[Closed] My Last Bad Day

Posted by: Mixer

Hi Drama,

I always read your diary, it's a really good read - raw, honest, with that underlying spark and humour. (There are no flies on you!)  Glad that you weren't unduly tilted by the curveball comment on Chat earlier ... We all had your back, Ok.

Here's wishing you a relaxing Boxing Day.

Mixer

I appreciate your support Mixer. I think the lad is just gung-ho for recovery cos it's early days for him. That's my take on it. 

There are definitely no flies on me, just marks where they've been. 😉 

Drama 

xoxoxo

Hi Drama 

Glad you had a good day. You said the other night about being mad as a box of frogs but I’m sure that’s not true. We all have historical issues that have led us to where we are and deal with it in different ways - that does not make us or you mad. Maybe just in need of a little extra love and care. 

Proud of you for getting through the urge and calling the chat line. Was thinking of you past few days and really wanted you to have a good Christmas Day. Sounds like you have which makes me so happy. 

Hope you have a good nights sleep. 

Bex x

Duplicated the post for some reason ?

Can't sleep. No gambling urges. Nothing worrying me that I can think of. I am so tired. I just can't sleep. 

Had two cheese crackers and a packet of cheese and onion crisps and a chicken and stuffing sandwich. Maybe I was a bit hungry? Moff back to bed. Xxx

I hope the midnight snack does just the job x

I got plenty of sleep and did not gamble or even bug anyone on the helpline. 

I feel very happy! ?

Hi Dramallama. Absolutely made up you didn't have a bet yesterday. Sorry if i upset you with my comments (knuckle down) wasnt meant to be offensive.... I just really want you to be successful n beating this horrible disease we have in our heads. Stay strong today and take an hour at a time. That really is helping me. I feel a day without gambling is far too long so i try and just go for an hour at a time. So far its working but just wish thrse urges would go away x

It's alright. I didn't think you were out to offend. Just more of a tough love thing. Trouble is, I'm very immature and tough love doesn't wash wi'me. Just puts my back up. I do appreciate your support. Don't worry about yesterday, it's history. 

Feels nice to be gamble free, even for a short spell. Have a good day Paul. 

Drama. x

That has made my day Drama. So pleased ?

Aww thanks drama. I felt so bad last night when i seen ypu left the group chat. I honestly didn't mean to offend anybody. Like you said im new to this site and went in all guns blazing wanting everyone to have the same mental attitude as i do at the minute...  where as i hate everything about gambling due to the pain and misery its caused me. Once again im truly sorry and thanks for accepting my apology.  Paul x

Morning Drama great to see you are feeling better.

I can usually tell by your profile picture how your feeling. The ears are a little off centre when you are feeling glum and the sunglasses are a bit skewiff.

Wishing you all the happiness in the entire universe and hope you gave wild wacky and wonderful adventures today tomorrow and every day if your life.

From A Secret Admirer x 

Morning Drama great to see you are feeling better.

I can usually tell by your profile picture how your feeling. The ears are a little off centre when you are feeling glum and the sunglasses are a bit skewiff.

Wishing you all the happiness in the entire universe and hope you have wild wacky and wonderful adventures today tomorrow and every day if your life.

From A Secret Admirer x 

Hi Drama

Glad you got a good night’s sleep and didn’t gamble as well as feeling happy today. You deserve it. 

Sending hugs. 

Bex x

Boxing Day. 

I had a lovely lie-in and woke up without a thick head for a change. Splendid feeling! 

I went on chat for a bit at lunch. That was nice. 

I did cleaning job no. 1. It wasn't so bad. Only took an hour. 

I then went home to watch Football. We lost. Our next game is on Sunday. Hubby joked about whether I'd be actually going this time. :/

I went and did cleaning job no. 2. It also wasn't so bad and I got done in an hour. 

I phoned my Dad to go visit and he palmed me off. He said I'd left it too late. It's only 6 P.m. I knew they were having my baby brother and his partner round for tea so I presumed they dint wanna see me. 

Just spent an hour with anxiety and feeling bad. Then my Mum phoned and was real nice. She let me know that my baby brother had cancelled and wanted to know if I wanted to go round. I lied and said that I had had some Rum and can't drive now. I guess I don't like being second best company just cos someone else cancelled. I said I'd go up on Sunday before the match. I can walk down from there to the ground. It's not far. 

She accepted that and said she looks forward to seeing me and giving me my presents. I love it when she is nice. I wish she was like it all the time. 

Drama. x