my betting diary

Hope you have a good weekend with your mum and dad mate.

Stumper

wp,i hope you have a nice weekend with your Parents....,and i sincerely hope they get to see the bairn.Stay strong wp.

Seano.

thankfully my parents got to see the kids at the weekend on sat afternoon for a few hours. Not much but they were happy enough.they also happenede to mention the very basic conditions i live in and would be happy to find a suitable deposit for place elsewhere. I just could nt accept as im due them absolute fortunes as it is. . today i am very angry and upset. .i found out this morning that my ex has been to hospital with the bairn who has sufferered with kidney problems since birth. .Anyways a temperature developed and she decided to take her to hospital as you never know with kids. . I just happened to mention that the least she could ve done was ring me even if it was middle of the night and then the verbals started again. For gods sake i was only showing my concerns yet am just a stupid school laddie whos stamping his feet because i have nt got my own way.maybe i have spat my dummy out pram but feel entitled to it..i happened to mention the fact that one day at a time we were starting to put things right untill this brick wall arrived yet again and now am back to square one. .i am so angry yet frustrated. Maybe there is just no future. stressful day no.2. . .the post arrived this mornin and the mortgage company are now charging that extra 2 % to take it well over 4 figures now so when i mentioned that you can imagine the reaction. . What has this got to do with gambling. . Well al tell you i was so so close to hitting bookies big time today even at this time am still tempted but i wont. .i am very upset. . Today i did not bet albeit very close . . Keep up the fight folks we can do this. .

Hello Winning,

Well done for resisting the urge to gamble. All these things come to try us. We don't need gambling anymore.

Jas x

Hi Post,

What a rollercoaster of a day you've had mate eh??!! I don't need to tell you this because i'm sure you already know, but hitting the bookies will be a sure fire way to make things a million times harder. You have done so well mate, don't give up on it now. I don't understand why your ex is being so nasty with you, sounds like you only wanted to know if ya bairn was ok. If you ask me there should be an island somewhere for all ex's to go away and live on, but maybe that's just me!!

Stay Strong

Steve

Hi Post.

Sorry you are down at the minute mate--I think it has something to do with the full moon!!!

I feel that you are at a stage in your recovery when if certain things happen then molehills can easily be turned into mountains.

You seem to have reached a point where you feel that gambling is almost nothing to do with your life anymore yet deep down it still is.

When I went to Cheltenham I was being honest with myself. In my life I have loved to go there so why should I not go just because I do not want to be a compulsive gambler now. I have not had any urge to bet since but will do at the races again if I go and want to.

Why I am saying this is perhaps you have now reached a crossroads--you resisted the bookies this time which is fantastic but perhaps something inside is dragging you slowly back. If you feel like that why not go to a point to point meeting like we have mentioned before and walk the track. Being there may help you see that you like the feeling of the races without the need to gamble on everything.

Recovery as has been said on some posts lately is part of your life but should not be an all consuming part which takes over every other aspect of your life. as I have said before this is not a rehearsal - we do not get another go--enjoy life.

Sounds like you have got some super loving parents mate. I lost mine about twenty years ago. My mum used to ring me every evening and start the call with the same localised saying that we have around these parts--'Hello me duck' - used to drive me mad but I think about it often but sadly it has gone forever.

Make the most of everything mate---you deserve it.

Take care

All the best

Stumper

ps I CANNOT WIN BECAUSE I CANNOT STOP

Hi wp

First of all m8 well done on resisting those urges.

Winning i totally know what you mean by showing concern and it getting turned around.On saturday i had my 8 year old son. I noticed his trainers were a bit tatty and my missus was out shopping so i asked her to pick him a pair up.

When i took him back to his mother (my ex)She accused me of making out she was neglecting him.I was only trying to help out. I wouldnt mind but lots of times she has asked me to pick him some new stuff up.This time i done it without her asking me so im an ar**hole.Who needs em kid.All the best Jeff.

stumper would just love to go to point meeting and walk track. . Trouble is its £15 per car these days and am starting to be a tight a r s e and realising money for what its worth mate. . Sorry if i reminded you of your parents but your right they are precious to me and at this stage of my life i should be looking after them not other way round. Least they proud of my abstaining. . .Jeff thanks for the post you ve brought a much needed smile to my face. .bairn still not well and ex still not interested in talkin to me. . Councillor meeting today and she s well over that full mooooon wi my progress stumper mate. Anyways ave tapped my mate till friday (another pay day) so off t watch man u game now. Today i did not bet tomorrow i wont bet. . Keep up the fight folks we can do this. .

Post-No need to apologise about reminding me about my parents mate--loved em both to bits and miss them dearly. i was adopted as a baby and they were great. As a parent you never stop worrying and caring for your children whatever age they are.

Just wanted you to know that however you are feeling now it is still better than when you were losing heavily gambling.

Like Jeff and others mate I will always try to offer support to you--you only need to ask if you feel there is anything I can do to help you mate.

Best wishes

Stumper

Hi wp,thanks for taking the time to post on my diary at a time when things are tough for you as well,you have plenty to deal with right now as i do albeit in different ways,it's scary how after a good length of time not gambling suddenly we have both reacted to difficulties with gambling thoughts......,at least so far we have stayed strong and not given in,lets hope we can continue in the same way.

Best thoughts,

Seano.

Hi Post,

Hope you enjoyed the Man U game. Your clocking up those days now mate, well done!! Stay strong with the ex situation mate, I can remember you posting during a difficult few days some weeks back and you came through it and things got a bit easier.

Stay Strong

Steve

thanks for your continued support guys,its much appreciated under the present circumstances...tried to get in touch this morning but she still having none of it,now its taken a deeper detour and am being held to things i said in heat of moment..every day without contact drains my batteries :-(...back to work today on afternoons now for rest of week so nae chance now of seeing them..onwards and upwards then today i wont bet tomorrow i wont bet...we can do this folks...

Hi wp,

I can't imagine how much all this stress is affecting you at a time when you could really do without it. However, your strength in abstinence and resistance is very impressive indeed. An inspiration to me personally.

Things will get better mate. Just keep on being strong and as positive as you can.

Whats the difference between your ex and a polo mint?

People like polos!!!!

dltbgyd--you know what I mean mate.

Stumper

Hi wp

Do you know kid.Its probably Draining you ex too.Whilst you have the kids its giving her a break.She sounds just like my ex pig headed.Are you sure they are not the same person lol.Remember even with kids Absence makes the heart grow fonder.All the best Jeff.