my betting diary

High wp. I understand you are frustrated with me. I know you have tried to help me as have many others on the site. I have been doing the same thing at GA and I'm sure many people there are frustrated with me too. but remember the saying written up at meetings

" I am here to change myself and no-one else"

I will find my own path eventually. I do understand that you don't want me to go through more pain for the next few years and for that I am very grateful..

I'm sorry you feel I'ma helpless case. Perhaps you are right and I am beyond help right now. I have tried to stop, just not hard enough. Tomorrow starts another week and again I have a choice.. problem is I make bad choices.. Thanks for all your support so far. I really do wish you well in your recovery.

Hi wp,hope all is going well,interesting to read that your from the Edinburgh area,lovely city i think,been a few times,used to be up in Scotland a lot when i was a lad visiting family...,do you miss it?.

Seano.

Hi wp.

Just claiming post 300 on your diary! You could publish this mate soon mate and make yourself a few quid.

I'm glad they are pulling them flats down in Cruddas Park. I lived in one of them for 9 months. No place for a young 18 year old student! Great place Newcastle though. Just one too many arcades for my liking when i was up there!

Keep up the good work wp. You are looking strong.

thanks seano/curly. . . Curly you canny be any further away from the truth my friend. . These past 2 days i have been at my weakest since joining these diaries. . .I have managed to stay bet free but the urges have been huge. . . I put it down to my ex now wanting me to get a solicitor to arrange visits due to fact that i cause too much upset both to her and kids and the fact that i have had spare time at work . . . I dont want to cause any upset. Its just if my opinion is different then she not happy and ends in stupid t*t for tat bickering. . .she knows i am potless yet will now not speak to me unless i get legal advice. . . On top of this i have had a letter from mortgage company saying as i no longer live in property i am breaching the contract so they now want to put it up another 2 %. . As my ex was nt workin at time due to bein pregnant the house was mortgaged in my name with my ex on the deeds. . The mortgage i pay just now is nearly 4 figures. . Where the hell am i going to find another 2 %. . Its being looked into tho so hopefully they bound to see that in no way am i making any sort of profit but its giving me major stress. . I just feel my batteries are running low at present due to fact i aint seeing kids. . What a difference a week makes. . Last week i had major spring in my step but by not seeing them really gets me down. . Today i visited the library to find a kiddies play group singing nursery songs which i can relate to my bairn and i had to walk out as i got myself upset. . .sorry for the negative post and not being supportive enough to others but my strength is drained and my heart lies elsewhere at minute. . If she were to read this she would say that i am playing to the galleries and wanting everybody to feel sorry for me. .The main thing is i have not gambled under this strain. . I am very sad just now so in answer to your question seano yes i miss being back "home" in edinburgh and if this keeps up who knows may end up transferring back tho i want to be there for my bairn.she will need me one day. . Sorry for the long and miserable post but when i gather enough strength i will become supportive again :,-(

Keep your chin up wp.

There are plenty of people here for you mate whether to help you with your gambling or personal issues. I'd gladly work for you for free mate as your solicitor but unfortunately family law is not my field of expertise.

Like you say it is good that you have not gambled despite such a troubled week.

I hope things work out for you wp. You are one of the good guys.

Hi post,

Sorry to hear that you are not feeling too great today and don't worry you are NOT playing to the galleries, you are getting help and advice from like minded people!!!

Adversity always brings out people's inner strength and you've proven in the past that you can get through adversity. But whatever you do don't try and gamble your way out of the problem (I probably didn't need to remind you of that).

Stay Strong mate

Steve

Here is a hug for you ((((Winning))))

There is always a solution to every problem Winning and I'm sure this will work itself out. Give it a few days...try to clear your head so you can think straight.

Can't give any advice really on the legal stuff but could you go to citizens advice or the like to get some free legal advice?

Have you ever used netline on here Winning? You could talk it through one to one. I also know of an agency called parentline who you could perhaps contact.....freefone 0808 800 2222...or go onto their website...just google parentline. They deal with all sorts of family issues and offer amazing support.

Whatever is going on Winning we know for sure that if you were still gambling it would be a million times worse.

You can get through this Winning.

Jas xx

Winning Post,

You have given support and strength to so many on here, myself included, that you know that you can expect to see that support given back to you when you need it.

You don't have to apologise for anything you post. You can be as "miserable" as you want if that's how you feel as just expressing these feelings helps. I know your situation at the moment isn't great, but you can get through it.

The main thing is that you haven't resorted to gambling during this difficult time, and for that, I admire you plenty.

Stay strong.

thanks for your continued support guys. . Ave left it for few days and got texts last night asking if i been trying to get in touch via withheld number. . Totally puzzled me as to why i would be getting in touch when been told to go through solicitors. . .Anyways still bet free and happy at that. Simple things in life to test our evil habit. . Today i wont bet tomorrow i wont bet. We can do this folks.

It's great to hear you sounding more positive again!

Hey wp,sorry to read how hard things are for you at the moment,i can totally understand the turmoil your in,and that you have some very strong urges to gamble,well done in fighting them off!!!,don't know what to say that would help mate,other than just get your own things sorted out and concern yourself with the rest of us as and when you feel more settled....,you will get there.

Seano.

Post, so sorry to hear of your recent woes mate. I am sorry I have been tied up with my own problems and have not been reading so many diaries these last few days.

I have told you before that you are an inspiration to me and you have reaffirmed my believe in that fact by not returning to your gambling ways in the face of extreme provocation.

I think many of us are feeling down for a number of reasons--which I have put into my diary.

If you get the chance to read it mate I would appreciate your thoughts as always.

D.L.T.B.G.Y.D.

Stumper

Still bet free and happy about that. That takes strength of character winning 🙂

Keep going...Jas x

Hi Post, just a quick thanks for the post on my diary-glad to see you were not down for long.

Have a great gamble free weekend.

Stumper

Just a quick hi and thanks for your support.

You have come a long way and thats something to be proud of.

Keep up the good work mate .

Gamble free...way to be!