my betting diary

Thanks for the post on my diary mate--I know it was you cos I had to have it translated--ha ha

Bobby Smith was really popular at Leicester although he had a terrible perm and tash I seem to recall. He was one of those players who would play anywhere.

Glad to see you are fighting fit again mate and continuing to beat the gambling bug.

Stumper

Hi Mr Winningpost!!

Thank you for your very kind words on my nameless diary! It has nt got a name because i am not very good on computers and when i signed up i committed the ultimate sin and signed up twice!! after explaining my being a dippy blonde and not knowing my email address i was given a reprise and allowed to continue posting but my original ramblings became nameless!! if you werent confused before you probably are now!!

Any way i have read through lots (not all!) of your diaries and posts and I would like to thank you for being an inspiration i have only stoped for 5 weeks but its so nice to be able to read about someone a bit further on and still doing so well! I did wander if you were from warwickshire as you talk about leicester and coventry but your accent tells me different! lol and your shifts and alcohol rules sound like you work for a company that used to be national rail? i dont think its anything to do with my recovery that i post a lot and read the diaries its just i am nosey!!!

But really you are doing so well and i can see that lots of others find you inspirational - keep moving forwards your efforts will be rewarded with peace of mind and happiness.

kind regards

linda x

Yeah well done mate, If I get to 20 weeks I wll be one of the happiest men in the world. Your family will be so proud of you and time is great healer.

Hi wp

Just wanted to say congrats on reaching 5 months mate. Thats great going and you should be very proud of yourself. Thanks for the contributions on my diary too. I don't have much support so what I get from good people like yourself on this site means a lot. I don't really post on other peoples diaries much but wanted to say well done on a fantastic achievement

So thanks mate and keep up the great work.

Dave

Mixed emotions today, I took the bull by the horns yesterday and sent a text asking a straight yes or no if there was a chance of reconciliation and that I have to move on one way or other in my life...this flat business is really getting me down but to my surprise the answer was yes..I was workin a late shift yest so haven't managed a proper talk but got text this morning asking me to go to beach with them for a wee while.....I absolutely loved it chasing the kids on the sand but seeing the little ones face when I got dropped off back at this flat made me bubble a bit..I had to leave to get ready for work....as I say mixed emotions am I ready for to try again,bit scared really but al certainly give it my best shot.....if it works it works if it doesn't then I've tried my hardest,differnce this time would be a gamble free relationship and that is most important...prob sit down and talk this week tho these late turns are a nuisance,like my punting its one day at a time tho as you know things could dramatically change......today I won't bet tomorrow I won't bet we can do this folks..

Hello wp

I have read through a lot of your posts and i think you have come such a long way. Your darker first days seem such a long time ago. You must be so proud of yourself.

I am only just starting out and the first real urges to gamble havent kicked in yet but i know its only a matter of time. You have kind of prepared me for what to come. I feel i need to say thank you for that.

I hope you continue on with your success in turning your life around. I will set about reading other peoples posts/diaries, as im sure they are just as inspiring.

Thank you

Hi wp,

Thanks for the welcome back post. It's good to be back mate. It really is.

I've been reluctant to come back and start a diary until i am absolutely sure that i am in the right frame of mind to beat this. I'm there now and with friends like you to help me along the way i think this may now be my time.

Congratulations on the 5 months wp. You are a shining light.

Hi post,

Even in adversity your positivity shines through mate. hope everything goes well with the ex situation, but whatever happens, remember your a sound bloke and you cannot change the past, you can only deal with the now and make plans for the future. Keep up the good work pal.

Stay Strong

Steve

just been reading your diary's mate and i just hope i can keep it together aswell as you can..

it help me by reading these diarys as i pick up so many little tips that must help

stay strong

thanks Al

Hey wp,

Sounds like there may be a light at the end of the tunnel from reading your last post, and none of us can go to anything with anything more than our best, whatever Sean Connery might say in "The Rock".

Good to see you decided to stick around, your so-called lack of computer literacy takes away nothing from your posts, you've always got perspective and positivity, two massive things for me, and many other CG's too from the responses on your diary.

All the best,

Ryan

Hi winningpost,

thanks for your post on my diary. Sounds like its going to take a while to regain the trust of your ex, and it is frustrating for you. I can really relate to how hard it is when you have been through hell tackling addiction, and feel you need some recognition and praise, but others are not finished being angry with you yet!

I am sure if you explain that you understand she isn't ready to have you back yet, and that you are not criticizing her for this it will get good results. It probably hit a raw nerve when you mentioned that the money you spend on your flat, could be better used towards your kids. It probably made her feel a bit guilty as a mum, but the truth is you are both doing your best and the kids are foremost in your minds.

Perhaps this is common ground to bond on? that you are both desperate to do your best by your kids, and how difficult it makes things.

Anyway, you are doing great in recovery. I am back in the saddle myself after way too many slips of late. I hope to get a good period of abstinence under my belt, like yourself. I think it will help me feel better about myself.

Take care,

f x

Hi wp

I really hope everything works out for you and your family. Sounds like there is real hope there. i hope you get the recognition and rewards you deserve for all the hard work you have put into your recovery.

And thanks for the advice on my diary. I took it and went for a couple of pints with my mates and i needed it. It was a cracking few hours and after the few days i've had i needed it so thanks for the nudge, without it i probably wouldn't have gone.

Keep up the battle, we can beat it

Dave

Hi wp

Well done again on your recovery. Really nice to see you had a good time at the beach with your family, hopefully things will work out really well for you all and surely a gamble free relationship would take the pressure off you. No lies, no deceipt and no feeling guilty just to name a few. I'm in no position to give advice on this but to me it seems your doing all you can to make this work and thats all you can do. Lifes too short to hold back and not chase happiness. From what you've said though its a brilliant start!

Also just wanted to say a massive thank you again for the really thoughtful post on my diary, i was really made up and appreciate these kind words very much!

Take care bud,

Jimmy

Glad to see that you had the chance to go to the beach with the family. Last time we were there the local mayor asked me to leave the beach as it was time for the tide to come in!!!

Reconcilliation like recovery from gambling is something that does not come overnight-it requires a great deal of work and no small amount of patience as you are well aware mate. With your track record at stopping gambling after all those years I am confident that if your marriage reconcillation does not work out it will not be for the want of 100% effort on your part.

Stumper

Hi wp

I knew i was right about the railways! i had a friend who worked for london midland and their shifts and alcohol rules were very similar!!!

Good news on the home front for you too!! its the same as the gambling recovery take one day at a time and dont think things will be sorted overnight. I truly hope you get the outcome that is right for you and your hardwork and perseverence at quitting gambling should reap its rewards.

All the best!

kind regards

linda x