Liam's Recovery

Hi Liam,

Well done you on 16 days of winning,

Stay positive and keep going.

Suzanne xx

Thanks Suzanne 🙂

Day 17.

The days are flying over now, and the urges are slowly dwindling away. To be honest, in the past few days i've rarely thought of placing a bet. Seen a few big winning football bets on Facebook yesterday, got tempted with the 'i'll only place a £2 accy'. Yeah right we all know how that ends. Saw sense within a few minutes and dismissed that idea.

To anyone just starting their recovery, time is an excellent healer, i can only emphasise that. Every day of abstaining is a building block in rebuilding your life. And although you will always have have the scars of being a compulsive gambler, they will fade in time and sometimes even you yourself will forget that they are there.

Not much planned for tonight, finish work at 6 then off all weekend Wahoo!, the girlfreind is cooking a nice meal 2n, then probably have a few beers and watch a few films.

All the best

Liam

Hi liam thank you for your post.

I remember speaking to you before on here and it seems you went back to gambling but the fact you're back is the main focus point.

You haven't given up giving up so well done mate and hopefully this is the last time you try.

Telling your family is important and it helped me I just hope it can help you too. It's one thing letting yourself down but a different story letting down your family.

Keep strong Bruv

Mba

Thanks for the post on my diary Liam 🙂 very nice of you.

Well done on all the days you have clocked up being gamble free, im only on day 5 but hey, isn't life so much better without all that unneccesary stress? Lifes for living and thats what im planning on doing with mine now.

Continue the great work and i'll be following your progress.

All the best.

Hi folks, thanks for your nice replies.

Day 19

Been quite depressed the past two days with the whole money situation so haven't really had the energy to post.

But I guess the important thing is no bets for 19 days :). Only five days to pay day, it will be almost a strange feeling having money again...

Thanks for reading.

All the best

Liam

Hi guys,

Day 20, writing this from work. Not a great deal to say really. I'm at the doctors tonight to try and find out why I make my life an emotional train wreck. Hope everyone's doing well.

Have a great bet free week guys.

All the best

Liam

Day 21,

Doctors went ok last night have to go to councilling every other week. Pay day is getting closer but still no gambling.

I can't think of anything witty or insightful to write lately with feeling so down, so this will suffice :

f**** Gambling.

All the best

Liam

Hi Liam,

Sounds like your on the right path mate.

Have you got any barriers in place for payday tomorrow?

Mark

23 days today Liam,.well done.

Stay strong and keep winning.

Suzanne xx

Day 24,

Morning guys and thank you for your continued support, it's always much appreciated.

Today is pay day, and to go back to your question Sonic, my dad has my bank cards and gives me a weekly allowance until I can trust myself again. Aside from this, my girlfreind has access to my online banking so she can view all my transactions.

Its so depressing that just under half my pay goes on debt repayments. A few bad thoughts crept in today but were quickly dismissed. Gambling is not the way forward only backwards, I feel like that is starting to sink but I will not let my guard down again.

Thankfully I get my quarterly bonus from work on today's wage slip so I plan to buy myself a small present. The rest will be going on my girlfriends birthday in March. I've put her through so much the past year so she deserves a nice treat.

Although I'm still 9k in debt and still suffer from depression sometimes, I feel like I can start to see a small glimmer of light in my future.

Stay Strong Guys

All the best

Liam

Hi Liam,

Well done on 24 days,

You are sooo right the only way forwards is to keep abstaining and maintaining,

Have a good safe day.

Suzanne xx

Good Morning Folks,

Day 26,

Sorry i haven't posted in a few days. Had a pretty busy weekend, went to see my younger sisters pantomime peformance 'The King and I' on Friday, i'm not a fan of the theatre but i was really suprised that i actually enjoyed the show, amazing what new hobbies you can find when your minded isn't clouded full of the ill thoughts and compulsion to gamble.

It has also being strange having money for the first time in a month. Took the girlfreind shopping yesterday, brought some new clothes and stuff, (probably the first things ive bought myself in the at least 6 month. I'm not gunna lie to you guys and say the urges are gone, because they are still there some days. Especially when there are big live sports events, like football on a Saturday on.

But for now i stand strong and keep the urges at bay knowing they will subside eventually.

Hope your all having a nice weekend.

All the best

Liam

Hey guys, thanks NT for you kind words and advice.

Day 27.

Not much to say today, feeling OK for now. I'm on the dreaded 12-8 shift at work, keeps me out if trouble at least I guess.

Have a great gamble-free week all.

All the best

Liam

4 weeks tomorrow Liam, well done keep going and stay strong.

Suzanne xx

Day 27,

Thanks Suzanne,

What a crappy day. I'm feeling so down. I got stuck on a call after work, ended up freezing in the bus shelter huddling in the corner trying to keep warm for 30 minutes until the next bus came.

If I hadn't gambled I could of passed my driving test 5 times over if not more. But no here's me 23 year old cuddling a bus stop trying to stay warm. If this isn't a wake up call I don't know what is.

I'm so sick of my life but I don't have anyone to blame.

Anyway finally get to the bus station and my second bus home ( I get 2 busses to and from work) isn't due in until another 15 mins. So I walked past 2 bookies, hesitate for a second, after resisting the urges I go into a bar and neck a pint of lager.

Is this progress or not? Who knows... I'm not a heavy drinker and only drink socially on the weekends but it seemed the lesser of evils tonight.

But I guess the important thing is, I'm not gambling. This is the only thing I cling on to recently, abstinence and my beautiful girlfreind and supportive family keep me going.

Sorry for rambling, but today has being a bad day for me. Tommorow can only get better.

All the best

Liam