My diary

day 7, 1 whole week still not given in not had a single bet, feels good not once have I got up with that awful feeling we all know we get when we play and lose, done so much this week, went out, read a book, played badminton, had family down for dinner, done so many little jobs around the house, if I had not started this my week would have had a different outcome, probably would have played nearly every night maybe I would have won, but would of lost as its hard to cashout and keep it, would have got up late every day, ironing would be like mount Everest, this is a huge step for me, sounds stupid its only gambling, a bit of fun,but tell you what I feel a better person for not being weak, I feel calmer more chilled out, not stressed or depressed. now for week 2 hope I get there, know I will, I love feeling as I do now, don't want those bad feelings back.

should have done his ages ago, leaflets all around the casino where I work, just never thought to look at them, knew they were there just never thought to read them. you know you guys who go casinos, don't be fooled by how nice everyone is, its a lie the casinos wants your cash, plain and simple. so next time you go just think about that, online is no different, you go to cancel they offer you a cashmatch bonus, just to keep you playing, as I am an addict and they know it. so bye. and hip hip hooray.

Back at work tomorrow so won't be checking in again for a week, but I promise myself I will stay strong, got up this morning and my house looked lovely so tidy so clean amazing when I don't gamble how much better I feel. Had inlaws down for tea last night, done so much last week I actually enjoyed myself. Maybe it's just because it's my first week but I'll keep this feeling with me, opposite of this is sleepless nights, depression, worry etc so no I wont gamble, Sunday night was my worst night, felt agitated really wanted to gamble, felt awful pangs of wanting to play, but I did not give in, so will log off and see you next week. Still read the diaries but as I said wont be checking in till my next days off.

Said I wouldn't check in this week, but I am going to as I know how my mind works, I got paid this weekend I can afford it I have had a week without it, I'll be alright, got it under control, but no I havent, when I am still thinking about it, I don't have it under control, so I will be in here everyday. My goal is to stop which I have up to now, but don't want to fall off the wagon so to speak, back in work tonight, so will check in when I get home, not speaking to slots players apart from hello, not gonna listen to their big win stories, always sets me off, thinking I could do that, have a go when I get home. No I wont. Don't want to feel I have let myself down, don't want to be back at square one. So week 2 begins for me and want to get to the end of it gamble free.

Went to work got home watched emmerdale, then went to bed. That's how it's gonna be for me, another day, feel better as each day goes by, mind clear now, just glad I am a strong person. Feel for every one who lapses I know it's hard, but it's better not to, last night in casino people coming up to the bar looked anxious recognise that look. One guy told me he put 600 quid in a machine and lost the lot, felt for him, said he was having a drink and going home, 2 hours later he is still in playing the slots, telling me he lost another 300 quid, sad but that's gambling, been there done that.

got home from work last night, had a busy, busy shift. had a drink when I got home, and started looking at online sites, as the urge over took me, realised what I was doing and went off them and logged on here to read my and others diaries, close call but feel so much better I did not join any could have won felt lucky, if I had of give in this post would have been completely different. so keep it up lisa .

Hi Lisa

Well done to you, because you would not have won you would have lost , we will never win because we cannot stop.

So there is no point in feeding the addiction,.

Keep going stay strong and win again today.

Suzanne xx

Hey Suzanne thanks, finished my working week, last night a punter won 4 grand on the slots, it is so hard working in a casino still free but just want TO HAVE A GO, HATE THIS FEELING OF REFRAINING FREOM PLAYING. I feel really bored, just reading, watching telly, I do ten hour shifts so it is work and bed work and bed. Days off now so will be better being away from that gambling den. again thanxs Suzanne glad you posted, hope your still strong and free from this sh,t. its so hard.

Hey Saca

Well done, yes it's hard refraining but it's sooo much worth it, the positives of not gambling far out weigh the negatives of playing, think that when you get that feelng, think what you will be losing and not winning,

Because we know we won't win because we won't stop.

Keep going and stay strong

Suzanne xx

Still not had a go, come to terms now that I won't be gambling again, had that thought of just one more go, but know that's not going to happen. Best thing I ever did, you see I wont gamble and come on here saying I haven't gambled no point lying. Days off now so a lot to do, bought a metal detector last week so that is going to be my hobby got my permit, and went into the local park woods, found a few bits and bobs nothing valuable but you never know might find a Saxon hoard, bit like gambling really you never know what your going to find when my detector goes off.

hi to myself, still not give in but getting easier as everyday goes by, went on my online banking, nice to see no money at all has gone out for the last couple of weeks, had the guts to add up what I had gambled prior to starting my diary, made very uncomfortable reading, felt really shamed, but good job I am not in debt as others are through what we did, treated myself this week. last night a guy won a progressive slots jackpot over fourteen grand, was happy for him, not jealous, you see he is in the casino all day and night feeding cash in to the machines, the slots host told me its good they win big jackpots, it makes them play more, he will do it in in a month or so plus more gets them really addicted. well know that feeling. not feeling so bored, but would still like a go, but not going to happen.

Hi Lisa,

You are doing great. Keep doing what you are doing and you will get a string of non-gambling days.

I have gone over the 100 days and I want to scream and shout at you to keep going! It is life changing stuff.

When you see someone win 2k, tell yourself it cost them 5k. If they win 500,000, it cost them a million and so on.

I have gone so much off slots. I can see straight through all their marketing ploys. It's legal but it's a scam for problem gamblers.

Your life will be so much easier. It will be the same life but you will handle things so much better. Don't give in. You will soon turn that corner & you will turn your back on slots forever.

Do it THIS time. It can be done. Nothing will lure me back and it can be the same for you.

Take care,

Suzy

Hi Lisa,

I am back to you again as I might not get a chance during the week.

Anytime someone wins at the casino it is never profit. They have always spent more than the winnings. They will then pour the winnings back in the machine and more money with it too. Maybe not the same night, but they will be back.

Nobody wins except the casino.

Don't ever envy any customer in that casino. Some of them spend the taxi fare home and have to take a late night bus which puts them in danger. Some of them even spend the last pound on the slots and have to walk home. Mothers are late to pick up their children from school.

A high percentage of those casino players who are "winning" will join this site in years to come.

Gambling escalates.

I do not attend G.A. but coming on this site for an hour or so is my way of attending. When you go to work you should see it as attending G.A. Many of those customers have gambling problems. It is hidden. We all hid it.

Have a lovely gamble-free weekend,

Suzy

hey there what a wonderful post wow wow wow 100 days jealous, 3 weeks for me. Thankyou soooooooo much feeling frustrated about this online slots I want to swear but I wont, they should be banned, just paid off my credit card bill balance of 7 and a half grand all online casinos, shamed also when I totalled my debit card online slots it was 12 and a half grand in 6 months, good god it is a good job I am in a financial position where it is not a problem, the problem was it is all I did play, play, play. not going to be a mug anymore, my life is so much better, my life is better my private life is fantastic now with my partner, not going back to online. When I get to 100 days I will dance with joy, good luck Suzy. thanx your post made me a winner not a loser. really glad you wrote what you did made me shout no no no no more gambling.

Still free, feel great, feel really good not had a single bet. Hope this is it, found different ways to fill my time, so I'll keep popping in here every now and then.