest of there live's , just as you will in time from what your doing now but stay safe and focus on one day at a time , put all the blocks and barriers you can in front of you and gambling , make sure the time, money , location triangle remains broken at all time ( remove one and you cannot gamble ) it sounds easy but it works .

I look forward to hearing some more of your story soon !

Best wishes for now and welcome to recovery !

Alan

Thanks Alan the support since joining the site is really overwhelming I wish i had discussed more on here a while back , I joined the site a couple of years back but did not interact and maximise the benefits , I am now fully committed and enjoy talking and interacting with people who have and continue to go through this terrible addiction, I will always be available to chat whenever anyone wants support

Tom

I know your only two days in but sound very up for this fight! Stay close to this site. I'm not long into this either (read my diary) I know your confident but remember this habit can and will come to try and bite us at any point! We must be ready for it! Stay strong my friend! I'm pleased it's working for you at the moment

Day 2 , its been a busy day out and about at work no thoughts of gambling at all

Reading the forums throughout my spare time is my new thing which then helps me not gamble and also reminds me of the low points in which I found myself a few moths back . I am looking forward to day 3 and the challenge which I have ahead of me it's going to a long hard slog but I am going to tackle this head on and do this once for all , I know I willl never be cured and there could be a relapse at anytime which makes me remain vigilant and determined

Thank you for reading my diary , apologies if I update too much but this keeps me busy:-)

Don't apologise! Post as much as you can! I do! This place is saving me! Along with my missus and daughter of course!

I agree mate , I joined 2 yrs ago but mainly read stories and the forums didn't really post any myself but the past couple of days I have realised just venting your feelings and releasing those thoughts really help and can also help others so I will likely be posting a few times a day

Hi tomh if you look at my diary mate i have had days were i have gone right off the deep ends take it a day at a time and mate u have to be selfish at the moment. A few people have mentioned ramble rather than gamble and a diary is a really great way to do this!! Take care mate slow and steady wins the race!!

Day 3 , getting there slowly . This has now been the longest I have not gambled in nearly 5 years and it feels great! I really do feel as though the weight has been lifted from my shoulders and I can concentrate on normal life again, I'm even going into work early today to make a start on a few things I need to do!

Hopefully today will be a successful day for everybody keep up the good work and let's keep focused

Thanks for reading my day 3 morning natter il no doubt be back later!

Well done Tom can sense the positivity in you posts! It will get hard at some point and you must be ready for it! Don't get complacent! It can strike at any time and leave you unaware! You must keep your guard up at all times! Are you having councilling or anything aswell? I had my second session last night went very well !