[Closed] My Last Bad Day

I think I annoyed the Helpline person by asking if they are Scottish. Lol. I can't do ought me. I upset everyone. I am so done. 

I just want to give you a hug right now 

I will read your diary more when I am home later.. Just stealing time now at work.. Naughty.me xx joking. Just a quick official break 

Boo ?

It was lovely to see you in chat today Drama. I couldn’t seem to post anything so sorry if it looked like I had disappeared, I was there!

Hello Drama. I have been worrying about you today and hope you are ok.

Sadly it is not unknown for a compulsive gambler to spoil a happy occasion by gambling and now you will remember yesterday for the wrong reasons. It is a mystery why we choose to treat ourselves so badly but we do so on many occasions.

I really don't know what to say because I have been in similar situations before and it is a sad and lonely experience and I imagine you are feeling dissapointed.

It is good that you have opened up on your diary to your gamcare friends. The addiction would have probably preferred you to keep it as a guilty secret but you have shown that you are an honest and trustworthy person and your renunciation of gambling is a powerful weapon in your armoury.

Stay strong good lady. We are all by your side willing you to carry on with your journey.

Stephen x 

Please don't worry. I am fine just busy trying to get all my chores done today so I can study all day tommoz. 

I have not gambled, drunk or smoked today and I feel fine. 

Laters. 

Gaudete Sunday. 

I woke up to tea and toast in bed from Hubby. I had that and then watched some Youtube videos on Chromecast. I was watching like the top 5 tornado's ever and closed my eyes and relaxed. My body went all heavy and almost like it's dissappeared in the warmth of the bed. I muted the tellybox and just went with the feeling. Like I didn't wanna go back to sleep but I did wanna enjoy what it feels like to be relaxed. In my mind I was imagining bobbing along in a small boat on a pretty calm ocean on a hot sunny day. I held that picture in my head for ages and just enjoyed it. 

I went on chat for a spell at lunch. 

I went to the Supermarket. Very very busy. The quietest part was near the perfume so I escaped there and did some breathing to chill out. I was still stressed so I called Hubby and asked him to talk to me for a bit. He knows exactly what I mean cos he knew where I was and how I feel about it. He chatted nonk until I said I'd be reet. 

I bought some cleanser, toner and shower gel for my Gym bag. Really looking forward to the New Year now. I can't wait. 

After that, I went to some woods near a golf course. It was dropping dark and spooky so I video called Hubby whilst me and the dog walked down there. 

Then I went home and dropped off the shopping for Hubby to deal with. 

Then I to do my cleaning jobs. They were minging and I didn't help with my muddy shoes after the woods so I went home and changed them and then went back to work. Couldn't just give 'em a tickle. Had to do a good job. 

I have cleaned out the fridge of everything that had died. 

I went on chat this evening. 

I made Hubby a fry-up and I had Potato and Cheese soup that I made from scratch. It was lush. 

I'm shattered. Might go to bed early. Last few days have been exhausting. 

Drama x

I had completely missed  it was Gaudete Sunday. Wrapped in my own thoughts.

Sleep well sweet Angel x 

I am taking a Gamcare break. It's for the best. 

Will miss you Drama but you have to do what you feel is best for you.

Thank you for the help, support and encouragement you have given me over the last several weeks, you really are a treasure and I am proud to think of you as a friend.

You know were we are when your ready to come back.

Stephen x 

Drama, you have given me so much wise counsel over the last six weeks. Whatever you do, make sure that it is the best thing for you. No one else matters. 

Drama... No one will sit in that empty chair In chat till you return.. No one can fill the void you leave ❤️but you have to heal also. Take your time...

Boo x

Dear Drama, 

I understand that you have a lot going on at the moment and may wish to take a break for a little while, so just to add as others have already, that you are welcome back any time that you are ready. 

If you wish to talk in the meantime,  please don't hesitate in contacting the helpline or netline, both are available 24 hours a day. 

Wishing you all the very best,

Forum Admin

Missing you Drama and hope you are ok.

Take good care of yourself and keep your chin up.

"Keep smiling at troubles for troubles are bubbles and bubbles will soon blow away"

Stephen x 

you have made my day, and week... ?