My gambling habits started back at university over ten years ago. At the beginning it was fun when my horse came in first place it was a real buzz!!! How times can change - now gambling brings raw feelings of depression self loathing and emptiness. Spiralling debts, emotional turmoil, lies followed by more lies all of which cause stress in personal relationships and often leave you at breaking point. Gambling became my so called best friend and no matter how many times it drags you down or stabs you in the back you forgive and forget and come back for more. I have been trying to stop for three or four years now but cannot manage it. So I am back now to try again. I gambled on Monday and surprise surprise I lost - my self control has been worn away over the years to the point were I find it hard to steer clear of the bookies. But I am confident this time will be different... my wife has access of bank account and cards. I carry 10 only for journey to and from work and lunch - otherwise temptation is sitting on my shoulder... My wife, daughter and unborn baby (due October) deserve a father who provides for them in every way and is consistant with them. My mood should not swing based upon whether or not I backed a winner or a loser. I am sick of lies to cover my tracks - I want to be honest and be able to look people in the eye!!! Four years ago my gambling debt was close to 20k now it is just about 5k which is progress but unless I deal with the major issue then the debts are likely to grow again which I do not want.
SO here goes my approach is day by day - not counting days through as I often see this as counting the days to your next gamble!! I am going to fill the void left my gambling in my life with devoting all my time and efforts to my adorable family who I love with all my heart. On the other hand GAMBLING I DETEST YOU - YOU TRULY ARE A HORRID CREATURE WHICH HAS MADE ME SHADOW OF MY FORMER SELF : NO MORE THE REAL ME IS ON THE ROAD BACK FROM THE DARK SIDE YOU BETTER WATCH YOUR BACK BECAUSE I HAVE YOUR NUMBER GAMBLING DEMONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hope we can both beat this once and for all, ps i agree with what you say about counting days
Thanks buddy - day by day is the only way!!
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