my betting diary

another day another dollar as the saying goes. . Another pay day passes today. . Yes skint again with all my outgoings but slowly but surely im starting to have wee bit more (not much)to spend every month albeit working my B o l l o x off. . Had look at my DMP and its depressing reading. . Should finish 2022 that brings me right back down to earth (if i ever was on a high). . . On the relationship front told ex that there are vacancies in edinburgh(which there are) and seriously considering move as cant go on like this. . Low and behold got 20 questions and she seems to have backed off a little even though dont think i could ever walk away from my bairn. .she has hopefully finally shaken off her temperature for now and is slowly starting to be herself again though these are only reports as ive been on lates all week. . Hopefully pop round tomorrow before i start work. .my phones battery is starting to play up big time now prob due to all my posting lol but am due a new contract soon so hopefully maybe get laptop and phone deal from somewhere. Any ideas if you can do this ??. . A big holiday weekend of football and racing awaits though i can honestly say i hardly know who s playing or what meetings on far less have the urge to bet on it so that has to be big plus point in itself. . Today i did not bet tomorrow i wont bet. We can do this folks.

HI wp,thanks for the reply on my diary,pleased to read that the bairn is getting better,one less thing for you to worry about.Regarding the DMP,IVA,Bankrupt choices,like you say it's totally a personal thing,we both know the set up with a DMP,in my case if i look on "justabank" it tells me i will be debt free in 12 years,my cousin tells me that's a load of tosh because the creditors are still adding interest and charges,IVA is legally binding for 5 years and 58% of your debts can be written off,depending on your circumstances a DRO is possible if you have debts of 15k or less(you are actually going bankrupt with a DRO,only difference is no court appearance,fee of only £90 and it's done via CAB and all online!!,i'm £5k over the limit so not an option for me).If you go on "uswitch.com" they have a wizard that will tell you the best phone and laptop deal for you....,hope all that helps :).Have a good weekend.

Seano.

Hi wp thanks for posting on my diary - all advice is gratefully accepted and helps in so many ways. Hope you have a good Easter. carmelly

Hey wp just wanna say have hoping your having a great easter.

Stay Strong mate!

Gamble free.

Viggo.

Hey wp,

The last line of your post is pretty much the only way to look at this urge we have for gambling, or at least that I have. All the landmarks in the world mean nothing if I can't say that I haven't gambled today, and I won't gamble tomorrow.

I may have to steal that one for one of my future posts ;)!

All the best,

Ryan

Hi wp

Read my last post please.Because you are one of these people that i have every bit of faith in to come through this addiction and end up.Being happier than you ever were gambling.Debts and family life are not great for you at the moment and still you are not drawn into gambling.Your turn will come m8.You have to earn it but you are doing that.I like all the work you along with Stumper and Seano still manage to put in.Even when sometimes its a struggle for yourselves.All the best Jeff.

Happy Easter Winning,

Try not to look too far ahead with the debt thing....that's one thing i have learnt. I have loads of years of paying off my gambling debt. As each month passes I class it as another brick towards rebuilding my future financial security. It helps me to think positive about my situation.

Jas x

Hi wp thanks for post. I have read your recent posts and so glad your bairn is fine again. Well done to you to. It is hard and at least we can find a place to come to chat. All the best Tina

Hi wp

I see you are still dealing with loads apart from simply not gambling. I admire you so much for trying to be a good dad and deal with your ex at the same time. How you still stay focussed is beyond me.

You are doing great

Eyes X

thanks for the continued support folks. . As ive said before it gives me a great buzz and confidence boost to see people taking the time out to post on my diary. . . I woke up this morning so angry and disappointed with myself having gambled then i realised it was a horrible dream and i was still in abstinence. .dont know why this happened maybe just the brain playin tricks on me again but i was so so disappointed with myself until i realised. . That can be taken as a positive though in that if i do lapse i will be so angry and hurt. . The fight goes on. .i am now off till next sunday so its going to be tough week keeping busy but im starting off the week with hopefully a trip out somewhere with ex and kids and then ive got a ticket to the match tomorrow. . It should be a good night tomorrow with bit of party atmosphere around toon.went out today and bought tickets for wizard of oz on friday at theatre with ex and kids. I must be mad after week ive had with ex but although i dont have much spare cash spoiling the kids is what its all about in my opinion. Our quarrels can be saved for a later day. . Today i did not bet tomorrow i wont bet. . We can do this folks. .

The thing that always gives me a buzz is that you are always prepared to post on many other diaries--despite doing so from a mobile phone--and you are always positive in everything you say--despite your own frustrations in your personal life.

Keep up the great work mate and lets hope that your next dream will be about something much nicer than gambling.

All the best

Stumper

Hi wp,sounds like you have a busy week planned,reading between the lines wp it's clear that despite all the problems you and the "ex" have you do actually still love each other......,have you ever told her that?,i know you have hinted to her that financially you would all be better off together,maybe this week you will have the chance to try to rebuild your relationship with her......,that could only be good for the bairn and the stepchild too.have you ever considered going to relate together?.Anyway a little food for thought wp.......,have a great week,i know you will not gamble.

Seano.

Hi wp

Thanks for your post. FIrst thing I thought when I read it was...ahhaa..that's who told me about the brolly bashing angel, lol

You see, old age is kicking is in Charly's world and I cannot remember as many things as I would like to.

Glad to hear you are going strong. Keep going my friend.

God Bless

Charly/Sabine

Hi wp

Ive said before we have so much in common,golf ,terrible exs and the same gambling vices and now we both have an extra week off lol.Enjoy the match kid.All the best Jeff.

monday at newcastle match. . Good night oot. . Tuesday rough as a badgers a..e took step kid and friend to shoppin centre drop off pick up. .Today been round the house gardening whilst the ex at work (bairn wi gran all day though) never mind its routine now so cant complain.step kid happy enough tho as can stay in house .plenty time with them all so thats good. One day at a time on that front though. .Managed brief chat wi ex. Not easy wi kids to have adult conversation. . Basically i knew my gambling affected my relationship but did nt realise how much. . Its amazing when i think back how many blinkers i had on :-0 . . Masters golf week. . Usually kicking tele when someone ave backed in a 3 ball duffs his shot and high blood pressure stressed oot etc. . Not this week im gonna enjoy it for what it is. . A fantastic sporting event. . Today i did not bet tomorrow i wont bet. We can do this folks 🙂