My diary - where to start

Hi Helen

We're all sadly in this same boat trying to stop gambling, its a hard slog but with support and chatting on here will really help 

I hope speaking to your partner helps too

Always here for a chat and support

Good luck xx 

Hi helen

I feel your pain i got a notication that a break from casino had ended and that was it again 2 days gone and alot of money. I really shouldnt be allowed money  now.

My partner was amazing, he come through the door 

and pulled me to him and gave me a hug. 
we chatted for a few hours. 
his disappointed, and upset that I didn’t tell him sooner. He will support me though it. 

his not particularly bothered by the money as he says it’s only money and he would rather us be together and our relationship is worth more than that. 

i feel like a big weight has lifted of my shoulders coming clean 

I can finally see a light at the end of this tunnel 

because I am determined never to do it again. 

That's great Helen,  so glad all went well, you can now move forward with your recovery with support from your husband 

Well done x

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That's great Helen,  so glad all went well, you can now move forward with your recovery with support from your husband 

 

Well done x

thank you, that means a lot. 

trying to keep busy today, because I do find my mind wanders a lot otherwise and I feel so guilty for what I have done. 
I sat down after work and thought about what I would I normally be doing right now, didn’t help that I got an email from a site about my spending habits, even though I’ve closed them and blocks in place- I suppose this things will test me. 
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Really struggling today, got home from work and gambling is really on my mind. 
I’m so bored and that’s my problem, trying to keep busy but that’s not enough. 

5 days gamble free today. Haven’t really thought about it but it’s kicked in- feeling so low because I want to but I definitely won’t. Don’t know what to do with myself - just had a shower and put my pjs on - I feel like it’s going to be a long night. 

Hi Helen, well done so far! Hope your doing okay? Totally understand the boredom factor playing a big part. It's brilliant your partner supports you through this, that's another reason to keep on posting and stay gamble free. You got this